Star Sapphire~ Yva Yolan & Ydmzihar

Goodbye

2009-07-03T00:53:00.003+08:00

I guess I really finally have to say good bye to you. It is over. It is the final goodbye. No more patching up back. No more returning back to where once we were.

Last time all those break ups initiated by me were just some childish tantrums I had. But this is the real deal. There won't be any turning back as much as I want to.

7 years of relationship... in one night, everything is gone. I tried to cry on that night. But tears just came out bit by bit. Then next day, I had a good cry. I don't know when it is going to end. When can my heart stop feeling so painful.

I don't know since when I have become this bitter and angry person. Probably breaking up is a good choice.

I hate all of this. I don't want to miss you. I don't want to miss the places we had been to. I don't want to recall the first few years of our relationship. I don't want to miss having your hand wrap around my hand. They were all good memories. But it is too painful to recall.. I don't want to have to always cry and think about those!

It is always difficult to be the one who say good bye first. But it must be done somehow. We aren't compatible with each other. I believe there is one girl who will suit you. And I wish you all the best.

The saddest thing is the dream you had... about me on the plane crash. You called me on the cell phone and I picked up and said, " I'm fine and I'm really happy because I can do anything here." Symbolizing that I'm dead and I'm in paradise. It kind of symbolize in real life that I'm no longer the cheerful and bright girl I was last time. That girl that you love initially "died" and no longer were there...

I really appreciate that you honestly told me what were your thoughts and you did not want to do anything despicable behind my back.

I hope we can still remain as friends. Thanks for the past 7 years for taking good care of me, lent me financial support whenever you could for me, being there with me through different phases of life. Life had definitely been colorful for me with you around.

I am truly sorry... if I mistreated you in any way during the past. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that as a girlfriend, I did not add enough colors in your life for you as you did to me.

You were such a big part of my life and my heart. Now that large part has been taken away from me. I know I will need time to re adjust living my life knowing that you will not be part of my life anymore. Thanks for making such a deep imprint in my life. You will always be my first love and will always hold a special place in my heart.

Live well, take care, my friend. I wish you all the happiness in the world. You truly deserve it.

Back again?

2008-02-18T00:49:00.003+08:00

Wow... I left this blog dying for 7 months! Hahaha... I wonder my friends, agwenalist and neleh still read this. I guess not. Anyway I'm more lazy to type down whatever that happened.

Things changes fast after 7 months. Yes such a short amount of time. 7 months ago, I was happy. Happy in my company. Thought everything will turn out fine. Who thought that you will discover so many things(mostly bad) about colleagues and management under the short 7 months?

Unbelievable.

Sigh...

To make long story short... past 7 months, ppl left the company, a friend got married and finally threw the wedding banquet. Can't believe that I have worked in this company for 2 years. Wow... I need to leave this company. To get to another environment. But then I'm just so damn lazy to work on my portfolio... And when there are opportunities coming, it slipped away just because i'm "unprepared"! It's so frustrating!!!

I won't promised I will update this blog. Maybe just drop in and type a few words... when I feel like it. ;)

Oh yeah I cannot believe that I'm turning 26 this year. Last time, I always look forward to my birthday so I could think of ways to celebrate with my close friends. But not anymore. Time passes by like a bullet train. I'm scared. :(

T.Y.M.F

2007-06-25T17:15:00.000+08:00

T.Y.M.F

Thank.You.My.Friends.

Yes thank you all for being such a caring and loving friends! You are all my precious gems!

I will thank these 2 for coming to my birthday dinner. Although I cannot afford to treat you both but you both perform well! Very entertaining! Hahaha!!! Just kidding!

To "Chen Baby" (you know who you are) : Thanks for sharing all the crazy emoticons stories with me! Your every sentences always cracked me up! Thanks for the creative wishes you drew and wrote in the card! So cute ah!!! I love to always talk a lot of crap with this one. Hor CHEN BABY!? You still remember me? Don't remember? Repeat one more time with me! Anyway let us not forget Chen Baby forever ok? Muacks! Hahahaha! ps: I'm sorry that I didn't sms you to send you your brithday wishes ok? I didn't know you saved those smses :(

To "Hao Peng You": Yes lai lai lai! Sai alot of money to me la!!! Thanks for the contributions to Zixin Charity! Hahaha! Wo heng ai ni ah!!! You think I don't ai ni right? But you are wrong le!!! Hahaha! Thanks for being there at my bday celebration! Really had a great time with you and Chen Baby, "hao peng you" ah forever ah? Hee hee.

Ps: Chen baby and hao peng you remember hard that we ate alot of cupcakes on that day.... SIX cupcakes ok! Too bad no pictures to show... but it's really pretty!

To Helen: Thank you so much for sending me the Animal Crossing mini poster! I was touched by your gesture because you still remember I like that ya? :) So sweet of you! Although you weren't there for the dinner, your spirit with us anyways! Oh do check out Helen's blog and look what she has done for me! So cute!!! Hee hee! I like it!!! :D

Next to my colleagues: Thanks for the Ipod Nano!!! You are all great people!!! Esp the one who is leaving on the 13th of July. The message I am receiving from her through her little gestures is GOODBYE. I don't think she will read this blog. But the tears have been spilled. Anyway thanks! This is a great present!!! And I like it alot!!! :D

To I***e: Another betrayer who left the "ship"! Hahaha! Thanks for the birthday wishes! And also thanks for sharing the present with the colleagues. Thanks for having dinner with me on Friday too! It was a fun night with you! Hahaha! And also the Big Treat!!! Thank you thank you! I love you babe! :)

To Jing and Zhen: Thank you both for the presents too! And birthday wishes. These 2 have been my close friends for so many many many many years already! Words cannot express how thankful I am to have them as my close friends. And one of them is getting married soon!!!

To my boyfriend: Thank you! :)

Actually all of above can be summarise by saying Thank You My Friends... But I wrote so much things... Plus this thank you speech is long over due! I'm going to get scolding from Chen Baby already la... Hahaha...

I just want to say that having able to meet all of you, getting to know all of you must be my good karma accumulated in my previous life. Friends are difficult to come by already much less of close best friends! So i am lucky! :)

Oh ya Chen Baby nowadays keep working outdoors. Very frustrating... cos she cannot entertain me in the office. :P

Happy Birthday Helen!

2006-12-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

I haven't been logging into blogger to blog down anything since September which is like... 3 months ago? Anyway the reason I am here is because today is my close friend, Helen's birthday. I just want to dedicate today's blog to her!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HELEN!

I'm so glad to have know you since poly. Remember the first time I met you in the auditorium in NYP? I bet you don't remember already la. Anyway thanks for everything you did for me. How you made me realise things and pull me down-to-earth and face the reality of life. How you always give your honest comments on stuff. And most of all, I want to thank you for covering the blanket on me when we were doing our "NOMAD" website project. Thanks for making me that milo hot drink. What you did that night really made a very great impact and impression!

Happy Birthday Helen! I love you very much! Please take good care of yourself ok? : )

ps: I dunno when you will come by to my "already-dead" blog to read this. But I will just leave this here just in case : ) Happy Belated Birthday Helen!

Zelda

2006-09-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

No, this blog is not about Nintendo Zelda, the game... It's my cousin!!! I finally got to know her name! Zelda!!! Cute name ya? ;) My uncle still have not decide to give her what chinese name. He is torn between Jia Hui and Jia Yi... I'm not sure about Jia Hui.. But I know that Jia Yi is one of the choice.

Today I finally got to meet Zelda! She was the smallest thing I ever saw in my life... Her hair was straight not curly and she got quite alot of hair. Her fingers were quite long. When I reached the hospital, she was sleeping peacefully in her mother's arms. Auntie Arina told me that she kept wailing after she put her down in her crib. She did open her eyes to see us =) When she tried to open her eyes, her left eyes got stuck or something hahaha... she couldn't open it. So she just open her right eyes...

After Auntie Arina finished feeding her milk, she opened both of her eyes to see us.. hehe... But she got wailed in between the times we were looking at her. Her wails were very poor thing... hear already, heart pain.. =(

(L-R): Zelda was about to cry... Then she really cried... =(

(L-R): Zelda couldn't open her left eye... hee hee.. so cute! ^^

Remember I told you all that she has a 24 year old age gap with me! -___- So when she is 24, I will be 48! Talk about being OLD man!!! Hahaha!

More pictures will be posted I promise! When she is like older, I guess I will definitely take alot of her pictures ^^

Awfully Chocolate

2006-09-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

Awfully Chocolate, Awfully Sinful & Good...

Hehehe... Today I went to Katong Mall to collect the awfully chocolate cake for my brother ultra belated birthday... I also bought a pint tub of their premium dark chocolate ice-cream, quite nice la. This cake shop is actually non existent in my world until MC from my company told me that the cake is very very nice...

Actually, I didn't find it VERY nice la.. it was ok but fell short of one notch to my expectation. I bought 2 flavours. One was the whole dark chocolate cake, the other one was two layers of fresh pisang rajah banana in between signature chocolate cake. You won't find it too rich after eating alot of the cake. So it was still ok.

(L-R): The name card; The awfully sinful cake

The awfully dark chocolate ice-cream, code name as "hei", 黑. Packaging is quite nice. Ice-cream is being packed into a box and put into this bag which insulate coldness to keep the ice-cream from melting! Nice!

Interested? Please click here for more information!
Awfully Chocolate

FW: One Woman's Story On Soya

2006-09-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

Today when I checked my email, I saw the following forward email, by right I should have deleted it but I read on...

Subject: FW: OneWoman'sStoryOnSoya
Date: Thu, 31 Aug 2006 12:37:59 +0800

ONE WOMAN'S STORY ON SOYA...

This is my true story, nothing altered. These are facts, as they relate to my experience, my opinions based on what I have read and felt. I am relating them to warn other young health-conscious women who are unwittingly harming themselves.

In 1989, I graduated from high school in Texas and couldn't wait to hit the big college city. One of the changes I wanted to make was to eat healthier.

Once I moved to health-conscious Austin, Texas, I began to fortify my body with the best and healthiest foods I could find. Tofu was the main ingredient in every healthy dish and I bought soya milk almost every day used it for everything from cereal to smoothies or just to drink for a quick snack. I bought soya muffins, miso soup with tofu, soybeans, soybean sprouts, etc. All the literature in all the health and fitness magazines said that soya protected you against everything from heart disease to breast cancer. It was the magical isoflavones, the estrogen-like hormones that all worked to help you stay young and healthy. I looked great, I was working out all the time, but mymenstrual cycle was off. At 20, I started taking birth control pills to regulate my menstrual cycle.

In addition to this I began to suffer from painful periods. I began to get puffy, it was as though I was losing my muscle tone. I began tosuffer from depression and getting hot flashes. I mistook all this for PMS since my periods were irregular. By the time I was 25, my periods were so bad, I couldn't walk.

The birth control pills never made them regular or less painful so Idecided to stop taking them. I went on like this for another two yearsuntil I realized my pain wasn't normal. At 27, my gynecologist found two cysts in my uterus. Both were the size of tennis balls. I went through surgery to have them removed and thank God they were benign.The gynecologist told me to go back on birth control pills. I didn't. In 1998, he discovered a lump in my breast. Again, I went through surgery and again it was benign.

In November 2000 my glands swelled up and my gums became inflamed. Thinking I had a tooth infection I went to the dentist who told me that teeth were not the problem. After a dose of antibiotics the swelling still did not go down. At this point I could feel a tiny nodule on the right side of my neck. I told my mother I had thyroid trouble. She think I was being silly. No one in the family suffered from thyroid trouble. Going on a hunch I saw a specialist who diagnosed me with Papillary Thyroid Carcinoma.

After a series of tests he told me it was cancer. My fiance and I satstunned. We were not prepared and I was so scared. We scheduled surgery right away. The specialist told us that it would only be after the operation that a pathologist would be able to tell us for sure if itwas cancer. They found a tumor at my right lobe composed of irregular cells and another smaller tumor growing on the left, so the entire thyroid was removed.

They told me that after undergoing radioactive iodine I would be safe and assured me that I could live a long life. After treatment I began to search for the cause of all these problems. I never once thought it could be all the soya I had consumed for nearly ten years. After all, soya is healthy.

I came upon a web page that linked thyroid problems to soya intake and the conspiracy of soya marketed as a health food when in fact it is only a toxic by-product of the vegetable oil industry. This was insane, afterall, the health and fitness magazines had said nothing about soya being harmful.

I visited a herbalist who was diagnosed with thyroid cancer in 1985. She informed me that soya was the culprit. She had a hysterectomy dueto cysts and other uterine problems. A few months later another acquaintance who had consumed soya came down with thyroid cancer. A girl in England I met through the Internet in a thyroid cancer forum hadjust undergone surgery and she was only 19.

What was going on? Breast cancer is linked to estrogen. What mimics estrogen in the female body, SOYA! But I never suspected soya because until now I never once found a single article that stated soya could be dangerous. Women who took soya prior to thyroid problems will continue to take it after ifthey are not aware of what soya actually does, what it contains and how it reacts in the female body. I think this is the reason that women withthyroid cancer often develop breast cancer later.

My co-worker is big into soya and I see her losing hair and gaining weight despite a walking workout during her break and after work, and apples and oranges for lunch. She just had cysts removed from heruterus too. I warned her to stay off soya. I referred her to websites but until itis on the evening news on all four networks, women will suffer. Since the thyroidectomy. I do not touch soya, haven't for two years.

Dear readers, please use my story in any way you can. There are so many young girls who are consuming soya because they think they are taking care of themselves, and women taking soya because they want to be healthy. It is so unfair that the information about the dangers of soya isn't more widely circulated. It is sad. There are many out there who feel this way and it is a terrible blow when you realize you are not as healthy as you thought and that the information that you depended on was wrong.

Oh shit man... and we think Soya stuff are suppose to be healthy?

On the 31st of August...

2006-08-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

A BABY GIRL is born!!! (that will make her a Virgo!)

~~~HOOOOOO YEAYYYYYYY!!!!~~~

Congratulations to Auntie Arina and Uncle Leong!!! And welcome my newborn cousin!!! According to what my uncle said, my little cute cousin opened her big eyes to look around the environment like she was trying to familarise who was her father there and then. Hahaha! So cute!!! Her birth was a natural one... So that's good! =)

Although our age gap will be 24 years difference, I hope you and I get along well in all aspect! ^^ I will love and care for you! Hee hee... ^^

p.s: I will post up some of my cousin pictures soon. As of what is her name, I have no idea... =p Now what should I buy for her...?

Indulgz Bistro

2006-08-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I met up with my 3 secondary friends, Huizhen, Shuh Jing and Shin Huey. It has been a very long time since we met up.

Jing suggested to eat @ 川一品 some chinese steamboat restaurant around the Bugis Icon building. They have a variety of food but it was not really very nice. I guess maybe I didn't really like to eat chinese food. Each person need to pay 15 dollars. It's quite expensive in my opnion because I think the restaurant's food, ambience and hygience only worth about 10 dollars? This restaurant was actually operated by china people.

After that, we went on to have dessert behind the side of Bugis Icon. Jing actually wanted to introduce us to "Ice Heaven", a dessert shop served mostly ice... somewhat like ice kacang.. Not really to my liking. Luckily, that shop was closed! Suddenly something caught my eye! It was the bistro beside it! Its name - Indulgz. We were first attracted by the cakes display and then the chef actually came out of the bistro and greeted us. She was really sincere so we went in.

I actually wanted to order chocolate fondue but then my 3 friends didn't wanted that so... =( Anyway I order the bistro's speciality, Lemon Souffle! IT WAS DIVINE!!! They actually hand whipped the souffle by themselves and pour it into the margarita glass! Zhen had Strawberry Rhapsody, it's a dessert whereby only strawberries were served with handwhipped cream and sugar. It wasn't anything special but nevertheless it tasted good too. Jing had Tiramisu, which I didn't dig much because I wasn't a big fan of alcohol. Shin Huey had Choclate Brownies with ice-cream. I absolutely loved it!!! Oh did I mention that the crockery that they use to put the strawberries was rather cute? It was like a four leaf clover ^^

Behind L-R: My Lemon Souffle ^^ : Strawberry Rhapsody
Front L-R: Chocolate Brownie : Tiramisu

It was too bad that we didn't try their Entree, Sides, Burgers and Salad =((((( One of their pasta was quite unique, they actually fried angel hair, I had never tried pasta that way!

I highly recommend this bistro as the price is reasonable, the ambience is very nice! Next time I'm going there to eat till I drop!!! ^^ Hahahaha! Ok it is time for my evening jog now! Till the next time! Ta!!! ^^

A Traumatising Experience!

2006-08-22T14:15:00.000+08:00

Hurrray!!!
I have one whole block leave to myself!!! Starting from 21st to 25th of August!
It's great to know that I won't need to wake up at 7am in the morning to get ready for work!
It's great to know that I won't doze off at sleep during work and I can take my nap anytime of the day with my bed near me!!!
\(-__-)\ Block Leave Banzai!!! /(-__-)/ Hahahaha ^^

Yesterday night, I just went to TLC with Gwen... My treatment for that night is... SPECTRA....

The purpose of this treatment is to minimise pores... I'm so freak out because I have never do this treatment before. And the sound of the machine is really scary... *Tatatatatata... TATATATATA....* O.O

Before the treatment started, I kept telling all the assitants that I was very very scared. Hahaha! Assitant A put a numbing cream onto my face, she was very generous, she pour alot of numbing cream onto my face, and I waited for like 20 mins, then assitant B came in and help me wipe off the numbing cream... assitant B commented that assitant A really put alot and alot of numbing cream! And that the doctor could on to the highest power for the machine to treat my face! My face felt swollen and numb but in reality my face wasn't really swollen. And then I was ushered to another room for the big "operation"!

They cover my eyebrows, eyes, stuff my ears with cotton wool. The doctor asked me to close my eyes... then the whole process started... I could smell like something was burning... I was clasping my hands, and I could felt another pair of hand was on mine. I was feeling quite touched that assitant C was so kind to comfort me. =)
But actually it wasn't really that painful, thanks to the generous amount of numbing cream that assitant A put on me. It was only till the doctor did it to the part of my nose that I felt ouch! Then the doctor explained that it was because my nose have huge pores that's why... which I agreed... Must fast minimise that part.. it looked so hideous!

And the treatment for SPECTRA comes up to a whopping $472.50!!!

$$$ Trouble

2006-08-19T10:32:00.000+08:00

Sigh...

Ridiculous it may sound but something just happened to my brother. His boss ran away with the company assets leaving my brother jobless...

The trouble is he just bought a car last year and is still trying to pay off the payment of the car monthly. Each month he needs to pay off around SGD500. Last time while he still had his job, my mom asked me to help him pay his monthly car fees just to lighten his burden. I agreed to only help him by contributing 50 dollars.

But up till now I still have not actually give him the money monthly because I find that I do not have enough money left each month for me to save. Then now my brother is jobless, how is he going to afford to pay the monthly 500 dollars for the car?

Yesterday night, my mom came into my room, with redden and wet eyes, obviously she was no the verge of crying. She told me that my brother and I need to help with the flat debt. Because her money is drying up soon..

My first reaction:
Remain quiet...

After awhile she just kept saying did I hear her? And I must try to minimise my spendings.

My reaction in my mind:
Angry, frustrated...

Bad side of me thinking:
In the first place, if you can't afford a brand new flat, why would you want to buy it? Buying this flat just tied down too many things, plus it is making her suffer as it is a huge liability. I know that she was thinking during that time, that when my brother and I grew up and started working, we could help her. But I'm sorry to say that her 2 children are useless... My brother's career never took off, after all these years of working his pay came to be only SGD 2,500. As for me, needless to say, I suffered the same fate as my brother. I guess she didn't foresee that! Plus I really need to save up to get a new computer. I can't imagine how am I going to do that if she ask me to contribute a good 400-500 dollars per month(while I only earn 1,350 after CPF) AND also help my brother with his car loan!!! I have got other things like wisdom tooth extraction to worry about... And what about after my job contract? I still need some money to make it through until the company has new projects to do and provided that they are willing to call me back then I can guarantee that I have a job! Anyway I know what you all are thinking, that I'm a selfish bitch. But I admit that I am a selfish bitch...so...

Good side of me thinking:
It is not like I'm not grateful that my mom wants us to live comfortably. Really, I'm truly grateful to her for that. I know my family needs me now. And that as a part of the family, I have got to help out. But it is just isn't fair. When stuff like this happened, my mom will always come to me... And when I kept quiet etc, she will point finger at me saying that I'm selfish etc etc... But never once I heard her say that my brother is selfish or whatever... My mom is just biased... From young till now...
Anyway I told my friends about helping out with my brother's car loan, most of their reaction is why do I need to help him? Because I didn't even use his car! And there were one incident that I bought a new 300 dollar handphone and my brother said

"Wow, this 300 dollars amount to the 6 months of 50 dollars that you have promised to give me but haven't give me yet leh..."

I was really angry but kept quiet at that time. He still got the cheek to say that!? He asked my mom to ask me whether if I could help him and not ask me personally, yet still dare to say such things? Plus is that the tone to ask someone for help? It was because of that incident that I was reluctant to help him. Yesterday when my mom told me about us contributing into the flat debt, I could not bear to tell her that if she couldn't afford to buy a new flat, why buy? That is what my father told her before and she was really angry! So I kept very quiet yesterday. I will help my mom with the flat debt but I can only help so much so I would just tell her I can only give her how much and pray that she don't say it's just too little. Don't expect me to pay a good 400-500 dollars, I am not earning 3k of salary here...I can't help my brother with his car loan already. But I will see how...

Maybe I worry too much, maybe my brother can find a job soon. Maybe everything will solve in time... But everything is just "maybe"... =(

Chinese Fortune Telling

2006-08-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

Got the link from Gwen's blog!

http://www.superfate.com/22_free_8word/

My analysis is as follows:

◎Your life is represented by the sword of power, which means you will head for success after gone through many difficulties in your youth. (I seriously hope this is true... cos so far I don't have a smooth life...) You are a person of leadership and justice, quite devoted, and able to work under great pressure.(This is so not me... WRONG!) You are also very generous(not so sure about that... haha) and you like well-behaved and wise people. (yes very true!) With your leadership ability, you can break through any dissatisfying situation. ◎

Your characteristics, subconscious, and behavior modes, according to your fate and destiny, are represented by the sword(yes this is true.. my element is metal so sword represent a metal?), not only with soft-white skin, yet bright, attractive with femininity(WRONG again...). You are a bit bossy and dominating, but have leadership ability(WRONG!).

You are capable and talented, with a great sense of justice and righteousness, and willing to help others for the sake of justice. Like a sword, you are able to cut through a difficult or unsatisfactory situation and eventually change your fate and destiny. You may hurt yourself carelessly with a double-edged sword if you are too aggressive and pressuring people around you. You may be dominating with your appearance, but have a loving heart to protect the weak with a sense of justice and fairness. (Whole paragraph is not true except for the sake of justice part...)

However, a good sword needs to be molded and sharpened, so those that cannot pass the test and process only become scrap iron. (Yeah now I am scrap iron ah!! Hahaha!) Being determined and unafraid of the challenges, not blaming others, and learning and growing are the essential elements to become a respected leader. You like intelligent people with artistic talent and dislike hypocrites.(VERY true!) You admire those who are willing to sacrifice and dedicate themselves to others with a sense of justice. As long as you pass the challenge and test, your entire life will be unaffected by any storm or blocked by any obstacle to become a winner.

◎Health Analysis: Your cardiovascular function is weaker.◎

According to your destiny analysis, your cardiovascular function is weaker, which caused minor problems like pimples, mouth and tongue sores, and unsmooth periods when you were young. But over age 40, your cardiovascular function requires additional care, or you might have major problems such as high blood pressure, high hem sterone, unusual heart rhythm, eye pressure problems, gynecologic problem(same as what master luo has warn me) and other abnormal functions leading to heart diseases, stroke, or loss of vision. Therefore, it's very important for you to maintain a stable schedule in your life, avoid fatigue, and, most importantly, do not stay up overnight.(I always almost stayed up late everyday!) If possible, have a blood test and electrocardiogram periodically and pay more attention if there's any family history of hereditary palatine canal system and cardio diseases such as heart disease, high blood pressure, apoplexy, cerebral hemorrhage, myocardial infarction, etc. Try to eliminate iced and cold drinks in order to avoid losing your vitality.

There's a saying that all disease starts from the mouth, which means many human diseases are related to food. According to Traditional Chinese Medicine, food can be divided into gold, wood, water, fire and earth (concept of the five elements). You seem to prefer bitter flavors like black coffee and chocolate, which means your cells are filled with too much fire element.(SHIT man! Dark chocolate is a fire element? I love it so much leh!) This negatively affects your health, fortune and career, so we suggest you try different foods to balance your diet and nutrition, which leads to harmony in life and a balance of yin and yang based on the five elements. In addition, if you have recently felt unlucky or things were not going smoothly, then you are probably affected by bad spirit, which caused bad luck. The best solution is not to eat meat and fish for a period of time until the bad spirit goes away. The bad spirit tends to stay with those who eat meat and fish, and also chicken, duck, green onion, garlic, leek and other spices, so a vegetarian diet can help change your luck.

◎Health Analysis: Your liver and gall is weaker as well.◎

Your liver and gall is weaker as well, so you tend to tire easily and can't do labor-intensive jobs. You may have had irritability and acne when you were young. But over age 40, your liver and gall require additional care, or you may have problems such as cholesterol and triglyceride, abnormal liver, liver or gall deceases, or even suffer a delining immune system, which leads to failing eyesight.(I have already a failing eyesight liao la!) Therefore, it's very important for you to pay attention to your liver and gall and maintain a stable schedule for your life. Monitor your glycerin level, consume less alcohol, avoid fatigue, and most importantly, do not to stay up overnight.

According to your destiny analysis, you are a night owl as you seem to be more energetic and inspired at night, so you tend to sleep late and get up late. (DAMN they are correct!!!) However, sleeping and waking up early is extremely helpful to your fate and destiny, even though it's not easy for you. You don't easily offend others as you don't like to be the one on top.(Just now they say I can be a leader now say I don't like to be the one on top? Makes no sense... But master luo say that I don't like to be on the top...) You better stay away from alcohol if you want to change your fate and destiny, as it drains your energy quickly and negatively affects your fortune. If you are able to develop the good habit of sleeping and waking up early, it will completely change your fate and destiny with better health, more wealth and happiness coming into your life.

◎There is a background difference between you and your love partner, so it's not easy for him to really understand you. The things you care about he might think totally unimportant and vice versa, so you tend disagree easily over small things.◎

In romance, according to our analysis, men usually like you at first sight. (Where got so easy one...) If they win your heart, a romance develops quickly, but doesn't last long because it's difficult to maintain the same level of passion from beginning to end.(This is quite true!) Generally speaking, you make a good first impression because you are charming and capable, but over time your passion is replaced by arguments. You are often admired, but are not satisfied with what you have, and your romantic partner may be very sticky if you want to break up. Therefore, if you are still waiting for a good romance, try to conceal your outer beauty in order to find more sincere and suitable lovers who aren't just attracted to your looks. Then true romance will come your way.

In the journey of life, your romantic or marriage partner is not easily found by love at first sight. You need to spend time together and interact in a neutral setting before the possibility of love. The relationship might start from working together, and time spent together planning or meeting regularly. You tend to concentrate and focus on career and work, so you may marry later in life.(Just like what master luo, I am not suitable to marry early) If you are still seeking your love partner, among those around you, someone who has a deep understanding and strong ability might be the one. As long as you sincerely give a little hint, the happiness is right beside you.

◎Career Analysis: Most of your jobs, in any industry, require some leadership and management skills, teamwork.◎

Most of your jobs, in any industry, require some leadership and management skills, teamwork; your career may also involve non-profit government organizations. For example, manager, general manager, high level management, plant manager, government or legal official, auditor, investigator, soldier, police officer, non-profit organization volunteer, etc. These types of jobs might not have the same professional training required for the corporate world, but will offer personal growth and teamwork challenges. If you choose these types of jobs, then your work will go smoothly, but you may lack the professional training for an executive position in the future. You should further strengthen your professional training because you have good management skills, but might not understand technical staff well enough or have a strong foundation for important decision-making. Jobs in other fields that require creativity or working independently are not suitable for you. (wa lau cannot do creativity jobs? Go to hell la! Master luo said different things leh.. I can't manage ppl!)

◎Wealth Analysis: You know how to make and save money, so you are seldom short of cash.◎

According to your destiny analysis, you know how to make and save money, so you are seldom short of cash. You knew the importance of the money since you were very young, so you started working earlier than others. Therefore, you were making money with investments while others were spending money and enjoying their lives. In addition, you were born very clever, and will not spend money if unnecessary, but when it comes to business investment, you are not stingy because you always wanted to be your own boss. You will be investing most of your wealth to establish your business. Afterwards, you will not bequest much to your descendants, instead you will donate money to a charity or hospital because you think your descendants gain wealth by working hard on their own. (er right... I'm ALWAYS short of cash one and don't know how to save money. Maybe last time when I was young I knew how to but not now!)

That's how I spent my weekends!

2006-08-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

Wooohohoho... The recent Saturday was turly well spent! Went out with Gwen, Val and Zen. We went to NYDC for dinner and catching up. Talked a whole lot about "sheng cheng ba zi" and who is what element and "shi shen". ~___~

There after, we went to HMV, made alot of stupid jokes like kept promoting "Mistress of Spice" to Gwen and Val. Hahaha XD In the end, I bought Little Britain and Birth. I haven't got my chance to watch Birth yet... hahaha =p Then we went to Starbucks to sit down and have a chat. We played this card game call Office Scandal! Quite fun! It was one of the gifts that Zen gave me.

The birthday gift that Zen gave me...

chopstick, an ultra nice looking notebook and the Office Scandal! card game. ^^

The pack of cards consists of different things like "Blackmail", "Promotion", "Busted", "Demotion" etc. If you see the green card properly, the person is actually kissing the boss's ass! Haha... And the middle "Busted" card, the person is surfing porn!

A very big thank you to Zen for being so thoughtful! Buying us our gifts!! *Muacks and hugs*!

Ok anyway, my Sunday was spent watching Jay played Resident Evil 4. I even took some photos of Leon, the main character on the TV. It was badly taken though but I was quite bored so I thought it would be fun =p

Anyway Leon's features are designed after a model call Christian Duerre(left pic), I really find the resemblance!!! =D

Leon's pose when access into inventory screen.

Cutscene of Leon looking up at someone.

Leon's back view at the left side. He is shooting something.

Sorry for the ultra blur photos, don't know whether is because there is something wrong with my photo taking skills or my handphone camera simply just cannot make it. Haha...

So that conclude how I spent my weekends! Argh... tomorrow is MONDAY again... Back to work... But I'm definitely looking forward to 21st of Aug. It is the day where I can finally rest for a one whole week. (well, was being forced to take block leave so...) I will try to focus on working hard for the coming week and look less forward to the 1 week holiday! If not I won't have the mood to work at all!

Buy, buy, buy!

2006-08-13T13:36:00.000+08:00

Los Illuminados

click on the picture for a larger view

Yes I know it's very bo liao to blog about what I want to buy but can't buy, what I am saving up to buy etc etc... But I just can't help it!

The picture above shows the 4 figurines that I want to collect! They are quite expensive. They are the enemies featured in Resident Evil 4. All the spanish monks who got infected by Las Plagas. I really like the design! But I have really no money to buy those because I am saving really really hard for a new computer.

My current computer is dying off soon. I don't even dare to off my computer. I'm afraid once I off it, it won't start up again... My budget for my computer is SGD2,000. Not too much yet not too little. Of course I want a ViewSonic monitor! Now I am just torn between a LCD monitor or a normal CRT. Because my table and room is quite small, LCD will definitely save alot of space. But the bad thing is, the colors of the LCD screen isn't as accurate as a normal CRT. But then again, I am not doing graphics. And also I want a dual processor so that my computer won't be so laggy! >_<

Next thing on my list is... DS Lite games... I have got like 6 games that I wanted to buy. But seriously, they will be my last priorities because I am already very busy with Animal Crossing.

Sob sob... frankly speaking, I'm not saving fast enough. =( Let's hope I can save at least 500 dollars next month. As for my expensive monthly TLC treatments, I shall try to delay until Nov or Dec this year to do... If not I will never ever going to buy that computer I want and need!

I really need the extra money! I have never ever do any freelance before! One thing is skill wise, not good enough, if not good enough means cannot do fast enough. Secondly, lazy. Thirdy, due to not having enough skills, I won't be so "well-known" among the industry and therefore I won't have any lobangs! Hahaha... Well... Got to push myself further in my training!!! Cannot be lazy! 6 more months to go before my contract ends and it's time to pack up and find a new job! So must really start to work hard on making my skills go up instead of being stagnant, or even worse drop down. -___-

Serendipity

2006-08-12T02:59:00.000+08:00

The time is nearly 3am. I'm still up, chatting with a colleague of mine at SS. Suddenly we talked about secondary school days. I bet everyone has some special memories during that period of time right? =)
For example, for me, I really love my secondary school library... it is a place where I can be alone and at peace. I still remember there are lots of books and comics to read!

The distant memory I'm about to disclose means alot to me... and whenever I recalled it, I will feel quite emotional about it.

I still remember it happened during my upper secondary school years. My friend HZ and I were so bored that we checked out the vandalism on our tables. Haha, you know there were always people writing stupid stuff on the table!
As I was saying, we were very very bored so an idea just strike us! We decided to write something like

"Hi! Would you like to be my penpal?".

on the table. I remembered it was on a friday that we wrote that particular question. We would never thought anyone would reply us.

Then over the weekend, someone did reply! The reply was a positive one so HZ and I then started to write letters introducing ourselves etc etc.. to and fro to that person. We did not divulge our real names in the the letter so we gave ourself pen-names when we correspond with him/her. Our names were Panther and Shape-Shifter. We were always very excited to receive the replied letters! Somehow this person was god-sent. Our school days were not boring anymore as we looked forward to receiving the letters.

For once we wonder how was this person like... somehow, our imagination went overdrive, we thought he/she might be a pyscho or something so we stopped writing letters to that person immediately. But this person still wrote to us, he/she did questioned us why did we stopped writing to him/her.

Anyway, we then wanted to find out who was this person who constantly wrote to us because at that time, we were in the morining session and the class was occupied by the afternoon session after we were done using the class. So we concluded it must be someone from lower secondary.

That day we discovered it was a pretty chinese-indo girl sitting at my seat. So we confronted her whether was it her who replied our letters. But she denied having writing those letters. There was nothing we could do so we went off...

A few days went pass... and Monday came. To our surprise, there under the table space where you could put books, was a note and a Slam Dunk(in one of our correspondences, we mentioned we are huge fans of Slam Dunk) bookmark.
We opened and read...

"2 Shape & Pant,
Remember me! Tell u the truth, actually I don't school here.
I came here only on last sat and I explore the whole school with
Caroline*, then I came 2 your class & saw your table + question**
so I just wrote my name down. I guess you start writing 2 me on
Monday, when Caroline found out then everytime you wrote 2 me,
Caroline will bring home to tell me. Actually I'm home staying at
Caroline's house. I'm going back to England today(Monday). Here
4 u 2 remember me. I spend 30 min writing it nicely, hope u will
appreciate it. Sorry 4 lying 2 u all the time. 4give me ok! If not I
won't leave in peace!
Ciao!

Lee '97

ps: Don't accused Caroline of writing the letter, her handwriting is
not so bad. "

*:Caroline was the pretty chinese-indo girl.
**: The question was "Hi do you want to be penpal?"

After reading the note, it dawned on us that the person who replied our letter was not a pyscho. We were upset that Lee was gone. And that we did not write to him during the time we were doubting about him. He left us a note and a Slam Dunk bookmark. in the end, HZ took the bookmark while I took the note. From that day onwards, I carried that note in my wallet.

I guess not everyone encounter such unusual, interesting and almost-romantic way of befriending another person right? Is fate not a funny thing? It arranges us to meet him this way but when the time is up, he just left our life so quickly. Lee will be forever remain a mystery to us... and a bittersweet memory. Sometimes, some things are easily forgetten, but serendipity like this will always remain to be a part of us.

Whenever I took out the note to read, I will always wonder how is Lee, what is he doing, is he doing fine? Although I will never see him again, I will always say a little prayer for him, hoping that he has already found happiness wherever he is.

Humanmetrics Test

2006-08-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hehehe this is a personality test I take. This test is based on some dead german professor who studied human pyschology for his whole life.

Check it out!
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

I'm a Composer Artisan (iSfP)

Things that are quite true about me is...

ISFPs may be quite charming and ingratiating on first acquaintance, flowing with compliments which may (or may not) be deserved. On other occasions, the same individual may be aloof and detached. (Yes this is true for me! Take for e.g when I just arrived at SS my workplace, I could talk to the colleagues there but after awhile, I just kept my distance.)

Their interest can be held better through experiential learning, at which many excel. ISFPs will practice playing an instrument or honing a favored skill for hours on end, not so much as practice as for the joy of the experience. (This is definitely true! I only do well in something which I think it's a joy doing it. Not because of practise!)

ISFPs often live out 'id' experiences rather than writing or even talking about them. (As all my friends know, I like to role play and imagine scenarios.)

If the individual has values greater than herself, feeling may express itself in valiant acts of selflessness. Turned in upon self, however, it becomes an unscrupulous, capricious enigma, capable even of heinous acts of deception and treachery. (Yes this is true too... I'm actually evil! I told you all already!)

Just a warning, that there might be too much text. So if you want to avoid reading a sudden outburst of text then I think you shouldn't take the test. But actually it's not THAT much of text! Hahaha! Enjoy!

Death Note

2006-08-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

Whooo hooo finally weekend has arrived! I got something to blog about! Well it's something I want to share with my friends!!!

Recently I got myself hooked on this comic call "Death Note". The storyline attracts me! Usually I hate comic book like One Piece and Bleach or Naruto kind because it's always out-of-the-world scenario. Whereas Death Note is more towards modern society backdrop. Well it kind of mixed with some fantasy element.

Death Note is about this God of Death, Ryuk, who dropped his "Death Note" (it's a notebook where the God of Death wrote the person's name when they want the person to die.) into the human world. Once the notebook got dropped into the human world, it would automatically belong to the human world. So he dropped his notebook, and there was this ace uni student called Light Yagami who saw the notebook and picked it up.

In the notebook, there were instructions on how to use the notebook to kill people. In order to kill someone, you have got to see the person's face before and must know the name, then the killing could be proccessed. The person who got the notebook could see the previous owner, which is the God of Death. There are many God of Death. Ryuk is one of them. And the God of Death would always follow the newest owner of the death notebook until the newest owner died or the notebook lifespan was over.

At first Light is very skeptical about this notebook, he thought it was a joke. Then one day, he tried to kill a criminal with the notebook and the criminal really died. Only then, he believed it was true! Anyway, if you write the person's name down yet you didn't write how he is going to die, after 40 seconds, the person would just die of heart attack. But if you did write down the reason, you could however manipulate the time of death for that person.

After seeing Ryuk and knowing that he had enormous power on his hand, he wanted to rid all the baddies and criminals out of the corrupted world. But on the other hand, a secret police detective name L appeared and challenged him. L could not condone his actions and he thought what Light did was a huge massacre. So he wanted to catch Light and put him behind bars.

Light on the other hand thought what he did was correct, and he bent on doing what he firmly believed was right. He wanted to rid the world off of baddies, but he got to be a bit too ambitious... He wanted to be the world's new age God!

So this comic book is more about Light vs L. It's very interesting!
It's also about how a human changes when he knows he has the power to change the world. The power blinded his goals and aspirations.

My favourite character in the comic book is Light and Ryuk the God of Death.

Right: Light Yagami Left: God of Death Ryuk

I like Light for his arrogant and full-of-himself kind of attitude. He is a very confident person. Very very smart too. But a pity! He is too arrogant for his own good. Now we all know that people who are like that won't have happy ending, don't we? Haha..

I like Ryuk for the character design! Very nice!

Light with his cocky face that says - "I'm definitely going to be God of this world!"

Being the Outcast

2006-07-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yes, I think I'm officially the outcast in my department!

I don't know whether am I over reacting or what... but... JS the leader of our department, usually if he has some photoshop techniques or anything interesting to share, he will ask me to join in the meeting. Sometimes he would come over to my table to ask how is my progress of my work. Now that the intern is here, it seems that he always ask him and MC to go over to his place to share interesting stuff. And also he will frequently go over to their table to talk to them. I wonder did I do anything wrong towards him?
But it seems like he never even talk to me at all now... Sometimes I think JS can be quite biased. =(

First, it was JD who got outcasted. Now it is me... Sigh.. I guess I just got to grind and bear with it.. Just do my job at my silent corner...

Sometimes I think MC just wants me and IR to stay fat forever. She keeps telling us that we aren't fat at all but she keep saying she is fat herself... She is actually very slim herself. So what is the meaning of that? Sigh I dont' know... This world is mad... Haha.. Sometimes I just think that working is not suitable for me. First I am not PR so therefore I will not be able to climb up the corporate ladder or whatsoever. I quite despise those who are very PR and can talk their way into the boss liking them.

Unfortunately, JS our leader is such kind... Yes now then I realise. I think that those who have no use or talent or potential (like me and JD) to him, he won't care less about those people. Those who have talent and potential like MC and intern, he will keep talking to them. And now that the busy executive producer is back, he keeps talking to her... It's not that JS has no talent and don't know how to work. But he believes that being PR is important in climbing up the ladder. Well is it true that you need to be PR to be able to climb up? I don't know. If the answer is yes, then I have no chance of earning alot of money then. As I am not PR at all... I don't know how to be PR and don't want to be one. How can I be that someone I hate?

And I distance myself from JS also now... since he don't talk to me.. I don't want to talk to him too... and I don't want to be with this kind of person.

Now I can only pray that Ram was right... that my career will pick up soon. Yes I know I must work hard and not believe in whatever Ram said. But what if I work hard and got back stabbed just because I am simply not PR enough?

My wisdom tooth is killing me man... Maybe I will extract the teeth out just to get 3 days MC so I won't need to go back to the company to face sickening people... But have got to save first haha =p

A conversation that I had with the intern that proves even more that he is an arrogant moron cum spoilt brat!:

(we were talking about computers and his freaking SGD4,000-5,000 cost provided by his parents trip to New York for Siggraph.)

Me: Are you excited about the trip to Siggraph?
Intern: Of course!
MC: Yes someone needed 4,000 to 5,000 in order to go to Siggraph lo!
Me: Wow... You are rich!
MC: Yes! He is and his dream computer machine cost around 6,000!
Intern: Of course must invest alot of money in my computer! Because I used it for work and assignments! You mustn't always think of the figures but think of the investment and experience just like my trip to Siggraph! Instead of saying "Woaaaaah you are so rich you are so rich" like I am a spoilt brat, you must think!!! Think!
Me: Do we give you the impression that you are a spoilt brat when we say you are rich?
Intern: (confidently) YES!
Me: Actually we don't mean that way you know, but frankly speaking you are really rich! I mean yes it's great to invest your money in a good computer.. But the Siggraph trip, not everyone can afford to go as and when they like you know.
Intern: Of course there are poor people and rich people. If you go to Thailand, you will also be rich!!
MC: And he wanted to change his Moto Razzr! He just buy his handphone not long only.
Me: why do u want to change it?
Intern: Well, I can't really hear the receiving line, I don't know why. It sucks!

End of conversation

See this stupid intern is so arrogant! He thinks everyone is so rich like him ah? Can afford 6k computer? Can afford to go to New York just for the stupid Siggraph? Of course he can say don't think of the figures but the experience as the money is not earn by him ma but by his parents! Isn't he spoilt enough? And the handphone also, he somemore got the cheek to say he isn't spoilt... Just because he can't hear anything from the other receiving end, he wanted to change handphone! That's just a lame excuse. I don't believe he can't hear EVERYTIME! I find that using the lame reason of "if you go to Thailand you will be rich and of course there are rich people and poor people" doesn't justify him spending money so freely ba? If that is the case why don't he help the poor? What the fuck!? I despise such people!!

And I really do mean that he isn't a spoilt brat when I say he is so rich. But now I doubt it.. I can confirm he is one... Maybe because of that, he thinks he is far more superior than us therefore he don't hang around with the common people.

Let Your Dreams Be Free!

2006-07-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

Let Your Dreams Be Free!
Yes that's the title of this blog! It's the title of the project that Gwen was doing. The one where we need to paint the backdrop of Mr Moo!

Gwen needed our help to shoot the film, she engaged Cheryl, me and Zen to help. Too bad Deb wasn't free on 2nd of July, Sunday to help out. Because it was real fun ma! Hahaha XD I told Jay that I was going to help out so I couldn't spend time with him so he volunteered to come help the rest of the team! I was quite surprised that he wanted to help! But I was happy that he took such initiative! =D Also we were very very shorthanded so another person would be a great help!

We were supposed to shoot the film at Punggol Beach. In the end, the weather was really really hot so our director Gwen picked a nicer and more cooling place just for us! ^^ It was quite near the beach and there are some interesting trees over there... Actually I thought the place was quite nice... Especially where we shoot Cheryl was sleeping. =) Oh yeay.. there was a tree nearby with red string tied onto it... Hmm.. Don't know what it meant but it wasn't good la... Hehehe ^^""

Gwen, Zen and Cheryl reached the place first while me and Jay went to Compass Point to buy some food. We all went there by cab! I know, I'm so sua ku! Live here for quite a long time yet don't know how to get to Punggol Beach by bus 82 XD
When we reached the place, we saw the 3 girls sitting at the bus stop, before I reached, I called the girls to find out where was their location and they told me they were eating fried rice... at the bus stop? O_o So how come they were just sitting there but not eating, turn out they had finished eating the fried rice while sitting at the bus stop without any table at all! O.O The beach was quite pathetic with no tables or whatsoever... quite sad la hahaha...

Anyway we bought the food and gave them their share, it was so funny! Like some picnic at the bus stop, it was quite stupid too la! Hahaha! As if we own the bus stop like that. Cos the whole stretch of seat was being occupied by our food and our bags lo! XD Then we saw an ang mo bringing his huge dog for a walk at the beach! Zen said the dog was some champion breed!

After finishing our lunch, we went on shooting the film. Before we started, some civil defense car drove and stopped at our area, we were afraid that they won't allow us to shoot at that area but luckily they were just skiving and smoking. Everything went quite well I think.. Except till the scene where the backdrop was needed. No one was there to hold the back drop. Because by right, Zen job was suppose to be the assitant director who shouts "Everyone on the set ready?" or "Action!" or she would hold the sign that states what scenes etc etc. While Jay's job was to take down comments on each scenes and takes. In the end they both had to hold the backdrop and Gwen have to hold the sign.

Then poor Gwen had to find the right angle of the backdrop to shoot as she wanted to avoid shooting the very corners of the backdrop where all the stick and hands of the people holding it could be seen. Both me and Cheryl had the easiest job. We just dance, jump, run, kicked the sand! Hahaha :D

When the last shot was being filmed, and Gwen announced it's a wrap! We were all so happy!!! Hurray!! Good effort everyone!! We packed up everything including the disgusting bag of apple pie and fries filled with ants. We thanks Mr Moo for doing such a great job but we forgotten to thank the trees! =((

Then on we went to Compass Point's Swensen to have a drink! We were very very thirsty! The girls all had Thousand Island Float (rootbeer with ice-cream) except for Jay. Jay had a Mega Burger whereby the beef patties was so juicy!!! It tasted heavenly!! The 4 of us shared the Curry Chicken Baked Rice... TASTED WONDERFUL!!!

Gwen! Next time I want to help you with Da Cao Yuan film ok! Hahaha! =p

26th June 2006

2006-07-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

On the 26th of June 2006, I'm simply just taking a break at home! Because I purposely took leave on that day just to let myself off from work! =P During evening time, Jay promised me a treat at this Japanese restaurant, quite like their desserts and food there... So yummy... XD

On the 27th of June, I went back to work and there on my table... I saw a huge box! That gift was from Pei pei, Jean and Monica! =) Then near to lunch time, MC handed me this brown paperbag. It was a birthday gift from all the colleagues at SS! =)

Present from Pei pei, Jean and Monica is a...

YES! A digital weighing machine!!! Hahahah! XD It's better than those that needed to use scales as it would be more accurate! I always complain to Pei pei that I didn't have one so they had decided to give me one as a birthday present! It's a very stylish weighing machine I must say! ;) I love it!

Second present from SS colleagues is a...

An Adidas Jacket! The series designed by Missy Elliott.

Respect Me!!! :p

The collar of the sleeve has this tag on it which makes it quite special =)

And also a....

Personalised Birthday Card!
Card Front: They drew a caricature of me, so cute!!!
Card Back: "We Love Claire" XD And my fav Animal Crossing! Hahaha!

Colleagues wishes and signatures inside ^^

Actually MC did sound me out on what I want... But i never ever thought that she would buy me an Adidas jacket at all. She kept saying stuff like "Someone so rich can buy such an expensive jacket leh!" So who would have thought she would buy me this? Actually I did not want to buy an Adidas jacket at all... -__- All I did was just say that I like this particular jacket designed by Missy Elliot! It's the blue one that we saw at the Adidas Concept Store at The Cathay, Gwen and Zen! Then that time, I still didn't know they were planning to buy me a present.

MC actually went down to the store and she saw the jacket I liked. She commented that the jacket I like, the material like towel and it looks ugly... -___- Hello individual preference lo! And then she can somemore say that this jacket they gave me as birthday present, she really looked for a long time, she saw many jackets and all were so ugly but when she saw this, she immediately like it! I was like erm... this jacket you liked it leh not I LIKE IT leh... She got tried on the jacket and thought it looked really good "on her". @_@ She told me that.

How come you pick someone present according to your own taste and liking when the present was actually for that person? It's not that I want to complain but that is simply too much isn't it? Since it's a present from the colleagues so I am really really happy and touched! As I never even dream that they will give me a present at all! But still... I felt this present was more for like her not for me leh... Don't you all agree with me?
Oh ya! I'm quite touched and surprised that TS the receptionist did chip in some money to buy my present! =) I never thought she would chip in! So sweet of her! =)
I can wear the jacket but when I need to zip it up, it looks very tight! Time to lose some weight man! Talking about losing weight.. I will continue on my next blog...

Last but not least Helen also give me a present!

A birthday montage of moi!!! Thanks dear Helen! ^^

Pei pei was actually quite envious that the colleagues gave me a birthday present and nothing to her =( I felt quite bad about it man... But I thought about it, it was actually MC's initiative that I could get this present. If she wasn't there, I would think no one would bother to ask who wanted to share to buy a present for me. Sometimes she can be a real bitch, sometimes she can be a real nice person... Why must she be like that? How I wish she can just be a nice person forever!!! =((

So my birthday ended this way! I wouldn't say it was the best birthday I ever had! But it was definitely not a bad one! Not without all my close friends giving me such wonderful presents and wishes! I am blessed! Thanks all! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

ps: too bad I didn't take photo of the cake that Gwen and Deb gave me =(

Creation of Mr Moo

2006-07-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

On the 25th of June...

I went over to Gwen's house to paint her backdrop for her upcoming project for this sport label(better not disclose anything here...). Was very excited about it! Hee hee! And also upon seeing that Gwen needed help therefore I went over to help! Besides, it was going to be so fun! Deborah went over to help too!

Before we started painting, we ate our dinner! After dinner then have energy to paint right? Well the dinner was provided by Gwen's mama! The food is really nice! And Gwen's mama could cook very very fast! She cooked alot of small fishes(dunno what breed are those), she fried some battered prawns and also she did one dish of vegetables(I don't know what breed of vegetables again. But I think it's "kan kong"). Then eat with rice, it's really nice! I loved the battered prawns the most!! "Kan Kong" was nice too! But because I had a late lunch which is chesseburger meal, I couldn't stomach alot of her cooking. Quite a waste man! =( Deborah definitely loved the fish! Hee hee =D Oh Gwen's papa also very funny! He address me as No.23 cos I'm wearing the No. 23 jersey! =P

Ok I must go on and on to the extend of a paragraph when it comes to food ya? Sorry :P

After dinner it was the real action time! Deborah painted most of the backdrop - the sky and the grass... those were the difficult parts plus we had limited paints, so we had to be very careful not to make any mistakes. If we did then it would be a done deal! Gwen and me painted Mr Moo(that's what Gwen prefers to call him) , the flowers on the grass and the big flower on the left of the backdrop!

After 3 hours of sweating and hard work, here is the final product:

Isn't it sweet? ^^ I was very happy with the final outlook and I keep saying "Wow very nice very nice"... But I not thick skinned then say one ok! Hee hee! It's really very nice ma! =p
And it's the hard work effort of 3 girls who are passionate about painting! (*pukes all over*) ;p But seriously we love our masterpiece! :)
When we were doing the last 30 mins of our painting, I kept hearing a very noble yet military music coming out from the TV in Gwen's house. Then I kept running towards the TV to see what was going on! Gwen's papa was actually watching Daylight on dunno what cable channel! Hahaha! XD The music was really really drama! Then I told Gwen and Deb that we were like completing some mission like that with the music playing behind the background!

After painting, we were sitting aside, admiring at our masterpiece. Then I saw Gwen was like walking around and asking his father for candles. His father actually wanted to give her those candles used to put on the altars to pray to the God. O_O
So I thought maybe she wanted to put some candles beside the backdrop then took some photos. You know, to create some lighting. I was quite puzzled, like did she need to go to that extend? Then I saw at the corner of my eye, that Gwen was in the kitchen taking out a seemingly white cake box, putting it on the kitchen table. It dawn on me that it was a birthday cake! As the next day was my birthday, Gwen & Deb actually bought this cake for me! ^^
It was a mango mousse plus a-little-bit-of-sponge cake!!! The cake was quite artistic looking! I was very happy, touched and surprised! The cake was simply YUMMY! I love any cake with mousse in it!! Thanks Gwen and Deb for being so thoughtful! I love you too!!!

After that, everything ended with Deb sending me to Dobhy Ghaut MRT! I felt quite bad because the next day was Deb's first day at her new workplace. But the motorbike ride was really nice! ^^ Love the wind blowing on my face!! Whoo hoo~

ps: Ok... I know that my blog is long overdue! So sorry ah my friends! Hahaha XD Cos I really have nothing to blog ma! And the battle is still on! Yes many deaths!!! XD Btw, I didn't watch part 2 of the battle!!! Damn it! Therefore I missed the most thrilling part of the show! :X

The Battle On Channel 5 at 7:30pm

2006-06-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

Gosh, I think my friends are going to diss me for blogging such a "bo liao" topic! Hahaha!
Actually I got nothing to blog, what I wanted to blog, I had type them out on the chatterbox. So I got nothing interesting to blog about... =p

Anyway tomorrow on Channel 5, 7:30pm they are showing Lord of the Ring : The Two Towers Part II... Actually today they showed Part I because they don't have enough screen time to show the whole show at once... Lousy channel! =p

The earlier part of the show don't have much battle scenes, it is only the later part of the show that the battle scenes are more and interesting! Tomorrow won't be a Monday blue for me!!!

I really really like Lord of the Ring but yet I haven't even buy the dvd collection. This show really brought back lots of memories. Like the times I worked in Silicon Illusions with my friends. I remembered watching The Two Towers on a sat after work! Hahaha! Happy memories...

Happy Birthday Gwen!

2006-06-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

HEY GWEN!

This is for you!!!

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

TO

YOU!!!

Are you happy or what? :p

Enjoy your birthday ah! ;)

Quiz II or III?

2006-06-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yet is another Quiz Time! Let me post the results of the quizzes I took! Courtesy of Helen again! Hahaha!

What Final Fantasy VII character are you?

You are CLOUD. (My cat is named after you!) You're a good person at heart, just a little confused sometimes.

Take this quiz!

I'm quite happy with the results of the 2 quizzes.. But the last one is quite disappointing. How come I get a kiddy boy as the result!? But I am really INEXPERIENCED. That I have to agree!

I promise my goood buddies that I will blog about the 1.9m tall Switzerland intern right? I'm so darn sleepy and tired to blog now.. So I will blog about him next time? Actually there isn't anything to blog about him. Just that he is talented in his work and he knows what he is doing. According to the previous intern... she said that he was very talented and was in some talent program that only 10 people can get in, in DMD NYP!!! Yes since when they have those talent program!?

He is quite cute looking, especially when he looks at you... or if there is any eye contact. He has this large watch on his wrist, I bet it's definitely from Switzerland as they are quite famous for exquisite nice watches which last very very long right?

Then today I just offered him Meiji strawberry chocolate. He was like oooohhh... then I gave him the chocolate and he just stuff it into his mouth like he was really really hungry? Wahahaha I wanted to laugh but cannot... Hmm Come to think of it Switzerland are famous for their chocolates isn't it. That's explain why he wanted to eat it until like that.

Then today JS was explaining to us about some stuff on 3D modeling, and he was like leaning towards JS's computer screen. As he was so tall, his upper body was almost covering the table... and then I think his jeans was low waist or don't know what is it call... I saw his boxers.... ^___^;;
It's not like I wanted to see.. but it was so exposed.
So now another fact we know about him that he is definitely a boxers guy not a briefs kind of guy.
I also realise that he listens to House, Trance, Progressive House kind of music. That's what I assume.. Cos I saw DJ something on his playlist.

He gets along well with JS, our leader... Anyway, I feel that he is quite poor thing because he always only can stick to JS for lunch. Nobody want to lunch with him as he is quite new. But me and the Photoshop team are trying our best to talk to him. Oh JS did mentioned that his kind of calibre is good to go to Lucas Flim when he graduates!

For now I only manage to dig up so much information about him! Stay tuned for the next update.. if there is any...

Oh ya before I crawl to my bed, his name is Lionel.. Everybody call him Lio(pronounces as Leo).

AV has left the building... :(

2006-05-12T17:08:00.000+08:00

Sigh~ I felt quite down, everything happened on 10th of May(Wed).

Remember that my previous blog, I have mentioned that I have a very nice colleague whom I can get along well? AV?

His last day was on the 11th of May(Thurs)! We all actually thought that his last day was end of June! The game company that he went for interview wanted to hire him and he told this piece of news to the executive producer quite earlier on. It was during Wednesday that I got to know the news... My leader JS knew it long ago too but did not told us because AV wanted to keep it from us so that we won't feel very sad.

But... but I feel that he kept it from us and let us knew last minute was even WORSE! It was like no warning... I felt that it only made us more sad... Anyway after I knew he was going off so soon, I was unhappy that he and JS didn't tell at least the photoshop team.

Then after that I tried not to talk to AV, because I was quite mad at him for not telling me too... and I thought we were good friends? Maybe all that thinking was one sided. And I know that feeling this way was really very childish. Getting mad at someone for something so trivial. But I do really feel sad... :(

Recalling back this past 2 months, I always talked to him about games, about Buddha's insights and various stuff as he sat only behind me. And sometimes I do constantly bully him as he is quite soft spoken and have that kind of *bully me* face. Hahaha... Well I guess that's all gone now. Now there won't be anyone for me to bully and talked to...

I think I need 1 week to recover from this shock! And to get used to the fact that AV is no longer there! ~_~

ps: Forgot to add that we all bought him an Adidas jacket, world cup themed as a farewell gift because he mentioned before that his jacket was spoilt. And he wore quite an old fashioned windbreaker... It's from World Cup LA 1994... heh... =p JS mentioned that AV might come back if he isn't happy at his new company. Frankly speaking I felt it's a little unfair that he get such privilege. But I think that is because JS likes him and also that he is quite capable. Anyway the executive producer allows it so what more can anyone say right? But judging by AV's character he won't come back as he don't want to treat the company like some charity shelter.

I bought my DS Lite!

2006-05-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

OLD NEWS:

A whole 2 weeks of no blogging...

The reason?

Because of the sudden cut off of internet connection and laziness of course! ;)

Let's start off with this voting of PAP against countless of other Parties. Frankly speaking, I don't know who to vote. I'm 24 (after 26th June :p) this year, I don't read much of the newspapers on what is happening around Singapore, on what PAP or what other Parties has done for the country or neighbourhoods or whatever, I don't go to rallies to hear what they have to say (I don't even know when and where they are held..)... So how do you expect me to vote?
I hate voting not because I don't have a mind of my own but I regard it simply as hassle. But luckily my voting area is near to my place so... =p Did I forget to mention that this is my first time voting?

There was once a taxi uncle told me that the opposition team who got Potong Pasir upgrade their flats etc etc but didn't ask a cent from the residents living there or seek help from government. On the other hand the government didn't care about the residents living in Potong Pasir as they are not under PAP. He continued saying that the Potong Pasir residents did paid the tax so where is the government like that? Then he asked me whether does that make sense?

Also a certain someone JH(if you can guess who is it that's good! Not company colleagues) keep asking me to vote for the opposition. I mean I vote who I want to, please don't tell me who to vote! It is quite irritating when he said his big terms to me... @_@

Last Friday (28th May which is Mat's Bday!) I met up with Monica to go Seow Choon Games Specialist (小春电玩 ) to buy my DS Lite! I bought the sky blue color one. I prefer white but I can't bear to see the white turn into yellowish white later on. Sky blue is the second choice though! In total I bought:

1. DS Lite
2. 2 games, 1 Animal Crossing, 2 Resident Evil Deadly Silence
3. A bag to protect the DS Lite.
4. Screen protectors.

Grand Total: SGD 475

Then I bought a secondhand Nintendogs from PR from the co. for SGD 35. Normally they sold the game for SGD 59.
Later that night, I went to Sim Lim to eat dinner with Monica and also at the same time discuss about the game.

So far I really like Animal Crossing! But for how long? Animal Crossing feature different things everyday that is why it keeps things fresh and fun! But it can't feature different things for a whole year isn't it!? For Nintendogs, it was really really fun during the first few days. But later on when you get to know the techniques and mechanics behind the whole game, you will start to feel bored. Resident Evil DS, was ok. Everything was so cheesy and FUNNY!!! XD I had a great laugh looking at the opening scene of that! Hahaha! I remember I don't feel cheesy looking at the opening of Resident Evil when I'm like secondary 2. HEY! That was like 10 years ago you know!!! =p Wow how time flies... I feel so old... =((

On Labour Day (1st of May), I met up with Gwen & Zen to watch The Wild. Not a bad movie, quite funny... especially the koala bear! =D Then I order food from the counter, the kind people there bring me the food so that I won't need to wait. Before starting the movie, there will always be some music playing, I like the music so I ask one of the usher what is the album they are playing, and she did help me found out! After the movie was over, we all went to Swensen, later on, I bought the album! HAHAHA...

END OF OLD NEWS
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UPDATED NEWS May 7th:

I am so lazy that I don't want to create another blog... Jean found a job at Six Trees! I went to their website and found out that their work is particularly good! SixTrees
I really do like how do they come up with the company name six trees. It has to do with their surname Lim! The way they describe is very funny!

I haven't been doing my portfolio.. Got to.... start... today when I heard how much Jean is earning at SS and then when she easily secure the job with Six Trees... and the pay she is getting, I feel that I really NEED to practise more... If not, I will never ever find a job easily or earn the pay she is earning now... =(

Today there was suppose to be a company BBQ at East Coast but PP & I didn't go because we actually have a date with Jean and Monica in the first place but we mixed it up...

Now I'm actually connecting to the internet via WiFi technology to find other players in Animal Crossing BUT there isn't anyone on!? GOSH!? Where have all the people gone!?!?!?!??!! >_<>

p.s.:My probation period has come to an end and I didn't get kick out! That's a relief! =)

Nintendo DS Lite!

2006-04-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

The reason why I wrote this blog is because day & night I dream of it... I cannot put a rest to it if I do not pour out my feelings! XD
My office recently stirred up this trend - Nintendo DS! Quite a few colleagues are interested to buy it.

It started out with 2 colleagues. One is MY from animation dept. The other is PR from vfx dept. They both own a Nintendo DS. MY was like promoting to me, IR and IR2 (there are 2 IRs in our office! One is from my dept, the other is from animation dept.) She was showing us how cool the handheld console was. Like you can play using this technology call WiFi to connect to overseas. So you can play with other people on the other side of the world!

There is this game call Animal Crossing: Wild World where you are a human living in a town and all your neighbours are animals. Then you must make friends with them and sometimes they will move out of the neighbourhood, you will have to make them stay! If you opened the WiFi connection, you get to visit your friend's town, or they can come and visit your town!

There is one very cool thing about Animal Crossing! There is this item you can buy from a shopkeeper in the game. The item is Message in a Bottle. You can write a message on the paper then toss it into the bottle, open your Wifi connection then you go to the beach and throw the bottle into the sea! The bottle will float away and it might just float into some other stranger's sea (with their Wifi connection on). Then they get to read what you wrote to them! XD But unfortunately they can't reply to your message. But isn't the idea romantic? Haha ^^
Or you can just scold them, vent out your stress. Something like...

"Hello!
Go to hell!
XXX"

Something like that? XD

And then the coolest thing about Nintendo DS is you can actually scan for other people's console so you can play together! If you are playing Mario Kart, then you can race against each other! Then there is Resident Evil: Deadly Silence where you can play together to escape the mansion or you can compete against each other to see who escape the mansion first.

I think why I want to buy it is because alot of my colleagues are buying and we can all play together! It will be quite fun! XD Yday I showed agwen some of the Nintendo DS consoles like which one is nice, the colors and all.. But all those are DS version. I'm thinking of getting DS Lite version. Here are the pictures of it.

Top: Pearl white
Bottom: Navy Blue

Ice Blue

As agwen didn't see these version of colors, I think she won't think these series of blues are cheapskate looking eh? Agwen, how? The blue colors still look cheapskate? Cos I might get blue, I scare white will get dirty!!! >_< How? But between the 2 blues... which one is better looking? I don't think the 2 blues look cheap. I like ice blue but navy blue looks so sophisticated that I can't resist it.. damn it! Hahaha. Helen, Zen and Agwen, what are your thoughts?

I'm going to be dead broke... May, I still got Dr Georgia Lee to see for the IPL treatment for the face... And the duromine pills? So freaking expensive! T_T

A Blog dedicated to Pei Pei

2006-04-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

(continuation from last blog...)

But today... I realise something wonderful.

I went to meet Jean and Monica for dinner along with Pei Pei. After the dinner we went into 37 Degree or whatever shop that is. Then we started to talk about the T-Shirt Competition. And Pei Pei revealed to me that SHE ACTUALLY VOTED FOR ME! Upon hearing it, I was so shocked and touched! Cos never in a million years, I would think that she will vote for me. NEVER! She said she genuinely like my design. No matter whether she voted for me because I'm her friend or she genuinely like my design, I am truly touched! And before that, I did think if Pei Pei voted for my design I would have kiss her on the cheek! It's just the ang mo way of saying thank you when you are so happy and touched you know? ^^
And remember I said that even if only one person in the company likes my design, I will die happy. I really nv dream that it will be Pei Pei.

Maybe I was too judgemental about her the past years or maybe she has changed over the years. I don't which is which or maybe both things had happened. But I just don't want to gossip behind her back anymore. She might not be the perfect friend who will always be there to listen to my complains(in fact I am the one who is always there for her when she is really sad...) or she can debate about things with me but indeed she is someone who is loyal to me. Loyalty is all I asked from someone who is call a friend. A friend who will come to my defense when I'm being mocked. Not insults or hurtful jokes.

I now truly believe something. Sometimes, when you think you know a person so well that you think she/he is such a great person but in time, certain things or actions they do will help you see their true colors.

I dedicate this blog to her, my friend, Pei Pei =)

First bad encounter in SS ~ 19th of April 2006

2006-04-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

Finally I encounter the first bad day in this company! I guess nothing is a bed of roses anywhere or anything. I guess partly is because of my own ego and pride. But also partly is because of one of the colleague there. As I've mentioned earlier in my blog. Her initial is ML.

Last blog I mentioned about the T-shirt competition. Actually I was quite excited about this thing. And I thought my design isn't bad. At least I think that it looked ok. On the day which is the 19th of April 2006, when all entries were in, it was time to review the 11 entries that were submitted. I went over to my leader JS place as he wanted to open them to see. ML was there too. JS and ML can give very sarcastic remarks. So one by one they open the file and looked, as they went along looking, they kept criticising about people's work, like "wow this tshirt too loud, cannot wear one la." etc etc... Criticised finished one work, they giggled.

My entry was the last one. And they opened it and after looking at it they immediately criticised, "Waaa this one also cannot la, the design so big, I don't dare to wear it out. And the logo so big?" Then they made some joke about the logo being so big etc, etc. And they giggled. Then I told them that the design was mine after they finished criticising. When they knew it was my design, they burst out laughing. I don't know whether they were laughing at my designs, or were embarrassed about the fact that they made jokes about my design. I was quite hurt inside. As I was saying, I did not think my design was that bad. I admit that the logo was too big. Another thing is that I found that among the 11 designs, most of them design something that is small in size and put at the top middle of the T-shirt. I think it was quite boring. At least mine was different from the others.

After that, ML went over to IR side to go through the designs with her AGAIN~ Then IR was browsing through my entry. And she said she really liked my designs. She actually liked it the most among all the entries. I'm quite happy that at least she liked it! Because... Her designs were the one that alot of people in the colleagues voted for. Her designs were like the ones that were put in the top middle. I think her designs were not bad though. And then ML continued to make fun of my T-shirt design saying "If somebody wear your T-shirt design, from far far away I can see our company logo already la!" *follow by giggles and laughs* continuing... "I know you are still under probation, but you no need to be so desperate right? Put the company logo so big for what? You want the 100 dollars I know I know." Then JS our leader passed by and also joined in to tease me. =( Then ML kept continue to make fun of me and my big logo. I was very upset by then.

In the end I voted for CT's(from design dept) design. It was quite cute and it fits the theme of the animation. I actually would have voted for IR's design but since Ms Bitchy won't keep her mouth shut. I just don't want to vote for what she likes. And she actually vote grey t-shirt with the design and added this comment ,"Grey is the IN color of this season leh you know anything or not!" when I said grey is like quite wierd to match with jeans. I really don't know anything about fashion and what color is in or not.

But is GREY really the IN color for this season?

From what I know, ML initally worked as an IT programmer... and she was highly recommended by M(the cute guy who is a DJ). JS commented that her portfolio is only... O.K.
So, ML, portfolio is only OK and didn't even take part in the T-shirt design when initially she was the one who said "I want to take part!" so enthusiastically. SO... what gives her the right to laugh and criticise other people's works? She didn't laugh at my work alone but almost laugh at every other people's works except for IR's as she LOVES it sooooooo much.

And don't get me started about my lead JS... He laughed finished already then when he found out that the designs were mine, he tried to salvage what was left between the 2 of us. I think he just wanted to try to make things not so bad for me so I won't bear grudges at him. But that's so hypocritical! Although he wasn't as bad as ML, I'm starting to dislike him. Just because he is so PR! And I will never ever forget his expression when he found out it was my designs. Do I sound like I wanted to take revenge?

Then came the next bad thing that happened. KH(the technical director) wanted something quite urgently. The task was assigned to me during noon 2pm, unfortunately I couldn't finish it at 6pm when it was time for him to go for his jogging session, then he asked JS to do the job cos obviously he has more exp than me DUH! After the earlier pride attacks, I felt that my morale had hit pit bottom. I felt that I'm so incompetent. JS trying to act like a gentleman said that the task given to me was not an easy job and he said "Nvm I do, you go jogging with them." I can't help feeling that he is just trying to act like a good man cos after he tease me already, he felt guilty or something. But what you said, you can't take back. Then when KH came back from his jogging trip, he told me that he was sorry and asked me whether did he hurt my pride etc etc. But I told him it's understandable and all. Then JS walked pass us and told him that I cried etc etc... -___- Please do i look that weak?! I did kind of feel like crying when ML keep making fun of me but I got to keep a brave funny front.

Maybe I'm just making a hill out of a... there is this phrase but I have forgotten about it. Can anyone correct me? Thanks! XD
But I can only take a limit of hurtful jokes and insults. And maybe like what Helen said, I need to stand up for myself which I'm quite bad at it. Especially when Ms Bitchy has somebody like JS the lead to back her up and laugh about my designs.

That day was the worst day in this company SO FAR...

ps: JD who last time used my name to postpone the T-Shirt design competition didn't submit his design. But he didn't make fun or criticise other people's works like ML did. At least JD knows where he stands.

Holiday Over too soon!~

2006-04-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

I was having such a nice time the past week.. everyday woke up looking forward to go to work because that particular week was kept short and sweet for Good Friday! *hurray* XD

Now good time always fly passes so quickly! Tomorrow is MONDAY... working day... another week!! Snap! I'm having Monday Blues typing this. Anyway I do not have anything to blog actually. Just want to whine that long weekend passes so fast! =p

Over the weekend, I finished up the stupid T-shirt Design for the company competiton. I sent it over.. and now I hope that no one will comment it look stupid or something. I just hope at least one person in the company will like it, even if I do not win this thing, I will die happy! Afterall, I did put in some effort to do the vector graphics of Bill and Corky. @_@

This is 2 of the designs I did. I did 4 designs in total. Of which 2 are with colours while the other 2 are just monotone colours. By posting the 2 designs here obviously with the logo on the T-shirt, I expose myself to the dangers of getting fired, being an outcast in the office, as I wrote so many bad things about the colleagues there.

Colours:

Monotone:

If you do noticed, I put Bottle Top Bill & da Crew! LOL XD When I put that I think of helen. And I know my designs are kind of kiddish and passe etc etc etc...

Ok... now is 12 midnight, I should not be here typing rubbish! Instead I should be doing some digital painting practises! Hahaha! Ok... now now I will update you all who won the T-Shirt Design Competition next weekend!

Oh ya before I forget to mention... i'm utterly broke!!! 2 weeks to survive through and i'm left with only so little money left! Plus I got a doctor appointment tomorrow which is quite costly! How I wish this month will just pass by quickly!!!

Till the next time... when I have something to blog about of course! =D

Tristan & Isolde

2006-04-15T17:24:00.000+08:00

Over the week, I watched Tristan & Isolde with agwen at The Cathay. I have never been to The Cathay situated just nearby Plaza Sing. I am quite impressed by the place. Even the seats are bigger, like once you are seated, there are still extra place for you to fling your arms around. I bought sweet corn to eat! HMMMMMMM... it's so nice! Although the last part of it was so salty, it was so nice! Nice and expensive... it cost $2.50... for just the freaking cup of corn which I have finished it 1/4 into the movie...but it was nice la! So much nicer than the one they selling at Cineleisure!

The movie motto is Before Romeo & Juliet, There Was Tristan + Isolde.

It's about this 2 star crossed lovers, Tristan, from England through some complications(I rather not spoil the movie here for you.) ended up on Ireland side. England and Ireland are just separated by a sea, well that's what the movie show anyway. Isolde the Ireland princess, somehow saved Tristan from some major injuries and they slowly fell in love...Isolde at this point did not tell Tristan that she is Isolde the princess of Ireland, instead she lied to Tristan saying that she is Bragnae(it's actually her maid's name..) and that she was a maid-in-waiting working in the court. England and Ireland were enemies at that time so Mr Ireland King being the smart aleck wanted to hold a tournament to see among the England states, who was the strongest and who could submerge as a winner, could win his daughter(that is Isolde) hand in marriage. And of course Tristan won but in the honour of King Marke(a sweetie). That lead to some messy business here...

Yup that's the gist about the movie... I'm sorry i'm a terrible story teller... I think the movie was quite alright... One thing about Isolde, I kept seeing her as Keira Knightley. I know she doesn't really look like her but I keep thinking that's Keira on the big screen... Don't ask me why... Maybe the "look" they both have?

After the movie, me and agwen went to Coffee Club to have our dinner cum supper... er... before the movie started, agwen asked me where should we all have our dinner and I actually said Coffee Bean... Haha... Then while taking the lift, she asked me Coffee Bean haven't open yet right? I was ya i think so... then after that she said aren't we having dinner at Coffee Bean? So in the end, i'm the blur sotong who told her we will have dinner at Coffee Bean but what I meant is Coffee Club!
I order carbonara and she order spagehtti bolognese.. dunno how to spell properly... and we discussed on whether she should take up the job offer. She was having quite a dilemma over it. But I guess now it is all final! She is going to take it! I'm happy for her!

Seeing that all my friends got their job without being months of being jobless makes me wonder am I incapable in any ways??? Cos I'm the one who always have a very DIFFICULT time finding jobs... I am the one who is always jobless for min 3 months - max 6 months. I'm the one who always depend on my friends to give me lobangs or keeping a lookout for me...

Am I really that incapable???

(._____.)

The Wedding of St. George and the Princess Sabra

2006-04-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

Helen has put this painting on her MSN which stirr my attention!
A painting to ponder about.... look at it and feel it...

Title: The Wedding of St. George and the Princess Sabra
Painter: Dante Gabriel Rossetti
Painted in 1857. Watercolour on paper

ps: I wonder how come blogger can let anyone to keep posting pictures online? Do they have that much of space for so many people to post their pictures and not be out of space?

Cave of the Golden Rose

2006-04-08T19:02:00.000+08:00

Growing up in the 80's sure has its benefits! Especially there are so many nice nice shows on tv which indirectly become part of my memories.

Alright... I wonder do any of you remember this show called Cave of the Golden Rose? It has the same feel of Neverending Story. This story is about a princess who is very spunky and has a character of her own. While her 2 elder sisters are those dasmel in distress who wanted to marry off soon kind of girl, in another words abit bimbo? =p She has a never-say-die spirit and always has a golden heart, always helping the good and weak against the evil. She even help reform many bad people with her ways of doing things! She also believe that the good will always triumph over the evil! She is my role model when i'm young! =p Channel 5 always run this show during 1995-1996. And her name is Fantaghiro!

Still no recollection? Anyway Cave of the Golden Rose has 5 sequels of which part 5 isn't available in english so Channel 5 didn't run it on tv. Cave of the Golden Rose is originally an Italian tv-mini series. Here is the synopsis of the 4 different parts which I extract from a website.

Cave of the Golden Rose:
When King Romualdo first met princess Fantaghiro in a forest, he immediately fell in love with her. However, she was frightened and ran away. Since King Romualdo only saw her eyes, he try to find the woman with those beautiful eyes. Later on, as King Romualdo challenges his enemy kingdom to fight a duel to end the war, Fantaghiro was sent to accept the challenge due to prophecy.
However, Fantaghiro cannot reveal herself as woman. Therefore, she cut her hair and dress like a man. When Romualdo saw her later, he somehow recognize her beautiful eyes. However, she dress like a knight and that makes Romualdo uncertain whether she is his love or not. Therefore, he do all kinds of tricks to find out whether she is a knight or the woman he saw in the forest.
Later on, Fantaghiro also fell in love with King Romualdo, but her sense of duty to fight the duel is stronger. Will they fight in the duel until one of them died? Will the war ends? How could Fantaghiro survive Romualdo's challenge?

Cave of the Golden Rose 2:
Fantaghiro and Romualdo was about to marry when suddenly the Dark Witch interrupted them. The Dark Witch kidnapped the father king and force King Romualdo to start a war. During the war, the Dark Witch turned herself into Fantaghiro and made Romualdo kissed her. As a result, Romualdo was under her control.
Now, Fantaghiro have to fight against her own love, Romualdo. However, she couldn't attack Romualdo as she love him very much and she also cannot let herself to be killed by him. What will she do next? How can her defeat the Dark Witch?

Cave of the Golden Rose 3:
Romualdo became the victim of Tarabas evil spell and was turned into a stone. In order to restore him, Fantaghiro has to get an "impossible kiss", that is to kiss Tarabas. However, any woman who kiss Tarabas will turn him into a beast and that woman will be devoured. Fantaghiro eventually found Tarabas and is willing to kiss him even though she hated him so much, because she wants to restore her love, Romualdo. However, Tarabas demanded her to marry him in order to earn that "impossible kiss". Will she survive the beast? How could she escape the marriage with Tarabas?

Cave of the Golden Rose 4:
Darken casted a black cloud that took away many castles, including Fantaghiro's one. Therefore, Fantaghiro has to join Prince Parsel to find her castle back. During her journey, she met Tarabas, who was about to engage Rufus in a duel, because Tarabas was accused for casting the black cloud. She rescued Tarabas and together, they travel to find Darken.
Finally, they found Darken, but was imprisoned by him. Darken tried all kinds of bad tricks to force Tarabas to go back to evil. Will Tarabas become wicked again? Can Fantaghiro beat Darken? Will the castle be rescued?

I personally feel that part 1 is the best. The sequels storyline are getting more and more cheesy. (but I like to see Fantaghiro acting so righteous in every part of the show, it's just so inspiring even though the story become anyhow in later parts!) Feels like they just want to anyhow fill in the plots to make the seqeuls work. I won't vouch that Cave of the Golden Rose has deep plots and all but it's is nice, motivational and straight forward. Good against Evil and love.

here are the character photos which I have found over the internet.. it's so pathetic... Not much on the show therefore pictures are quite scarce.

King Romualdo (that is Fantaghiro's love interest.):

Is he dreamy or what? =D

Fantaghiro:

I'm sorry I can't find more picture of her as there isn't much on the net. And these pictures doesn't do her any justice as she is really pretty in the movie!!! Even Iszy(ccnp) had a crush on her when he was young! XD Left top is her when she has to act as a male to hide her princess identity. Right top is her in black armor. Below left is when she still has long hair but wasn't cut off by the cropping and the below right is when she is about to marry Romualdo I think.

Tarabas:

Tarabas's love interest is Fantaghiro and he is initially a evil person, he put a curse on Romualdo. At the later stage, he slowly he falls in love with Fantaghiro as he is moved by Fantaghiro's kind act. He is the dark prince.

Misc Characters:

This woman appears in the first part of Cave of the Golden Rose. She appears to be some guardian of some forest who helps Fantaghiro. I like her image it just like she was created out of those fairy tales! =D

Left: Fantaghiro's sisters. Right: Dark Witch. The actress is actually a famous play-boy pin up girl when she was young! Hahaha!

There are other characters but I don't think it's necessary to put it here hehehe...

Recently I have found a website that sells this series dubbed in english. Previously I found that Germany Amazon.com sells them but it's all in italian with dutch subtitles (so stupid >_<) but it's original and cost wise is reasonable. The one i found recently sell it in english dubbed!!! But then as discussed with helen, they sell the series in DVDR..... -____-"" which means they ripped it from somewhere.... therefore it meant that the series is PIRATED isn't it... and the cost is eur 170. Which means it cost SGD340!!! That's so expensive for pirated isn't it? And what if the Singapore customs found out it's pirated and sued me??? =( What am I suppose to do? I need advice!!!

Should I just buy the pirated one with sky rocket high prices, taking a gamble and risk seeing low quality show and getting sued or should I buy from Germany Amazon with resonable price and originality but I won't be understanding a word they say as it's all in freaking italian?

I found one VHS cover on amazon.com which show a very pretty picture of Fantaghiro and Romualdo hahaha and the White Witch and Fantaghiro's father!

Jiggy and a Diary...

2006-04-08T18:09:00.000+08:00

Ok I'm going to post a few blogs on the same day as I don't have much time to blog during weekdays because when I reached home, it's pretty late and I'm tired.

Lately I have been reading a book call The Diary of Young Girl Anne Frank. It's about this Jewish teenager call Anne Frank during world war II how she and her family and friends went into hiding to escape the clutches of racism. This diary is a true account. In the diary she mentioned her everyday life in the hiding place. I found out that she and I have something in common.. it's about our mother. Like me we couldn't relate to our mother much, we couldn't talk to our mother about our innermost feelings or confide in her.. We both thought our moms are insensitive and uncaring. And Anne's mother always side with Margot(her elder sister) in some situations which remind of me and my brother. And also at later part where she was 14 year old, she did talked about her feelings towards another guy in the hiding place. Somehow at 14, I felt that way too =)
Poor Anne died in the end as they were caught by the Germans. The only surviving member is his father. =(

Book Cover:

(The Diary of a Young Girl: Anne Frank)

P.S: my photo taking skills isn't as good as agwenalist so please do pardon me. This is taken by my handphone, it might be a little blur =)

And also, I have been doing a 300 pcs jigsaw puzzle. =) The title of the jigsaw puzzle is Petite Marie, hehehe it's cute isn't it? =) The pic is a small little girl trying to fit in her mom's high heels. Doesn't it remind you of your childhood days? It's only 300 pcs so it is not a very difficult task. Only the part where the wall is, is difficult as the colors all the same. ~___~

Now all I need is a frame man... hahaha cos i'm just leaving the poor jigsaw puzzle around on my room's floor!

And yesterday, I just went to Mat's company to get my Papillio! Finally man!!! Oh his company has just moved and the new office is really nice! But it's freezing inside! And they said that once only him and another account exe is in the office late in the night, Mat went to the toilet, the account exe can hear the chairs moving sound in the office.... *shiver*

my thoughts: I think the picture online is better looking than when I saw it in real life. Maybe is due to the lighting and good photography skills XD

Mat said he want to order a second round of birkies. So Gwen you have chance to order too! Hehe interested?

Ok last but not least! It's about Long Mao that helen sent to me! One day, while me and AV were so bored we let Long Mao listen to some music.

courtesy of AV for posing long mao hearing music. Isn't Long mao CUTE???? ^^

Oh Helen, actually this blue color long mao is Totoro's friend. Totoro is the huge, grey long mao. Compare to Totoro, he is small in size! Hehehe. And the bag he is carrying is NUTS! And only children can see Totoro and his friends. They are the guardians of the area where the kids live in. The story is about these 2 kids, their mommy is very sick and not by their side then I dunno why and how did the story goes. I forgotten already. And he actually gives some nuts to plant some trees in their backyard. The story is quite sweet. =)

Kindred: The Embraced

2006-04-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

Hurrrrrrray!!! Finally my Kindred: The Embraced dvd has safely arrived! My preciiiiousssssssssssss.... Hehehehe! Luckily the postman send it to my residence on Thursday which is my momsy off day! =D

It's a short-lived drama series, one of the executive producer is Aaron Spelling... The story is derived from a book call The Masquerade or something like that. It's about different clans of vampires and also a prince to rule them all.. They call their leader prince... I dunno why.

I remember while I was young(which is like 13 years old? Now 11 years difference) I watched the show as if it was very interesting. Now that I watched it on dvd again, I find that the storyline sucks!! I think is because of Aaron Spelling... trying to mix abit of Beverly Hills inside?? Cos the supporting female character and the prince fell in love too early, I was like what the hell happened between them that they suddenly kiss and all... it's absurd!

But after 11 years have passed, I still like the main actor, that is the prince... he is still as charming as ever.. or maybe my taste remain quite the same. His name in the show is Julian Luna and his real name is Mark Frankel who died in a motorcycle accident. He was riding on the motorbike... This remind me of an incident which happened after I got to know that he passed away not long after...

One day while i'm still a 13 year old teenager, I was reading 8 Days and was reading on the letters and comments page which is rather front... There was this letter asking how come Kindred: The Embraced is being cut off suddenly and there weren't anymore shows on it? The reply was: It didn't have high rating on the TV list over at US plus the actor Mark Frankel died in an accident. When they announced the news, his death was only like 1-2 days old.
The moment I read that, I immediately became so shocked! And then tears started to pour out of my eyes...I cried rather painfully, my heart was in pain! No kidding... I'm not pulling things out of proportions here... Then... when i listen to any sad songs... I cried cos it remind me of him.
I forgotten when did I has that dream, on the day I found out he passed away or maybe 1-2 days after I knew. I had this dream, whereby I was invited to this gothic castle and I'm being led to the dinning room where they have long long tables. I was being seated just beside the so-called "president seat" at the front. There were candles alot of them around all on some nice victorian style candle stands, everything emitting this warm cozy color...on the table, there are food and all, it was like an invitation for me to have a feast or something! And there on the "president seat" sat the prince! Julian Luna!!! Mark Frankel!!! I was awe stricken and at the same time happy... He didn't say a word but just give me a warm smile. He seems to tell me that he is ok now and I shouldn't be too sad for him. And then my dream ended.

I didn't really think of him when I went to sleep... Maybe it was due to my grief and desire that I dreamt of him. I told one of my colleagues, AV, he said higher chance that he came and "visit" me as he didn't died too long ago. And also because of the grief he could feel from me, he could project his "yi nian" even to faraway places like Singapore. Plus when I was in the dream with him, he didn't even say a word, AV said that mostly the dead "visit" you, they normally won't speak a word. And also I am not his relatives or friends yet I felt such sadness for him was more of the reason that he visit me. If he really came by and visit me, I'm really flattered and happy. And also I think his invitation for me to have a big feast is his way to say his final good bye to me. I know i'm being silly and illogical and superstitious and etc etc... But.. I choose to believe the latter theory. =(

Ok anyway here is the cover of the Dvd!!

Here is a picture of Julian and a cop-turned-ally in the show...

(top: Julian bottom: Frank the cop.)

3-4 years ago while I was working in Soundbuzz with agwenalist, we like to visit forums and talk... you can put avatar on the forum so I put Julian and I remember dunno who, agwen, helen or zen commented that Julian look like an Indian or Suds right? LOL... But well maybe a little.. cos of his huge eyes.

Quizzes copied from Helen's Blog =p

2006-04-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

Hurray I found some nice quizzes from helen site and took it for fun too!!!

You Are The Hermit

You posses a great deal of wisdom and the ability to see people for who they are.
You are always looking ahead at the future, developing visions.
A loner, you tend to travel by yourself through life, seeking your own truth.
You don't crave material things or fancy titles. You have no baggage.

Your fortune:

It's possible that there is a unknown guiding figure in your life, ready to help you.
All you have to do is find this person and seek their advice.
It's also possible that you need to start seeking the meaning of your own life.
Either way, there's some deep thinking you need to undertake, and it needs to be done soon.

What Tarot Card Are You?

Actually I DO crave for material stuff LIKE DVDs and CDs! Wahahahah! XD And I'm not that wise too...

You Should Be a Romance Novelist

You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart.
You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer...
And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories.
As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

This... is so not true!

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.
But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.

Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

I don't even know the best movie matches are what shows!?

Our Life like The Fellowship...

2006-04-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

Just pondering today while I am working... I thought of our lives... My circle of friends include Agwenalist, Helen, Zen and Valerie. We are all struggling for our career lives. Wondering what to do.

It's just like The Fellowship from Lord of The Ring... Just that we don't have a ring to destroy or is there a need to save the world. Our dilemma, fears and doubts of our future are just as bad as what Frodo and co. are facing in the book and movies.

With our hearts together my friends, I believe we can battle these difficult times together!

Believe!

More Quizzes!!!

2006-04-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

This is my results!

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture.
From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning

You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life.
You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights.
A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way.

In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit.

While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme.
You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends.
Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Yutsuko Inoue

What's your Japanese Name?

You Are 36% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Beware of me!!! Hohohoho!

About Sandals...

2006-04-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

As promised to agwenalist... I got something to blog about... that is sandals! hehehe! One thing to note that is I quite like to collect shoes. Sorry but not heels ok =)

One month earlier, CCNP~ians wanted to buy Birkenstock from an online shopping website as we can all save if not alot then some shipping fees. So together we have purchase them and they have arrived. But I haven't got a chance to meet them yet so I can't get my sandals. But here is a picture of it!

Sparta Ethno black patent, material: Birko-flor

This is what I have order! Mine is under Papillio =D

And look at what mr Mat has order!! Or should I call him Mr Hercules? XD

Athen black, material: Leather

He started wearing it already and he said that people did stare at his feet! I think it's rather unique!

Ok as you know that Birkenstock has some series that are design by Ms Heidi Klum(She is some supermodel or something right?) I saw the gold and silver series design that agwenalist will love, hehe.. anyway my point is... those sandals design by ms supermodel has price tags that are outrageous! @_@

Here is it!:

(From Top to Bottom): Crystal Gold, Price: SGD371. Diamond Gold, Price: SGD352.

(From Top to Bottom): Crystal Silver, Diamond Silver.

Price is the same as above for the 2 silver ones. See it's so freaking expensive just because it's designed by ms supermodel!

I kind of like these 2 slip ons designed by her! =)

(From Top to Bottom): Imperial, Price: SGD 300 round off. Duchess, Price: SGD 312.

Oh ya forgotten to mention that shoes that are designed by her are named by royalty rank... got Princess, Queen etc etc... and only the sandals that are designed by her then is THIS EXPENSIVE... *sweat* Isn't it tempting to buy? Hahahahah XD

ok... now coming to boots... Boots is under Footprints which is also under Birkenstock. It's quite difficult to find boots that have flat heels or almost-flat heels. If you shop around in Singapore, almost all the boots have high heels which isn't my cup of tea. Luckily Footprints sell most of them with flat heels! =D

(Top): Loreto Mocca
(Bottom Left to Right): La Rochelle Brown Antique, Sestriere Brown Antique.

Ok I think the design of the boots aren't really astonishing or super nice. But I kind of like the simple feel of the boots =) And they have black color for the boots above which are quite nice too! But i prefer brown. Oh the second design La Rochelle Brown Antique reminds me of Claire Redfield from Resident Evil 2 cos of the boots she wears in the game! XD Maybe I should buy that instead to relive the days huhuhu! Cosplay anyone? XD

To let me choose I think I will buy Duchess and Sestriere Brown Antique! But it's too expensive for me to buy! I guess I can dream of wearing it or something right? ;)

If any of you interested to see the other designs of the shoes pls go to FootShoppping! =D

Something I overheard at FM 93.3

2006-04-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm... as I'm taking a ride back to home from my granny's house, the radio was playing this programme segment about japanese singers and all... The DJ was saying that one of this boy band call "放浪兄弟 " (Waves Brother? O.o), the main singer call "顺" is leaving the band? And the fans are all so devestated... The reason for him leaving is because the band is always singing R & B and dunno what genre of songs that he is so sick of it that he decided to leave the band. I don't know what kind of songs he prefer to sing. He proclaim that if he continues to stay in the band and sing what the band wants then he will lost himself. You know 自我 otherwise known as identity...

It's quite sad for him to leave the band I guess.. and the band members sure does feel the same. But 天下无不散之宴席 . People leave and go... that's life. I don't even know this boy band and yet I feel sad for them... Today I'm feeling 愁畅 (sad, emotional) about things. (._.)

What Type of Killer Are You?

2006-04-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

What Type of Killer Are You? Courtesy from Helen's blog!

You are full of honour and value respect. You are not really the stereotypical hero, but you do fight for good. Just in your own way. For you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil person, if it is for justice and peace. You also don't believe in mourning all the time and think that once you've hit a bad stage in life you just have to get up again. It's pointless to concentrate on emotional pain and better to just get on with everything. You also are a down to earth type of person and think before you act. Impulsive people may annoy you somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword

Quote: "Always do the right thing. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest" -Mark Twain

Facial Expression: Small smile

This is my result! Actually I don't think the above description is me. First I'm not very down to earth, secondly I am those who will wallow in sadness for a long time. Thirdly I am quite impulsive and quick to anger... So... why did I get Samurai!? The only conclusion is because... that is maybe when I have become a killer then I will act like a Samurai! ^^ Hahaha... Well... I like the result I got nonetheless! =D

You can take the quiz here: What Type of Killer Are You?

SS & B.T.B

2006-04-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

Ok.. so here I am working in SS...

It all started when Jean told us that the company she was working in were going to hire soon for the upcoming project call B.T.B 2. Upon hearing it, I was quite thrilled to go about applying for the job. My portfolio wasn't ready and all but I don't care anymore as I need a job desperately plus this job is something I want to do! It somewhat resemble the job that I once had at the now de-funct SI!

While I was working for CCNP, I tried to apply to some other companies, had 2 job offers but then whenever I asked Mat and Iszy for their opinions on things, they think it's not really good, so I decline their offers. I really thank my lucky stars for being able to get into SS.

Too bad Jean no longer worked over there as there were some issues. PP and Monica tried for the company and PP got into the company! Unfortunately Monica was too over qualified for the job so... (._.) Monica did worked for CCNP but after 3 days, she realised she don't really like it so she quitted. Mat and Iszy said she is really a wonderful worker though! It's a pity =(
But now she found herself a job already! It's for some event company! So I am happy for her.

B.T.B is a 11 min animation for kids 3-6 years old. The show shows how you can build up characters with just junks. But there are story lines as well.

Overall, I would say the company environment is really great! The people there do share what they know with you. I worked under the Photoshop Team, my leader JS is really a very nice person. And so are all my team mates! There are JD, IR, ML and AV. Among these few, I got along well with AV the most! He loves to play games too and has a very peaceful temperament. Which means I can bully him whenever I like and he still won't get angry! I also nicknamed AV as Mr Sobe or BoBo (Yes it's the character that Zoe Tay acted as in the early 90's drama show call "San Mian Xia Wa")
Mr Sobe san loves to watch HK drama series and those classic old school channel 8 drama series like "Qing Chun 1-2-3"! The other day we were trying to remember how to sing the theme song! XD Occasionally we discuss on them and the theme songs. But what we talked most about are games =)

JD... Well, I don't quite like him... because he usually talk alot of crap. And he is one passe ah beng still alive around here. I mean who still behaves like an ah beng? He loves to wear black singlet, he is tall and lanky and his hair is quite long and always falling into his face. He just disgust me. Last time when the Photoshop team only have the 2 of us, he usually likes to come to my place to brag how much he had finished. There was once he and me, we were talking to the receptionist and he actually told the recep that he just ORD and still can finished alot of stuff at such a fast rate, indirectly saying to her that I'm the slow tortoise here... Now his nonsense seems to decline ( I thank my lucky stars again!) as he went over to other team mates to disturb them LOL =p There is one thing about him though, he put alot of enthusiasm in the things he is interested in.

ML... She can be quite talkative at times... But she isn't someone who will brag about how fast she has finished her work like the one above. Sometimes she can be quite mean with her words. Like being harsh, when I reply her something she will just say "(the thing i reply), your head ah!" in your face with a very harsh tone... er i just don't get it... She likes to come to my place to make small chat.. One important thing to take note is... My place is an open spot for the recep to see, the recep is kind of like the spy so.... you know it isn't very nice...

IR.... she is a nice girl but we don't really have alot to talk about. That's all that I can comment on her. Hahaha...

Other than that we have the animation dept, vfx dept, compositor dept and video editor. Also we have 2 tech directors who will help to solve any problems with the animation and rigs. Then we have the design dept and model working workshop dept.

Just the other day, JD actually uses my name to ask the recep to postpone the date of the T-shirt design. Our company have organise a T-shirt design competition so that we can all come up with design and submit to them. The staff will get to vote which design is the best. Best design will win $100 and runner up $50. Yes I know the price isn't attractive at all.. but I guess it's better than nothing!
Right so Mr JD actually told us that he asked the recep using my name to postpone the date for the Tshirt design so...

Me: Wa why you use my name?
(Then he quickly defend himself by saying)
JD: I'm just helping you only. I can finished my T-shirt design today one but i'm just lazy.
ML: Ya next time just use her name to ask for everything (see what i meant? This is what ms ML loves to do.)
Me: Er keep using my name then wait tarnish my reputation....
JD: You still got reputation meh?
ML: Ya lo?

Again indirectly, he is pointing fingers at me that
I AM THE ONE WHO CAN"T FINISH THE T-SHIRT DESIGN!!!

The funny thing is... I didn't even mention to him that I can't finished my T-shirt Design... How did he know that I can't finished my T-shirt design? That sleazy lying no-good rat! Just because you can't finished it doesn't mean you can use other people's name to ask for the postponing of the deadline.

I absolutely hate it when people gang up to "bully" me... like the above conversation... PLS my dear friends who are reading this... Don't do these to me if you are my true friend cos seriously I HATE IT TO THE CORE... If you are doing that to me and I'm all smiles to you, I'm just acting, I actually wishing you are dead or something in my heart.
Do I have a look that says "I'm Weak Come Bully me if you are free". No I don't have so.... but of course apparently some of my team members just don't get it you know!
And that JD.. I HATE HIM!!!

Ok My leader JS has a very good buddy call KH... who is one of the Tech Director.. they are nice people... and they love to.... DIET! Yes they are even worse than girls! They don't eat lunch and they go to gym and exercise. They are not ultra fat. Actually KH does look abit fat last time but now he look slim! So they are the diet crew! LOL which I always laugh at them about.

Animators dept, there are alot of them around... I don't really talk to them alot but they are a bunch of fun people. =) Nice people too! Jay is working among them too.

VFX dept, what can I say about them? Nothing! Haha cos I don't talk to them much. Well, there is one guy CH who look like Mr Incredible cos of his ultra square chin!

Compositor dept, never talk to them alot so I don't know much but there is one guy M who look rather cute and is a DJ (sorry not my type).

Model workshop, PP is working in there as a design assistant. Actually she helps out the design dept and model workshop too. CS is a nice person too along with DV and AB =)

Design Dept, Well Jay know someone in there call JR... he is an england ungus dungu! They way he speaks singlish is just so funny! Yup he is a very funny guy. There is also CT who is an eurasian who have a twin sister and WH.

Last but not least there is the art director CMR... chinese nickname for him is "Jin Ma Lun". Exe Producer is JK. That's quite a "brief" introduction to the people above.

Oh ya one more thing to add in. I usually lunch in the office, I find that the weather is so unbearable nowadays. Plus I can save alot of money if I bring home cook food!

How I wish agwenalist is with me here in the office so she can witness all the unjust things JD and ML did to me. Oh well, that's impossible too.. if she is in the co. she will be busy in the other room =( ok to end it all here is something from B.T.B:

Yes their mouth are slanted side ways cos of its style but deep down in my evil heart I always think they are spastic and retard that's why. Ok I'm sorry...

ps: To protect my own interest, I can't fully exploit the names of the people I have spoke badly about if not how am I going to survive in the company right? Hehehe... well I am the evil one!

I'm Back!

2006-03-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

Hello dear friends!!
I haven't been writing for a long long time! I know ever since 2005 Feb. It was due to my friends AGWENALIST's (Yes her blog is back are you ppl excited or what?!) and Helen's(this one just too busy or lazy to blog lol) blogs! If you are interested in reading what their blogs are all about please remember to click on the links that I have posted on the right hand side. =)

When I stopped writing my blog, so many things happened.
Let's recap shall we?

1. I quitted my job at DPI Communications. The one where I worked with Val in the print shop. I guess part of the reason why I didn't write the blog anymore is because I worked late almost everytime. Val and I have so much pent up frustrations in us that after work, we will scurry off to TCC or Sushi Don to gossip about the 2 bosses there and we will eat and spend money on coffee and stuff.

2. After I quitted, I was jobless for a good 1-2 months before I landed myself in an admin job that required me to key in data for Nestle cereal contest. I got the job because of Cheryl! Would like to thank her for informing me about the job because if there is no her, I wouldn't be in the company! That company is CCNP which stands for Creative Concepts and Promotions. Oh man! I have sooooooo much fun in the company! It's one of the company which really helps me rebuild my confidence! After going through so many companies, there are not much companies which helped me get through and really understand what I'm going through.

Let me explain the first day I step into CCNP. I thought "WHAT A MESS!". How come Mat and Cheryl will work in such place!? And the work place happened to be around Little India! With all the Ungus Dungus around! And the cars and people, I don't even want to mention... first the people there just cross without looking the multiple junctions there... and needless to say the cars there just want to ram you across! Crossing road there is like a very difficult task. I must say I didn't have a good impression of CCNP.

It helps that CCNP have Mr Mathathir, Iswadi(a.k.a Iszy) and Cheryl. Initially I was just an admin girl. I must tell you it isn't an easy job having to open truck loads of envelopes everyday, keying in so many data. I even go all out to Woodlands to deliver the prizes to the parents! I must admit that I really treated my admin job seriously even though it is not what I can say that will help me with my future prospects. But the end results were really good. Response for the contest is very nice and Nestle are pleased with CCNP. Well I am pleased too =)

I'm happy because I did my part well for CCNP. Partly is because I really love the people there... so I don't mind sacrifice little time for them. All these doesn't just come smoothly of course, along the way I got some hiccups too esp some indian guy(whose name isn't worth mentioned on my blog of course!) who thinks just because he is a consumer and a lawyer, he can get whatever he wants.

During the data entry period, I did some graphic design work and surprisingly, it was my dedication on the data entry job that the boss wanted to take me in as their 4th graphic designer. At first the female boss just want me to help out with them for their graphic design. Later on they want to hire me as full time.

I was quite hesistant of whether to accept the job or reject it. Firstly it's not what I want to do and it's graphics... which I kind of don't like... . Otherwise, the people there are really fun to be with! The boss is very kind at times... when she isn't moody that is hehe...
Here is a picture of CCNP. Basically CCNP consist less than 10 people, though it's small, we are all close knitted.

Front (left to right): Mahathir, Iswadi.
Behind (left to right): Me, Dawn, Natalie, Grace.

The photo was taken during Dec when we all have the Narnia The Chronicles movie event so we were all there to help out! While I was there, I absolutely did nothing of any sorts lol. Well well well what can I say about them? Hmm... I shall make it a brief one for each introduction!

Mahathir and Iszy are the big brothers of the studio in the company! They are really good designers! Whenever I am not sure of anything like the software I will ask them. Besides being nice, Mahathir and Iszy loves to bicker with each other, always teasing each other with their "butt" and "nipples" jokes... And Mahathir always like to comment on Iszy's fashion sense like "Did you tailor made your clothes at Hannifah Textiles?"

Dawn, Nat and Grace are the AEs a.k.a account exes! They are really nice people, funny too! ^^
Our boss which is not in the picture is Marina. She comes a long way back where she worked in Saatchi & Saatchi as AE. She is a peranakan. =)
Dawn is really like the "big sister" role, and she is the one who will voice out if she is not happy. She has leadership qualities in her and will have your attention when she is telling you an account she exp or some funny stories.
Nat's character is somewhat like Dawn and she is very sensible in her thinking! Grace is the cool one among them, who don't panic if she screws up or whatever =)

Nat and Dawn have left the company quite long ago. Grace, Mat and Iszy are still there... and CCNP has moved to Aljunied!!! It's quite a big difference and the office is definitely better looking than in Little India =)

I'm very thankful to them for taking care of me and I really enjoyed my time there... It'll always be the best part of my working life =) Now that we are all separated, we still come out and meet up to talk cock.

I'll continue on my next blog on my next company call SS Singapore! Tune in next time! =D

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2005-01-29T19:00:00.000+08:00

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Hahaha today Jean who is a Phantom fan avid passed me a link! It's Phantom of the Opera in 15 Minutes! written by a person call Cleolinda Jones. It is really funny! She really did a great job! I am going to make a disclaimer that I didn't wrote this story ( i don't have such a great talent! ^^) and I do not know Cleolnida Jones.
Oh yeay and actually I took more than 15 mins to read finish the whole thing. :p

Read on...

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Due to some issues, I can't post the story here. *sobs sobs* :..( But it's ok! :D Funny and good stories must be share! So click here to read the entire story!

Phantom of the Opera in 15 Minutes

Hehehe hope you all enjoy the short story comedy version for Phantom of the Opera ! It is really very funny! :D Hahaha! Really keep me laughing for hours!

To Cleolinda: Hi Cleolinda, if you ever read this, I would like to apologise to you. :( Sorry I didn't know I can't post the whole story here, and I thought by making a small disclaimer will do the job. I'm so sorry. Anyways just want to say you really do have a great talent! Keep up the good work ;) Thanks for writing the comedy version of Phantom of the Opera :)

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2005-01-24T18:00:00.000+08:00

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Hehe today i was browsing through the internet for The Phantom of the Opera and stumble upon a forum which discuss on the movie itself. Actually it is the official forum for the movie.
Interested please click here : http://boards3.warnerbros.com/wbol/forum.jspa?forumID=2000000015

I noticed alot of very meaningful comments on the movie and the storyline, on each scenes and stuff. I found it very amazing and somehow I never took notice or realise that it might mean that way.
And also there are people commenting that those movie critics who said the movie is bad are really strange cos they think the movie is a hit and is really wonderful. Then some commented that not all will like musical movie as it is hard to please the commercial crowd -_-

But even if that is the case, I don't think those movie critics should give such a bad review to the movie BASE on THEIR OWN COMMERCIALISED VIEW on COMMERCIALISED MOVIES! They should keep those opnions to commercialised movies. Not on musical movie! Even in Singapore, those reviewers gave a bad review. I am so utterly disappointed with them! It in turn affect the performance of the movie box office! My friends who love the musical nearly don't want to watch it because of the bad reviews in magazines. >:( That! Made me really angry! But luckily I am there to assure her that this movie is really GREAT! No doubt she agreed after watching it and she watched a second time! And she in turn spread the good word to her other friends. I have already watched the movie 3 times and I am still spell bound by it. Those people at the forums watched like 5 times already! :D

Anyways I am going to post those comments and messages here, for remembrance. I can only hope that blogger will be kept "alive" forever so when I am old, I can refer back to "now" :)

Someone wrote this about the scene where Raoul placed the monkey musical box on Christine's grave while Phantom placed the ring and the rose...

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carolynw

Posts: 388
From: Las Vegas, NV
Registered: 9/24/04

Re: Post FILM SPOILERS Here & REVIEWS with SPOILERS
Posted: Jan 5, 2005 10:45 AM

I have read another persons answer to this and it gives me meaning to this scene so here goes. The Musical Monkey Box belonged to the Phantom, a favourite toy and Christine had spoken of this to Raoul. The Ring was a gift from Raoul to Christine so it was an item belonging to Raoul. The Phantom and Raoul were placing items belonging to the other person on Christines' grave acknowledging the love the other had for Christine. Acknowledging that Christine needed the safe love of Raoul and the passionate love of the Phantom. This explanation made sense of the scene for me, I hope it did for you. Yes, that is what I got from the ending. That is why I think it was so nice, plus I think the two men had come to grips with each others confrontation from earlier days. When Raoul looks up to see if the Phantom is around it seemed he almost smiled and wanted to see his old nemesis.

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:) Hmm I never thought that scene meant that. But now that I have known, I felt so glad!

Another post which I think is meaningful...

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phangirl321

Posts: 32
From: Show Me State
Registered: 1/9/05

Re: Post FILM SPOILERS Here & REVIEWS with SPOILERS
Posted: Jan 11, 2005 8:31 AM

In some of the posts I've read here, some people seem confused about the ring, especially as to why it changes hands so many times. I was too until I watched the movie a second time and listened to this part of the soundtrack several times. Here's my take on it. I would appreciate any feedback on this. The first time we see the ring is at the Masquerade, on a chain around Christine's neck, a sign of her secret engagement to Raoul.

Then Phantom steals it, saying: "Your chains are mine! You belong to me!" Later when he kidnaps Christine from the stage he puts the wedding veil on her head and gives back the ring saying: "Turn around and face your fate! An eternity of THIS before your eyes." Essentially this action means that to him, from that moment they are married (The ring now representing a wedding band instead of an engagement ring). It is a clever and kinda cruel thing to use the same ring that Raoul gave to her, but that's what he's all about, right?

Then after Phantom forces Christine to choose between him and Raoul, Christine says: "God give me courage to show you that you are not alone", gives the ring back to him along with that awesome kiss (actually two), and completes the "wedding". Raoul, not having seen the first half of the "ceremony" probably has no idea why Christine is giving away his ring, or maybe can't even see her give it to him since Phantom's back is to him. He may even have go on for years never knowing about the exchange, but thinking Phantom had it the whole time. Phantom understands immediately what Christine is doing, knows that she loves him in the deepest, truest way possible and is choosing him, not just to save Raoul's life, but because he is her soulmate.

The line in the song "Phantom of the Opera" hints at this: "My spirit and your voice in one combined." This is a true union of the heart. In the song "Stranger Than You Dreamt It" Phantom says: "Fear can turn to love. You'll learn to see, to find the man behind the monster, this repulsive carcass who seems a beast but secretly dreams of beauty."

Right here, with the ring and the kiss, this happens. Christine sees and loves the man, and the monster disappears. Now he can neither hold her prisoner nor can he give her the life she needs and he sacrifices his own happiness for hers, just as she did when she gave him the ring. His line: "Christine, I love you" is a reaffirmation of their union, and proof for Raoul that he truly is a changed man.

I think this is why Raoul gives up his quest to destroy Phantom (his own dark obsession)and leaves him alone from then on. I also think he figures out somewhere along the line where Christine's heart really is and knows that if he were to continue his quest he would be worse than the Phantom because he would have no excuse for his actions (no tortured childhood or horrible disfigurement).

Finally, when Raoul finds the ring at Christine's grave, he realizes that Phantom has finally let her go, and/or leaves the ring as a sign of official acknowledgement that Raoul loved her and deserved her love as well. In the end all three of them sacrificed something for love: Phantom and Christine their chance for a life together, and Raoul his own obsession to eliminate the competition and have Christine all to himself.

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Another one, Someone asking whether at the end of of the movie, Raoul have tears in his eyes is because Christine is "in love" with Phantom

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ella_child

Posts: 4
From: a dream
Registered: 1/2/05

Re: Mask Removal
Posted: Jan 3, 2005 3:00 PM

ella_child , Is that why Raoul had tears in his eyes???? been meaning to asked this question to the forum.
Was that tears of Raoul seeing how much Christine is "in love" with the Phantom?

I'm not sure if I would use the term "in love" at that moment, but they had a passion that Christine didn't share with Raoul. It was darker yes, but it possessed her nonetheless. She was vulnerable to the Phantom's seduction, and it was just as powerful as the security Raoul's love provided.

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Will share more when I post blogs :)
Today while I was exploring the forum, I stumble upon this thread where they say the monkey musical box (it played "Masquerade"!!!) which was treasured very much by Phantom is for sale on a particular website.

So I click on the website and found so many musical boxes of different designs! There was one that is of Phantom and Christine, then another is Raoul with Christine. I like a particular one which looks just like a jewellery box. It is so exquisite!

But too bad -_- they don't ship to Singapore, only within US >:(

I was so disappointed! Although Ebay have sale for the monkey musical box, it costs way too much, the highest bid can go up to US189 O_O
That is so expensive and adding the shipping fees, I can imagine how expensive it is going to be!
But then I really wish to have one ;_; Sigh, guess me and the monkey musical box have no fate
:(

I can imagine myself, every night before I go to bed, I will listen to it. And the music box, playing "Music of the Night" or "Masquerade" or "All I Ask of You" will coo me to sleep :D Isn't it wonderful!? I think it will bring me sweet dreams! ^^

Anyway interested party can go to this web page

http://www.funtocollect.com/phantomofopera.html

Who knows you might have a overseas relative residing at US area. If yes please do inform me! I want that musical box!!! Haha! Thank you! ^-^

ps: I read the forum, they said The Phantom of the Opera Dvd might be releasing on the April/June '05 if not, it will be on the Nov/Dec '05 period. Which is kind of long isn't it -_-

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2005-01-18T14:59:00.000+08:00

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Today I went to work, thinking that the boss would scold me about the touch ups I did for the OFE, but luckily he didn't. But can't help feeling guilty cos the touch up is now being assigned to Valerie to do.
Today got new things to do already, need to color some kiddish pictures for some Music Factory school -_- Must be done by Tuesday night, so I brought home work to do. Bleh!

Today I went eating lunch with Junhua and Val, heard quite a lot of funny jokes (as usual :D) from him. Anyways, throughout the whole afternoon, I have been thinking about eating this cereal that Val bought last week. It is a french cereal, with chocolate chips, it looked really nice on the cover! Looks too good enough to eat!
So after work, I suggested to go grocery shopping with Val as she need to buy her own stuff too.

And while on the way, I have a sudden craving for chicken nuggets plus instant noodles.

Before we went to shop for grocery, we went window shopping on clothes, we went to Mphosis and guess what!?!?!?! We saw a very beautiful and sweet white dress (it is like a tube dress but it looked so elegant and pretty!) on display, with black ribbon tied just underneath the bosom part of the dress that is very Christine Daae!!! Val and I were like Chrrrrriiissstineeee!!! Ahhhhh!!!
Val somemore searched the shop for me to find the dress. But can't find it, then she suggested to ask the sales person, I was like, ask already, I won't buy so what is the point? Even if I buy the dress, don't tell me I am going to hang it in my room and keep looking at it and keep saying Ahhhhh Chriiiiissstttinnnne!?!?! Hahaha! Then we went to another shop then we started to say Chrrrrriiisstttineee again cos there was another clothing that resemble me of Christine! Hahaha!!! Then even at the lingerie section, we started out Chrrrrriiiissstttinnnee thingy again! But strange thing is Val never even watched Phantom of the Opera, don't know why the hell she knows what is very "Christine" and what is not!?
-_-;; But so far, she is pretty accurate on what is "Christine" and what is not! Hahaha! ;D

Ok so going on towards grocery shopping after all the "Christine" business ended.

In the end, I bought...

1. The French Cereal with chocolate chips
2. Nata De CoCo
3. Farmland Nuggets at promo price. I was actually torn between ready made macdonald nuggets and those frozen ones. But in the end bought the frozen one.
4. "Chu Qian Yi Ding" Chicken Soup Flavour Instant Noodles.
5. Daisy Hi Low Milk.

I was quite happy about the whole thing as I can imagine eating all these yummy food prepared by moi when I reached home.
Then guess what?

In the end, my verdict is...

1. The French Cereal with chocolate chips
I got cheated!!! >:( Val was telling me the cereal is quite chocolatey! And somemore can tell me the texture of the chocolate chip! When I went home, pour out and try, I can hardly see one chocolate chip!!! How can that be! I was devastated!

Overall: 3/10

2. Nata De CoCo
YUMMMM! This Nata De CoCo is very nice! I was chewing it all the way!!! Chew and chew and chew! Very satisfying!

Overall: 7/10

3. Farmland Nuggets
I have bad experience with a prev brand of frozen nuggets, so I wasn't very sure this will turn out nice. But indeed! It turns out not bad! I was quite impress with Farmland! Good work! Haha! One minor thing to remember! Never cook Farmland Nuggets then soak it into instant noodles -_-

Overall: 6/10

4. "Chu Qian Yi Ding" Chicken Soup Flavour Instant Noodles.
This is so disappointing! I am very disappointed with "Chu Qian Yi Ding" brand, especially with the chicken flavour one! The original one was quite ok.
I cooked this, eat one quarter of it and pour the rest away. It is just plain bland! Wonder if the problem lies on my cooking or the noodles? But then again, last time I cooked the original flavour one, it tasted pretty good. Must be the noodles!

Overall: 1/10

5. Daisy Hi Low Milk.
What can I say? This will always be my favourite milk.

Overall: 8/10

And my conclusion?

I have been cheated and wasted 14 bucks on thing I highly anticipated! Hahaha! Next time I won't do that again! Think I just recovered from my sickness, that is why.

Today as always, I kept thinking of Phantom! And keep listening to the soundtrack. I can't wait for the limited edition one but I have no money to order just yet. Hoping my boss will transfer some funds into my bank soon ;(

Phantom...Phantom...Phantom...Phantom...Phantom...Phantom...Phantom...

Sigh.. that's all I can think about. Can't hardly concentrate on work
;( I did my work in a daze today and of course resulting in slow production :( Don't know whether is because of the sickness I just recovered from.
Somehow I felt different, like I am not myself anymore.
Hmm...

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2005-01-17T06:36:00.000+08:00

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Brava, Brava, Bravissima...

- Phantom praising (hiding in shadow) on Christine's stupendous performance when she sang Think of Me.

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Watched @-->-->-- Phantom of the Opera 3rd time! --<--<--@

2005-01-17T06:30:00.000+08:00

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Yup! I watched the Phantom of the Opera the 3rd time! And cried for the 3rd time too!
It was so long ago that I have something that I am so obsessed with. Think the last movie which I watched for 3 times was Anna and The King! Which was like during polytimes.

Then it dawned on me most things I obsessed with are romance tragedy shows. Like in the end, the couple cannot be together that kind. Hahaha...

Yesterday I went out with Jean and Pei to watch the show. They commented it had such a sad ending! And they both like Phantom too, highly charming and he had such character when he flunked his cloak around! *^^*
Too bad Monica couldn't make it :( She has to work.

After that, wanted to go home but received a sms from agwenalist, asking me want to meet up with her, Zen and Val. So I went home, took my medicine and took the Phantom of the Opera Companion book and went off to meet them. I just reached home for 15 mins and need to go off again -_- abit bo liao hahaha.
In the end, Val didn't want to meet as she need to do her floor plan. So I ended up waiting for agwenalist and zen. agwenalist came, and we both waited for Zen. Wow she took so long to come and meet us!
In the end we ate at Breeks, quite disappointing cos don't have my honey chicken leg and the food not very nice. So I didn't ate up all.
After the dinner, we went outside of Takashimaya, sat down and talked. And the 3 of us talked about what show we had seen, and realised we all cried on the same day watching different shows.

agwenalist's is I am Sam.
Zen's is something about teacher and students one but didn't catch the title.
Mine of course is The Phantom of The Opera.

Other than that we also talked about womanly things like the having regular period and whatnot hahaha! Of course not forgetting about Ram la. Hahahaha!
Think I was quite sleepy and drowsy, so I didn't contribute much.
On the other hand, I was also worrying about the OFE bochures which I did for my lady boss's father, turns out there are unsightly patches on the printouts when they sent it for offset printing. Sigh.
I will be dead meat on Monday! :( Bleh! So much things happened over the 4 days that I didn't went to work due to my sickness!!!

Ps: I'm almost recovered from my sickness :) And I am aiming for The Phantom of The Opera Limited Edition Cd which showcase all the nice songs from the movie, not just the highlights only which features in the normal movie soundtrack ; ; Hope by next week I have the $$$ to order from amazon.com! Oh! 21st is the coming friday which is a holiday too, yahoo! The national release of Phantom of the Opera DVD! Must order!!! o(>.<)o By then I am going to be reunite with my Phantom :P

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~Think of Me~

2005-01-14T10:38:00.000+08:00

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Think of me, think of me fondly, when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while - please promise me you'll try.

When you find that once again, you long to take your heart
back and be free, if you ever find a moment, spare a thought
for me . . .

- Christine singing "Think of Me"

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ps: I feel so terrible! When will my fever and cold subside? My nose are blocked!
Help!

Lead Me, Save Me from my Solitude...

2005-01-13T07:15:00.000+08:00

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'' Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime . . . Lead me, save me from my solitude . . . Say you want me with you here beside you . . . Anywhere you go, let me go too . . . ''

-Phantom to Christine when performing "Don Juan Triumphant"

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2005-01-13T07:00:00.000+08:00

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Yeay! I watched Phantom Of The Opera on the 4th or 3rd of January 2005!!! My first movie of the year!!! And the most remarkable one too!

Frankly speaking, when I first saw the trailer that the musical is made into a movie, I was quite excited and I called agwenalist immediately to tell her about it and asked her whether she would like to watch the movie with me. Of course she said yes immediately as she is a musical avid like me! :D

At first there wasn't any planning on watching the movie, so I wasn't like very enthusiastic about it either. I kept forgetting that I needed to watch this movie! Either I was too busy with work or too busy playing games.

So in the end, agwenalist went to watch this movie with her friends and I read from her blog that it was a terrfic show! And agwenalist likes Raoul in the movie alot, as her blog stated, Raoul was very handsome, she even posted his pictures. Personally I don't think he is.
At first, I thought Patrick Wilson acted as Phantom but it wasn't him. So I didn't pay attention until agwenalist told me Patrick acted as Raoul.

Then agwenalist suggested to watch the movie with me and zen. And I agreed but I wasn't like in a frenzy fever or what. I was just happy to see the movie because the galore of nice nice songs in it!!! I forgotten most of the songs, how the tunes go and whatnot. But one thing is I know all of them are nice songs!!!

I went to watch the musical before when I was in secondary school with the drama club, and the deepest impression of the whole musical is the song, "Think of Me" the debut song Christine performed in the show. Hahaha... Another thing is I remembered I needed to use my binoculars to watch the show as we were seated too far behind already :( I remember the other club members kept bugging me to lend them the binoculars.
The story I almost completely forgotten.

And on that fateful night, the movie re-ignite my spark of memory!!!
Everything was so nice, the movie, the people and the costume!!! The way they direct the movie... I love the opening scene so much!
From old, dusty, black and white to colorful and vivid opera house!!! Then the Phantom of The Opera overture was playing behind, it was like that kind of ominious theme. :D Felt so cool!
And the part where Christine finally saw Phantom behind the mirror, that part was good too! How he enchanted Christine, when they sang the Phantom of The Opera duet and also the part where Phantom sang Music of The Night to Christine, these are all the nice parts I like :D
Of course when Phantom finally appear for the first time, I was enchanted by him! O0O -> This is my reaction.. and I kept telling agwenalist excitedly (like I nv saw a man for 100 years like that) ," WA SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI!!!" (meaning WA very handsome!)

Love the story very much.
Only regret is that Phantom and Christine cannot be together.
:( But that's how the original story goes, and no matter how much wallowing, complaining and weeping can change it.

I have very special feelings towards Phantom. He was so poor thing :( In one of the songs he sang, " This face... which earns a mother's fear and loathing.." Poor Phantom was being deserted by his own mother when he was so young because of his deformed face :(
All he wanted so much was someone to love and care about him. But no one does that. Sigh... And he loved Christine so much, he taught Christine how to sing, fathered her in a way disguised as *Angel of Music* and make her felt safe when Christine was young.

He believed that Christine's singing can make his music take flight. But since Christine had made her choice to love Raoul, he knew he was going to lost her forever. And his music of the night will be over, so he resorted to unreasonable ways to get Christine. He already don't know what to do to make Christine stay beside him, as he don't know much about love and the world. I know it's wrong to kill innocent people but Phantom had already lost that part of conscience in his heart, ever since he was being mistreated as a child. :( I felt so much empathy for poor Phantom.

Luckily, at the end, dear Christine moved him with a long deep kiss and embrace (HURRAY!), Phantom was stunned as he has never known human love. Christine's gesture - the sacrifice and commitment were too much for Phantom to bear. In the end, Phantom let Christine goes..

As the saying goes, "If you love someone, let her go."

Before Christine went off with Raoul, Phantom finally said the big three words, " I love you... " which he never did once confessed in his whole singing performance. He looked so helpless and devastated. Christine then took off the engagement ring that Raoul gave her, and gave it to him as a remembrance of her.

As she went off with Raoul on the boat, she sang... like she was singing the last time for poor Phantom.
And then Phantom just disappeared into nowhere...

I was thinking that if Phantom had used another way to court Christine, I don't think things will end up this way. :(

How much do Phantom love Christine? Can love be measured in terms of weight, depth or dimension?

All I know is Phantom love Christine very very very much.

I know it's just a ficitional character and I shouldn't be so serious about it but then I just can't help feeling this way. Even it's fictional, it's great, noble and such tragedy.

Throughout the movie, I kept asking agwenalist whether is there any romantic scenes between Christine and Phantom! Hahaha! I always can't wait for scenes where Phantom and Christine are alone! :P

As for my friends, I would like to apologise to them if I have irritated the hell out of them by always blabbering about Phantom, Phantom and more Phantom. Haha! Sorry ah! A big sorry goes to Valerie as she spent most of the time with me, hearing me telling her all about Phantom!
But Valerie did commented that the opening scene is very good and well done! She haven't watch the movie but i described to her about it and she felt it was quite creative to have an opening scene like that. She is definitely not just entertaining me!!! Hahaha!!!
Oh ya! She did also said that Phantom looked "dark" (Tall, dark and handsome, that dark! Not the skin fair or dark) :D

Some people ( Like my boyfriend! >:( who watched with me again on the 9th of January 2005) just dislike the idea of watching a movie where the characters uses singing even when they are just having conversation! But hello! That's what a musical movie is all about ok! My boyfriend was like, "Huh!? They will keep sing non stop throughout the whole movie ah!?"
I was like -_- then I said, "Ya that's what a musical movie is about, and somemore the music is so nice what!"
GRRRRR Guys!!! What do they know about it!?!?!? >:(

Worse, he made a comment on the songs yesterday when he said, "The songs are like Disney songs." -_- Wa lau! No ok! The songs are all so theatrical!!! How can he compare to Disney songs huh!?!?!?!?! >:(

I have so much sadness for Phantom that I don't think by merely typing out words on this blog can describe it.

Frankly speaking I felt more sadness for Phantom than the Tsunami Incident.
For this, I felt guilty. But I wanted to speak the truth and that's the truth!

I go to the temple to pray every monday since my work place is very near the temple. On "chu yi" (the 1st day of the month in chinese calender i think) which happened to fall on Monday, I went to the temple and prayed. WOW!!! There were so many people!!! I wanted to light the joss sticks but was always kanna squeezed out!!! After lighting my joss stick, I went to say my prayers then suddenly someone joss stick's ashes floated onto my face, wow the stinging pain! Ouch!

I bought The Phantom of the Opera Companion Book from Times bookstore. It features the early and different adaptions on the movie Phantom of the Opera, And then it covers on the cast and music of this adaption of the movie. Last but not least is the screen play script. Although it's expensive, I think it's rather worth buying. There aren't many pictures on Phantom and the only nice picture of him is the back cover of the book! Damn it! -_-

Yesterday I was telling Valerie that I felt like learning how to play the piano. And whether she knows any friends that know how to play the piano so I can get free lessons. :P Hahahhaa! My lady boss knows how to play the organ! :D Even more suitable for playing the Phantom of the Opera music! But I don't think she will teach me :(

Amazon.com also sell the music score of The Phantom of the Opera! Most of the songs are in it! I want to learn how to play "Think of Me" !!! Hahaha!
Then I continue to tell Valerie that I imagine this scenario that me and my friends are dining in The Centre Stage of Art Dining (not sure whether is this name), this restaurant is quite modern and high class, and in the middle, they have a live band, complete with a piano.
So I will be saying, "Sorry, can I borrow the the piano?"
And then... I will be playing "Think of Me" !!!! Hahahaha!!!

I can't get enough of Phantom of the Opera! Hahaha! Valerie was saying that it has been a week and I still haven't got over it! O_O
Hahahaha! :P
And I asked Valerie a difficult question yesterday. I asked her what will she do if her child is born with a deformed face (touchwood!) ? She said if she discover early, she will abort the child. Then i asked her, if already gave birth to it and can't abort it?
She replied me that she will feel very frustrated, the child will also feel frustrated. She said especially if the child loves her very much.
Hahaha :P

This coming saturday I am going to watch it again with another batch of friends! :D
The first time I watched with agwenalist and zen, I don't feel so much emotion for this whole movie or for Phantom. I was bearing neutral feelings for it. But at the ending part, it really captured me. And then now here I am, mind full of Phantom, speech full of Phantom...

For me, I have Pass the Point of No Return now...

ps: Oh yeay, Phantom always has this romantic gesture... he always gave a rose with a black ribbon tied to the stem to Christine..... ^^

--<--<--@

Christmas has passed! And here comes the New Year!

2005-01-02T16:00:00.000+08:00

Bye bye Christmas and welcome New Year 2005!

Hmm a sudden recap of how i spend my holidays 2003-> I remember spending it chatting with agwenalist on MSN, slacking away in my room, watching the reruns of The Fly 2! And i remember I am still working in Silicon Illusions!

In 2004, I spent my Christmas well chatting with agwenalist, zen and valerie. Too bad that day there was this small company gathering and they did bought food so i wasn't really hungry and didn't try Mr Bean food >_< I was practically dozing off when we were chatting cos i think my energy level is too low :( Please don't be mistaken I wasn't happy to have that gathering ah! :D

As for new year 2005, I was at home, playing MMORPG! LOL, rotting again! While agwenalist and zen is celebrating the happy season in different places, shaking their boms boms and having their waist held! :P LOLOLOLO Hope my neck won't get chopped by someone!

On the first day of new year, i went for palm reading with Val. It was really great, knowing about what is in store for your future. I know it isn't good to know your future as you will have a mindset that this and that will happen, thus going towards that direction. But still, it's great to know such wonderful and amazing insights :)

I realise my life is always so routine. Eat, sleep, bath, go to work, come back to work, play game then after the day ends, everything will start again! I feel like I am programmed to do all that! It must be some matrix thingy behind all these! >:( There must be something in life to be excited about! But in my life, there is no motivation, bah! Quite meaningless!

Ok that's about it folks! :P See I told you I have nothing much to blog about!

Hereby wishing everyone a Happy 2005! May all the best things come your way! :D And also may peace goes to those who passed on and to their loved ones during the tsunami incident.

Christmas is coming!

2004-12-13T18:21:00.000+08:00

Hmm think I didn't really blog for a long long time! Compared to agwenalist :P hahaha...
Anyway I have been working in the print shop for a full 2 weeks already, 2 weeks is nothing, I know. But I already quite proud of myself :P

Working there is quite, well, relaxed for now. I think starting from January, it will be like hell. There are quite a few funny incidents but then I am quite lazy to list it out here so...
It's been fun working with Valerie, agwenalist's friend. She is really cute and funny. Hahaha.
Hmm another thing is don't know how long the print shop will need my part time help. If after December is over, then they won't be needing my help. Oh well, I don't know.

On a happier thought, Christmas is coming! And it's my favourite festive season! Hehehe, I haven't done my christmas shopping, think I will do it last min :P

Hmm actually I got nothing to say in this blog. Only that I need to clean up my room. So much dust everywhere.. -_-

A Blog of Remorse, Rregretful, Worries & Many Thank Yous!

2004-12-02T18:30:00.000+08:00

Firstly at the start of this blog, I would like a friend who introduced me to my current job that I am working at. And also my friend's friend, Thank you! Valerie. I would like to say to my friend, "Thanks so much for helping me ALWAYS!" And now I am glad to say I am safe from poverty. :(
This friend is always helping me out, always looking out for me and helped me looked for lobangs. And if there are any lobangs, she will excitedly call me and tell me. She is always so kind and recently she done a really sweet thing for my other friend which I could not disclosed here.. So the "other friend" you will be happy when you know what my friend did for you ok ;)

So really many thank yous to you, my dearest friend.

If you are interested to know who is this friend, please just click on her blog link. Thank you very much.

I chatted with agwenalist over MSN, chatting on Singapore Idol which I don't really care much about. And we never failed to speak of our jobs and careers. In conclusion, we realised that if we keep job hopping and DON"T KNOW what are we going to do, we will end up as a lowly paid junior designer FOREVER. -__-
I really don't want that to happen! Yet I don't know what to do about it. This problem of mine. I really have to pick what I want to be... I know what I want. But the job opening doesn't seem to come easy. So what should I do? If I don't start getting experience on 3D, I will be kicked out of the 3D league! I am so damn sian about all this man.

I worked in my current company doing print and some design jobs... again I am gaining GRAPHICS designing exp.

I have a feeling that one month later, it's good bye again. -__-

@!#$%

But I don't want to let my friend down. I know I should live up to my own expectations. But this friend has always helped me look out for jobs so much, and jobs nowadays are so hard to come by. Sigh... How can I just say good bye to the job and let her efforts go wasted!?

Burning Down The House~

2004-11-27T17:29:00.000+08:00

Artist: Talking Heads ( NOT Tom Jones & the Cardigans version hor)
Title: Burning Down The House

Watch out
you might get what you're after
Cool babies
strange but not a stranger
I'm an ordinary guy
Burning down the house

Hold tight
wait till the party's over
Hold tight
We're in for nasty weather
There has got to be a way
Burning down the house

Here's your ticket pack your bag: time for jumpin' overboard
The transportation is here
Close enough but not too far, Maybe you know where you are
Fightin' fire with fire

All wet
hey you might need a raincoat
Shakedown
dreams walking in broad daylight
Three hun-dred six-ty five de-grees
Burning down the house

It was once upon a place sometimes
I listen to myself
Gonna come in first place
People on their way to work baby what did you except
Gonna burst into flame

My house
S'out of the ordinary
That's might
Don't want to hurt nobody
Some things sure can sweep me off my feet
Burning down the house

No visible means of support and you have not seen nuthin' yet
Everything's stuck together
I don't know what you expect starring into the TV set
Fighting fire with fire

(I am going to dedicate this song to... HELEN! Neleh!!!! We used to sing this Burning Down The House duet together while we were doing our year one stupid animal project, remember!? ;) Then you are Tom Jones and I am the Cardigans i think hee hee so fun! This song officially belongs to helen and me )

Artist: Whitney Houston
Title: I Wanna Dance With Somebody

Huh yeah Woo! Hey yeah, huh,
hoo yeah, uh-huh yeah

Clock strikes upon the hour
And the sun begins to fade
Still enough time to figure out
How to chase my blues away
I've done alright up to now
It's the light of day that shows me how
And when the night falls, loneliness calls

Chorus:
Oh wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me
Oh wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

I've been in love and lost my senses
Spinning through the town
Sooner or later the fever ends
And I wind up feeling down
I need a man who'll take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart calls

Repeat Chorus
Somebody oo Somebody oo
Somebody who loves me yeah
Somebody oo Somebody oo
To hold me in his arms oh
I need a man who'll take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart calls

Repeat Chorus
Hoo hoo dance, cmon baby hehehehe
Woo yeah hehehe

Dontcha wanna dance with me baby
Dontcha wanna dance with me boy
Hey Dontcha wanna dance with me baby
With somebody who loves me

Dontcha wanna dance say you wanna dance
Dontcha wanna dance
Dontcha wanna dance say you wanna dance
Dontcha wanna dance
Dontcha wanna dance say you wanna dance uh-huh
With somebody who loves me (hoo-oo)
Dance (hoo-oo hoo)
Hoo-oo hey baby

(Ya ya ya blog readers especially helen ah! Must be sniggering behind my backs thinking why I always listen to weird songs like this right!? Hmph! Nevermind! I like this song!!!!)

Ok I am going to sing all these song during the KTV night HAHAHAHAHA!

Vienna

2004-11-27T16:35:00.000+08:00

Whoo hoo! These few days are really fun! Going out with gwen, zen and cheryl! Then gossip gossip all we want. Oh yeay not forgetting labelling who are the "me-lyte me-lyte" people in school. I realise I can't live without gossip... I am such a biyatch! XD Those gossips doesn't mean anything although it does sounds mean and evil. What to do, I am of such character! Cannot be help. That's too bad.

Lately I watch 13 Going to 30! OMG it's such a nice show!!!! And the songs used in the movie is wonderful!!! Most of the songs are from 80's. I don't know why but lately I have been purchasing all those old songs albums... -_- Dunno what the hell is wrong with me... I recenty also bought the "Favourites" cd where the songs complie of nice songs from 80s-90s. It's a very good album! Hahaha.. Later I will paste all the song lyrics from the 13 Going to 30 soundtrack on my blog entries! And blog readers, if you are interested you can go download the songs! ^^
Anyway the show is about this 13 year old girl wanting to be a 30, flirty and thriving lady. And she got her wish granted on her birthday party! She got everything she wanted except her best friend is missing from the picture. And the story goes on...

Oh thanks to agwenalist and valerie, I went to a job interview today at 5 pm. It is a print shop. And the boss somehow reminds me of my ex ex ex ex company's colleague call Amos. Well it's part time. Heh... I am tied at my wits end so I have got to take up this part time I guess. Need da money :( I still want to celebrate Christmas and new year!!! And go to Akashi to eat, erm actually I don't feel the craving now...
I have the weekend to think whether to take up the part time. On the other hand, the boss can think whether is there anything for me to do.

ANYWAYS, today there is a bitchy thing that happened to me! 2 Malay girls actually play a prank call on me. I got tricked at first and was like "What the fuck" later!
The scenario goes like this:

Malay girl 1(in a bimbotic voice acting american wannabe but obviously failed): Erm Hello Good morning! Erm erm Oh Good Afternoon! I am "something" De Cruz from Mediacorp, I am one of the artiste calling to do a telephone survey on Singapore Idol.

[erm... I can't hear what the fuck name she said.. but she used DE CRUZ... can you believe the nerve she has!? Anyway actually when she was saying good morning then changed to oh oh good afternoon, I was thinking how come so UNPROFFESSIONAL one har!? From Mediacorp still can say until so unprofessional? And somemore tell an artiste to make a telephone survey!?]

Me: (a moment of slience............................ later, I was like chatting with agwenalist so my reaction is a little slower) ya?

Malay girl 1(still in that irritating bimbotic high pitched voice): Erm ya, I would like to ask you between Sylvester and Taufik, which one who do you think will win Singapore Idol?

[As I don't even watched Singapore Idol, I don't know what the fuck is happening so I was like sigh.. anyhow pick and get them off the hook]

Me: I think Sylvester.

Malay girl 1: Oh how come you choose Sylvester? Why?

Me: ( A moment of erssss and silence...... I was thinking of a clean cut reason) Hmmm.... he can sing well.

Malay girl 1: Oh what about Taufik? Oh So you will vote for Sylvester?

Me: Ya I guess so.

Malay girl 1: Oh oh can you please hold on? My colleague need to speak with you. Please hold on one minute!

Me: ....................

Malay girl 2: Don't make me puke on your face.

Malay girl 1: Oh my god! Oh my god(in a bimbotic irritating high pitched voice) I'm sooooooo sorry!

Me: Clunk.. hung up the phone...

-_- My conclusion: They are a bunch of dirty, lonely housewife whores, sluts with nothing to do.

I should not have hung up the phone so early! DOH! I should have scold them BITCHES!!! GRRRRRRR!!!! >:(
Well is ok ^^ I SO HOPE they will call tomorrow so I can give them a piece of my mind! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA XD

Ok ok I am going to copy and paste all the lyrics of the songs I have been listening the past few hours!!! ^^ Ok I am going to hope to sing all these songs on KTV DAY! YAHOO! :P

Artist: Pat Benatar
Title: Love is a Battlefield

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demandsLove is a battlefield
We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

You're beggin' me to go, you're makin' me stay
Why do you hurt me so bad?
It would help me to know
Do i stand in your way, or am i the best thing you've had?
Believe me, believe me, i can't tell you why
But i'm trapped by your love, and i'm chained to your side

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

We're losing control
Will you turn me away or touch me deep inside?
And before this gets old, will it still feel the same?
There's no way this will die
But if we get much closer, i could lose control
And if your heart surrenders, you'll need me to hold

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

(I simply love this part... "We are young, heartache to heartache we stand... Love is a Battlefield" it sounds so POWER! WHOO HOO! People who got hurt in past relationship should listen to this song man. It's girl power ok!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!)

Artist: Joel Billy
Title: Vienna

Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
You are still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you an just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forfeit what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong

But you know you can't always see when you're right
You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.

(this song is so me....)

Ok I think I will continue to paste the rest of the other songs lyrics on a new blog entry hahaha!

Good-bye~ Final Fantasy!

2004-11-23T13:21:00.000+08:00

I have finally quitted Final Fantasy 11 the massive online rpg game yesterday! I "killed" Yva with my own fingers on 21st of Nov 2004, at 11:50pm. It's so sad.. :..(

Have been playing this game for the nearly 1 year! Given me lots of memories. And also I known a couple of friends online. And because most of us are quitting this game.. that includes Junhua, Pei pei, Monica and me. The linkshell or guild we have formed in the game is going down! This really proves that we are the crucial people of the linkshell ;)

So we decided to meet up with the online people for a real life gathering! ^^ Really wondering how do they look like, some of them are bringing their wife and children to to gathering. I guess it is going to be interesting. Hahaha and pei pei somemore suggest monica to grab one of the eligible bachelor during the gathering ^^

Well from what I heard from that eligible bachelor's close friend, he told me that Arakon(ya he is the eligible bachelor) and him were studying in the same poly, and he got into the top 5% so he was of course going into NUS, then after he graduated, his results were so good that some company actually employed him without hesitant.
Arakon's friend also told me the company arakon worked in is very very prestigious and he will have lots of prospects working in it.
Best thing is he is still single! HAHAHAHA!!! So Monica will have chance already!!! Or Jean also la :P

Arakon's 2 other best friends, Craban and Baa are both married with kids. Yes these 3 names are just game names! So on the day of gathering, we will all finally get to know each other real name!

Quite looking forward to the gathering! ^^

Anyway I need to say a final good bye! ; ;

Good-bye~ Final Fantasy! I will always miss you.

(ps: I am just a loser! quit job quit game too....)

I'm doomed...

2004-11-05T20:24:00.000+08:00

I'm doomed... really really doomed... I don't know what the heck is wrong with my computer!?!?!??!?!?!?!?! HELP!!!

I don't know since when I have problem logging onto MSN... can't access to the page where my 3D tutorial page is!!! ;_;
My situation is like ants on a hot pan! What am I going to do!?!?!?! Oh no, and if I can't access to my 3D tutorials then how am I suppose to do my portfolio!? >_<>BUY the software! So i just quarantine them. I don't see how this quarantine can help... I want to clear them!!! >_<

Anyway so it's not the computer virus, or spyware that is making trouble.. then what it is!??!!? Could it be my internet? But that couldn't be too! If it's the internet connection, how come I can log onto blog to write this? What should I do!?!?!?!
I wonder should I send my computer to repair.. or reformat it or whatever.. ;_; I don't think it would be very expensive... since I am already very poor...
But on the other hand what if it's my internet problem!? ARGH!!!! Damn it...

So my dear friends don't blame me for not online talking to you! It's not my fault! It's my internet or my computer fault!!! >_<

\('-') The Wedding Dinner ('-')/

2004-10-29T10:54:00.000+08:00

Yeah I know I should have like wrote about the wedding dinner that was held on last sunday like on Monday or something but I drag until NOW then write..

Anyways before the wedding dinner, in the early morning, I have to get up and went along with my family to my uncle and Arina's new house to wait for my uncle to fetch the bride.
After he fetched the bride to the new house at Yishun, there is the ceremony where the groom and bride need to serve tea to the mother, father etc... Actually after that, there was a buffet but I skipped it because I didn't sleep the night before! Hahaha... So I went straight home when the buffet commenced.

My uncle's wedding dinner was held at Meritus Mandarin Hotel, in the Mandarin Ballroom ^^ it was quite glam and there were many guests.
Anyway I arrived at the scene at about 7:45pm with Jay. I was like dizzy and feeling nauseous, i think it was because I didn't have enough sleep and didn't eat breakfast and lunch. My uncle lectured me in a funny manner that how come I so late then come and give me that menacing-funny look. Haha.
Ok so we went to our table. The table number is 21. We were seated like just beside my uncle's table ^^ My uncle's close friends are all seated like behind him. My grany was sitting at the main table where my uncle sat, she really looked so nice with the creamy white cheong sam! (¯.¯)b
My brother's gf, Iris was already there, not knowing what to do, I introduced Jay to her. I didn't really chatted with her though, just sometimes give her a little smile. My little cousin was seated on the same table as me, I was quite happy with her sitting beside me. But I felt quite bad because Iris was like all alone. We waited for quite a long time, there was a band of wedding singers. They sing all the love songs including the song called , "Within you Remain" . The wo ai ni song that agwenalist loves so much! Lol! They are from Philippines and they really can sing well. All the love songs they sing made the atmosphere really well. I felt very happy.

Ok so I think the wedding dinner started on like 8pm where everyone is seated. This was when the MCs (one is Arina's best friend, one is my uncle best friend, his name is Da Wei) went up to the stage and made their open speech about my uncle and his wife Arina. Before they invited my uncle and Arina to come into the banquet, they displayed the clip that I did for my uncle and arina!
Omg.. I was so pai seh.. ; ; When I saw the clip, I wanted to dig a hole and hide! Something funny was that the guests thought that when the first part of the song was ending, it was the end of the clip so they started to clap but there was actually a second song! Hahaha.. I was thinking how come they all clapped their hands so quickly? Must be too hungry (¯¬¯) hahaha...

After the clip, the 2 MCs invited my uncle and his wife to enter, and they also requested the ppl who sat near the aisle that they were going to walk down, to actually threw the flowers petals to like bless them or something like that. Of course those who threw the petals are very close friends of Arina and my uncle! Wow it was like fun! How I wish I was there to throw the petals too but too bad I was sitting inside... Everyone was standing up of course to welcome them. Anyway my uncle and Arina looked sooooo happy when they walked in. And the flower petals... Wooo...

So they walked up to the stage and cut the wedding cake, then they were invited to be seated and the dinner commenced... I was already like -> (¯¬¯)
Really hungry! The food is really (¯.¯)b Enjoy it alot hahaha The wedding singers were like dedicating one song they perform to my uncle and his wife. ^^ so sweet.

Ok so in the middle of the dinner the MCs got up again and they were like talking and talking... while my uncle and Arina went to change their gown and suit. And this time they were invited again into the banquet and up the stage to pour the champagne. This time round they made a thank you speech to everyone. My uncle said "Ma Wo Ai Ni!" Hahaha that was so sweet. :) It came to a surprise that my uncle actually thank me at the end of the speech and announced to everyone that I made the clip, I was abit frozen.. So when he thanked me, I looked at him and Arina and gave my best smile. I thought I don't really get that big of a credit for him to thank me in the public ^^

And then the relatives were asked to go up to "yam seng" with the bride and groom. Hehe almost all my close relatives went up but I didn't join in as I don't drink.
So then again we "yam seng" like 3 times before we were invited to sit and continue our dinner.
By then my bladder can't hold on anymore >.< color="#ffccff">You Needed Me" to let the bride and the father have the first dance. My uncle later then cut in. The singers also invited others to join in to the dance floor. But mostly is old people who danced Hahaha XD The wedding singers performed this song and it really suited the whole dance wonderfully.
Well at that moment, I thought my granny must be feeling lonely since my grandpa had passed away.
I hope my grandpa will be happy that his son finally got married! :)

Personally I don't like the song "You Needed Me" but after that night, I felt that this song is really special and nice ^^

Anyway, after then, the wedding singers perform so many song some fast some slow, and all the old people were like dancing madly. HAHAHA.. it was quite funny...

I love weddings! So happy to see the happy faces of wedding couples walking down. I will feel the happiness surging up in my heart ^^ Oh well I only love weddings if the bride and groom are people whom I am close to. Like zen, agwenalist, astaldoreiel hee hee... so who is next? ;)

Lastly I would like to dedicate this song "You Needed Me" to my uncle and arina!
May their love be everlasting! :D

You Needed Me

I cried a tear
You whipped it dry
I was confused
You cleared my mind
I sold my soul
You bought it back for me
And helped me up
And gave me dignity
Somehow you needed me]

(Chorus):
You gave me strength
To stand alone again
To face the world
Out on my own again
You put me high
Upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me
You needed me
And I can't believe it's you
I can't believe it's true
I needed you
And you were there
And I'll never live what should I feel
I need a fool
And I finally found someone who really care
You needed meYou held my hand
When it was cold
When I was lost
You took me home
You gave me love
When I was empty, and
And turned my light
Back into truth again
You even called me friend

(Repeat Chorus)
You needed me
You needed me
You needed me
You needed me
You needed me

Xiao Jie, Yao bu yao mai Tissue?

2004-10-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 4am in the morning now and today, typing this piece of blog. I can't bring myself to sleep anymore. Think I slept too much now too much energy so cannot get into dreamland.

Yeay finally went out and met up with agwenalist and zen! We went to Akashi to have our dinner! As usual Akashi never fail to deliver wonderful food to my table! Haha! Anyways if you are wondering what is so good about this japanese restaurant. Go to City Link, near Delifrance, it's situated near the escalator. Try it! Especially the Shake(Salmon) Terayaki! Then we chatter about zen's favourite pup -> QQ and how she wanted to kill her etc. Of course that was meant to be a joke. Then we talked about The Simple Life and Young, Posh and Loaded, these 2 reality show following on the young riches... I kept complaining about how filthy rich are those young kids to agwenalist and zen over dinner at Akashi.
Ok the "tissue-uncle" joke haven't begun yet up until now.

So after we had our delicious and very full dinner, we strolled to Esplanade, to the open theatre to watch the free rock gigs call "Made In Singapore". That time it was the time slot for "Electrico", so we sat around and listened. Among the band members, I only find that the keyboardist is pretty rad. Others didn't particularly stood out.
agwenalist told me that one of the band members worked in her office and he is very fierce. I told her to be fierce back to him!

Ok so... blah blah they sang some songs, audience cheered. And then... the vocalist was talking about this song about this guy who want to sing to people so they will pay him in some hawker centre... and the people are very rude to him...

Then at this point I suddenly remembered... the "Tissue-Uncle" that agwenalist mentioned to us in her blog. For more information and laughters please refer to her blog entries entitled, "The Missing Agar Agar" And in her case, she was the victim. That "Tissue-Uncle" actually is rude to her. And because of the comics she drew on her blog, emphasising on "From this expression" to "This expression" that I started monkeying around. I kept imitating the uncle expressions to her, then asked her and sometimes Zen, but mostly is her, "Xiao Jie, Yao bu yao mai Tissue?" Even Zen joined in the fun!
But my point is... agwenalist is the real funny one. She can imitate the uncle expression so well!

After hearing Electrico, we went to this chocolate bar call Max Brenner -> "chocolate from the bald man" (was wondering why did he put that phrase, chocolate makes us bald? Or does great chocolate comes only from bald ppl?)
We had this chocolate fondue, It was quite nice, agwenalist was in the seventh heaven, kept saying "Hmmm! So nice!" Hahaha I still can remember her longing expression when she kept looking at the chocolates display...
Oh then it was here that agwenalist imitated the uncle fierce expression! It was really funny man!!!

Another thing I noticed is whenever you order something, people will keep looking at what you order. Take for example, agwenalist she order the "very cold chocolate shot" and when it arrived, the girls on the next table kept looking. The chocolate really look like tequila shots, the glass is real small. Wonder why, is it because over dosage of high content chocolate will result in death? Like tequila shot? agwenalist let us try but I don't find it nice, there is like bits of chunks of "stuff" inside.
Also tried zen's strawberry float. It was quite ok.

Ok after the whole chocolate thingy, it was like around 10 plus, so we went back to the open theatre. By then the sky kind of wanted to rain so the next band was more or less cancelled. The next one is call "Tania" very feminine name but with all big sized band members...
-.- and we all thought "Tania" is like a female solo..

We walked back to Esplanade and found somewhere to sit. At the beginning there wasn't anything much to chat about so I was playing the "Tissue-Uncle" episode again... I don't know why in the end we talked about marriage, having to deliver babies, wanted our kids to learn what and what, our jobs...
We were quite scare of giving birth as it will be such a painful experience. I wonder why my mom wanted to go through the trouble of giving birth to me. I mean now I know the troube she has gone through for me. ^^;;

In terms of our career...

agwenalist wanted to be a Graphic Designer in the very near future. She wanted to work for some magazine.
zen wanted to be a Beauty Consultant.
As for me... I am currently jobless.. haha no plans.. guess I either want to be a slacker if not a 3D artist.

When it come to our kids...

agwenalist wanted her kids to learn music, it is a definitely must for her. Anything artisitic.
zen wanted her kids to learn Ballet, learning piano is a must for male or females, Kendo...
me... I wanted my kids to definitely learn drawing! And they all must be good looking! When they grow up, they must have a nice figure.. Lol, and they must be good in academic or athletic. They must have lots of suitors etc...
Well at this point, agwenalist was protesting against zen wanting the kids to learn ballet as it will result them walking like ducks... She was also pointing out that how can I control whether my kids will look good or not, and also how many suitors they will have. But she totally agreed on the part where they cannot be fat and must have good figure.
I was thinking whether the kids will all be like pressurised because they have too much things to learn, I mean they are part of our flesh and blood, it will only bring heart ache to us to see them suffer.
And I was telling them as if we are really going to have kids now... the future of having kids is still so far away. So we all laugh away...

Then i started to ask them so like what is the acceptable age for them to say yes to marriage proposals?

agwenalist said 28.
zen don't like to set boundaries as to when she want to get marry, if the moment is right she will just say yes!
I said I don't want to get married!

At this point again agwenalist and zen kept saying me and jay will get married blah blah... -.-
agwenalist say the right age is 28 because after 28 it will be difficult to find a suitable boyfriend as we will be near to 30. Then she ponder to the question what if we cannot married off the shelf. And she started to say she dislike those relatives always asking qn like "Do u have a boyfriend?" blah blah...

So we decide to role play
agwenalist is the bitchy auntie and I am sort of like her...

Great 8th Aunt: Aye You are XXX child right?
Me trying to be agwenalist: No I am AAA child.
Great 8th Aunt: Ohhhhh ya.. Got boyfriend or not?
Me trying to be agwenalist: No...don't have
Great 8th Aunt: DON'T HAVE? how come?
Me trying to be agwenalist: Standard too LOW, CANNOT match me
Great 8th Aunt: Office leh?
Me trying to be agwenalist: All old old one...
Great 8th Aunt: Your sis and brother all got gf bf already leh...
Me trying to be agwenalist: Ya but they will break soon don't worry hor..

The above conversation, I adapt some parts from agwenalist blog cos I was too lazy! Hahaha!
XD

No offence to agwenalist's sibs! I was trying to monkey ard as usual! Lol. Please don't take it to heart! I was thinking all these "San gu liu po" always trying to dig out news, I mean like why do they asked so much? Do they care? No I don't think so.. I just think they wanted to hear something bad happen then they will be happy cos they have something to gossip among their community of gossip mongers! So since they wanted to hear it so badly might as well say something shocking and bad to them hahaha!
Sorry sorry! m(_ _)m

In the end we talked and talked until past 12 midnight. We were like so shocked! There wasn't any train for us to take back home so we went to take money from ATM machine then went home. Wanted to chat somemore but jay was locked out of the flat, and nobody was in at the moment so I have to go back first.

Talking about ATM machine.. Esplanade is kind of stupid not having POSB/DBS ATM machine. I have to go to some mini mart to take out the money through this dunno what service which will charge me like 80 cents. -.-
Oh another thing... I saw Electrico on the chart of like some dedication list on Nickelodeon channel. Wow they are that hot? I have no idea man. Or did i see wrongly? They have a song call "Runaway" ya?

Anyways I really enjoyed going out with agwenalist and zen that night! It was pure fun! XD
Really have lots of laughs! Too bad I forgotten to bring Plain Sunset cd...
And if only I am much much richer...

This blog entry, I shall dedicate to pure fun girls night out! And of course! To the "Tissue-Uncle", thanks for making our outing so much more fun!

~Wedding Bells Are Ringing~

2004-10-20T06:46:00.000+08:00

As I am typing this blog, I am exporting the final edited version(well hopefully) movie of my uncle and his wife-to-be wedding photos!
Phew... Finally I have finished it but there were minor changes and I have edited it.

Their wedding dinner is this Sunday! Yeay! All I can think of is the yummy food! Hahaha! The photo filmstrip that I have done for them will be shown to the guest before the banquet starts I think.

Helenwintermelon once told me over MSN that she thinks that this type of photo filmstrip is so corny, it's like showing the world how in love the wedded couple are. Hahaha.
Personally I'm quite neutral about it! Oh ya I did this thing for them for free! Hehe on the account that my uncle is such a good man!

During the process of doing this, I kept listening to Donna Lewis's and Richard Marx's "At the Beginning". Yes that love ending theme from the animated film "Anastasia". Recently I have been watching it too. I love it so much! Especially Anya. She has the most character in the film anyways! How I wish I have such wonderful romance too! Hahaha!
Ok so I was inspired by "Anastasia", my uncle's wife picked the song "You Needed Me" for the photos flimstrip but it wasn't long enough.
So my uncle picked one of Stefani Sun's song but I told him it's wierd that you play english song in the beginning then at the back part a chinese song pops in, so he asked me to pick any appropriate song and put it in.
So of course I choose "At the Beginning", it's the perfect song for wedded couple! Ahem... helenwintermelon told me before that wedding is just the beginning not the end. So the lyrics has it all.

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope You were there to remind me
This is the start

This is part of the lyrics, it is very straight forward but significant enough!
Hee hee I am just very happy for my uncle and his wife!

Lately I can't get to sleep. Slept at 3am but then my mind just won't shut down. ; ; It keep generating and thinking about stuff. Now I know where all my paranoia come from. So I keep turning and tossing, and suddenly it's 6am! I was like what!? I spend 3 hours in the bed turning and tossing around!?
I hope to sleep earlier ; ; say like 11pm. Get into a more healthy habit. Sleeping late at night is very bad habit..

Pei just told me she is going to resign her admin job today. Hehe Join the jobless clan! Hope she will start on her portfolio soon!
Speaking of portfolio... astaldoreiel just send me this photo ---->

Ok astaldoreiel is a big fan of LOTR, so she has been writing great stories relating to elves. Which also include me ^^ In the story, she and me are twin sisters, we are high elves related to Arwen's father. He is our uncle. So the romance part of the story is astaldoreiel is in love with a mortal, and she is the more impulsive one, right astaldoreiel? I hope I get it right hee hee ^^;; If I am wrong don't come and kill me!
Ok so now for my part, I am in love with a mortal general but astaldoreiel wanted to add in a third party to complicate things which is of course MORE fun! Hahaha!
So... That photo above is what astaldoreiel has pictured of the third party! His name is Glorfindel, he is an elven lord and he will be the third party in my love relationship in the story that is! Hahaha!
When I received the email she sent to me, I was ecstatic. Really, I mean look at the photo! Isn't he divine looking!? He is most suitable to be an elven lord! Anyway he is an actor, his name is River Phoenix, if I am not wrong, he passed away already since he was quite young. By accident.

So in my reply to astaldoreiel, I told her that I have the urge to transform that photo above into Glorfindel for real! I will draw him with that pose, that look, but I will change his hair style, well maybe not much but longer hair for an elven lord ;) And of course I need to add some elven lord clothes too!
I think it's going to be a long and hard project, I haven't touch my friggin pencil for say 2 years? ~_~
But it's going to be an exciting one! If possible I am going to borrow jay's wacom and color him hehehehe ^^

Ok here are some awe-inspiring artworks that I have visited recently. Really inspired and motivate me!

Shawn Ye - Singaporean guy ok!!! Damn talented. I guess he is the only Singaporean in this forum...
http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=26922

One of my favourite threads! In spirit of LOTR!
http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=13896

Woot! This is a girl artist!!! Made all girls proud man!!!
http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=25772&page=1&pp=60

Oh yeay once I have done up my Joan of Arc tutorial I will post the pictures here! Until then!

Last but not least, I woould like to wish my Uncle and his wife a happy and blissful marriage life! :)

Ninja Rules!

2004-10-19T10:10:00.000+08:00

If you let me choose between being a Samurai and Ninja, I will definitely choose Ninja! Cos they just rock man!!!
Don't get me wrong, Samurai is cool too. They are just too "heavy" with their armor etc, overly loyal and too inflexible. Unlike Ninja, they are flexible, agile, silent, swift... creatures of the night. Well they operate better in the nights anyways. But of cos, good ninjas operate well in whatever conditions they are in!

Talking about Ninja reminds me of Naruto! Got to know this anime from Pei Pei while working in Silicon Illusions. Grab the first issue and read it, it was funny and thought nothing much about it. Until recently, I got to watch the anime on cable channel 56. Suddenly I am in love with Ninja all over again. Even in FF, I play the job of a Ninja.

Being a Ninja takes as much discipline as being a Samurai, maybe more. And with their many levels of ninjistu, it just makes it more difficult to be a successful Ninja.

In Naruto, there is different level of Ninjas.

There is

"Huo Ying", "Shui Ying" etc
(translate: Fire Shadow, Water Shadow) The five elements Water, Fire, Earth, Air, another one I forgot what element it is.. maybe is Dark element.
It's is the highest rank of Ninja.

"Shang Ren"
Second highest rank of Ninja.

"Zhong Ren"
Third rank of Ninja.

"Xia Ren"
Lowest rank of a Ninja.

Story about Naruto:

Naruto is an orphan and since he embodies the spirit of a nine-tail demon fox that destroyed many Leaf Village lives 12 years ago, the village people treats him as the nine-tail demon fox and all act very cold toward him. Growing up without parents and any friends, Naruto always tries to be funny and mess up on purpose in order to get attention. Although Naruto's grades at the the Ninja Academy is extremely bad, he trains very hard in order to improve his skills. Naruto later paired up with Sakura and Sasuke to train with Kakashi. Naruto has a crush on Sakura, but unfortunately, Sakura's heart has already been taken by Sasuke.

It's really an interesting anime and very popular in Japan. ^^

Oh there is one more thing about it... that is the ending song of the first season of Naruto. It's very nice!
It's sung and written by Akeboshi. He has a very unique way to sing the song. Love it. And he sung it in english! Ahem! Very few japanese sung songs in english.

This is Naruto at the ending theme song. Like the artwork of him here, portray his sad side.

"Wind"

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

You say, "Dreams are dreams."
I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

I like the lyrics...
Just realise something. When I don't work, I suddenly discover so many nice anime hur hur hur!!!

Hotaru no Haka "Tombstone For Fireflies"

2004-10-04T12:20:00.000+08:00

Today I just watched an anime called Hotaru no Haka a.k.a Tombstone For Fireflies. It is a 1988 production but the animation, color and the quality of this anime is excellent.
The fact that this film is animated does not take away from the realism of the film. The drama is real, and there isn't any trace of that "Disney" formula junk where everything ends up all right in the end, making it even more realistic.

Introduction

It is late in the Second World War in Japan, and there is a young boy sitting on the floor of a train station. He faints, then dies. The janitors, while cleaning, point out the dead, and approach the young boy. One of the janitors take a tin container from the boy's pocket, the container, supposedly for fruit candy. But when he opens it and finds an ashy substance. Not knowing what to make of it, he pitches it outside into a field. Startled by the container, a swarm of fireflies rise from the grass, and the small spririt of the boy and his sister appear among the insects, and their story is told.

Plot Synopsis

In the latter part of World War II in Japan, a boy and his sister, orphaned when their mother is killed in the firebombing of Tokyo, are left to survive on their own in what remains of civilian life in Japan. As the situation grows progressively worse in the war, things deteriorate proportionally on the homefront. We follow Seita and Setsuko as they do their best to survive in the Japanese countryside, battling hunger, prejudice, and pride in their own personal battle.

This anime is really very sad and heart wrenching. From the beginning till the end. ;_; I cried while watching this anime. The sister is really really cute. You can see the transformation from a hyper young kid to a under-nourished kid, the war and harsh environment have robbed away the happiness and the life of her childhood. The brother is very pitiful too.
This anime is not about whose fault is it in war, instead it focus on the struggle of the brother and sister.

On Friday night, I met up with my ex-colleagues to have dinner @ Pasta Fresca Suntec. It was wonderful :D Mac, Joyce, Felicia and Evon were there. At first, Mac and Evon were not there because they need to rush something in the office so only Joyce and Felicia were there. We shopped around abit. I realise Joyce loves to shop alot! Haha not surprising since she is from Hong Kong. She told me that she never saves and always used her money to buy clothes. I told her that I used my money to spend on CDs then she asked me CDs can wear meh? LOL
Went to quite alot of shops, Mango, Ebase, Topshop etc. Alot of nice clothing BUT very expensive. How can they spend so much on clothes!? O_O

We went to Pasta Fresca first then after awhile Mac and Evon arrived. Evon bought me a very cute piyo piyo toy! When u shake it, it will have this chick-chick sound. :) So we were happily eating our food and chatting away. We chatted on the topic of ghosts.
Then they talked about the company office. Last time that malay guy who worked for 10 years in New Era told Joyce and Mac that one night he was working very late in the office alone and when he walk pass this semi transparent glass panel. He saw a pair of eyes looking through at him! O_O
And the scariest thing is that this glass panel is near where i sit... ^^;;
Maybe the decision of quitting is right haha...
My ex company also have another branch office in Thailand. The staffs there all saw the "thing" before at a certain time at a specific place in the office. Even the boss himself saw before. He will avoid going to that corner at 'that' time.. I wonder what did they saw. Something hideous looking?

I have been asking myself whether quitting this job is my biggest mistake? But Jay told me I might quit for a good reason. I'm really glad that he is always there to say encouraging stuff to me and not pouring wet blanket.

My uncle was in the hospital and I went to visit him yesterday. He got gall infection. :( Luckily it's not something that is very bad. He didn't tell alot of relatives, not even my granny. When my granny got to knew it, she cried and asked over on the phone why my uncle hide it from her. I am just glad that my uncle is fine now. He will be discharged on Monday.

During the visit, my uncle asked me what I have been doing, then I told him I have quitted my job already. He was shocked. Haha... He asked me that I really have to have the motivation to do my job, he said that if I rest too long, I will become the way I am, don't feel like working, no motivation and no fuel.
He asked me whether am I interested in studying. Asked me to find out more on studying aboard or even better locally. Ahhh. How do I start to find? Local have 3D animation!? Hmm.. I really don't know. For overseas, I have to go to various embassy to find out which school has the course that I wanted to study.
Well we will see about that.

Today blog will be dedicated to the sister and brother of Hotaru no Haka.
My uncle may he have a speedy recovery.
And Jay. :)

My Last Time Here

2004-10-02T04:00:00.000+08:00

October the 1st! New month has started! And here I am. In home typing this blog. Yes I have quitted my job.

Ironically agwenalist has been in her company for 2 years while I have been in my company for 2 months and then BANG! yesterday was my last day in the company.
Compare it people.. 2 years and 2 months. Sigh... I have did it again. How come I can't stay put in one company? :( I am born in the Year of Dog. I feel like a stray dog.. sigh...

Suddenly I realise something. I quitted not because of the people there. It's just that whenever there are problems with the work, I will feel so frustrated and irritated. For example, I did a design and they keep wanting me to change time after time. I know that is a graphic designer life especially a new entry designer. Who knows how to run even before they know how to walk? I don't think I can have a one time approval for the work I have done for being an inexperienced graphic designer, I know I must work hard and have enough experience to be able to do that. But I choose to quit. Sigh. I am such a loser. Can't face even a little problem. Kick a HUGE fuss over a problem that I can't get over.

Complains about my colleagues are just an excuse to quit this job. That is what I have realised.

I have picked my choice and I can't look back now. ;_;
I must walk forward and do what I can do now.

Yesterday was a really sad day for me. I love the colleagues there even I keep bad-mouthing them. Really I do. They are actually very good. :(
They treated me to lunch at Sakae Sushi. They even bought me a very special cup! And a big card.

The cup is really very special. The outside packaging is a tin with a graphic of a body but not the head. Then the head of the body is imprinted on the cup itself. So u need to put the cup on the tin itself to complete the whole graphic. It's very cool. And it is made by Germans! (~_^)b
I don't think I will ever use the cup ever... I will treasure it with all my heart. Also my colleagues..

I realise after so many companies I went to, and along the way I met so many people. It's just amazing. I feel like I am travelling over the "world". And whenever I quit a company, no matter how long or how short the stay is, I will feel this way, sad and can't bear to leave my colleagues.
Yday I stayed in New Era until 9pm haha! Yes man I can't bear to leave the company! Actually I waited for Mac to finished playing his games so we can go home together. Actually among all the companies I have quitted, Aretae is the only company I don't feel this "sad-can't-bear-to-leave"
feeling. Haha! I actually felt relieved to have left!

So during lunch at Sakae Sushi, we coincidentally met 2 ex colleagues of New Era. They are Harry and another Malay guy which I don't know how to pronounce. They are both in the Sales dept in New Era. The Malay guy worked for 10 years before he quitted New Era! And they actually quitted to join another game distributor company! So when Harry found out that I want to quit the job, he kept asking me what experiences do I have etc. Then the other colleagues asked him

"Hey you interested in hiring her huh?"

Actually when I resigned this position, I told them I found another job that is related to 3D. But of course that is a stupid lie. I really don't know how to tell them the frustrations I have with this job that's why I wanted to quit. So I weave up this lie... and the ball keeps getting larger. Cuz everyone is asking where is it. And what is the name of the company. So i anyhow use a company name that my friend is working in and told them. And from my memory, that company is located ard Chinatown.. ;_; and that is quite near to Henderson Industrial Park. Actually I am not sure whether it's located near Chinatown. Die man. What if they checked and it's not!? I am in hot soup! LOL Damn it! So they say next time can go lunch with them.. etc etc
How to meet them when i am in Cuppage Road!? But I do feel very bad and guilty about lying to them :(

BTW If you all are interested to see what Harry and the Malay guy look like go to:

http://www.innovative.com.sg/family.html

Ok now u see the very right there are boxes of photos of each of them right? The second one is Harry! The third one is the malay guy. Haha they are quite funny looking. :D
Oh their company is located at 5, Ubi Road Wintech building! LOL Go there visit if you are free hahahah.. Actually I wonder who is the designer. And don't you find the bald malay guy look like "The Rock" the wrestler? LOL! But that bald malay guy is not the ex colleague of New Era. It is the other one that is.

Actually I found another job but it is a temp admin job at Starhub Cuppage Road at Prudential.
My new job is as follows:

Monday - Thursday
8:30am - 5:15pm

Friday
8:30am - 5:30pm

Wierd timing right? O_o Sat no need to work! Yeay! o(^-^)o Bad thing is need to wear formal on Monday to Thursday, Friday casual! :D

Why am I so happy with this job? -__- I don't know. There are 3 other people working with me. Hope they are not bitches and hope they are around the same ages with me. I think the other 3 are just fresh graduates. Just hope I can get along well with them. Things just flashes pass my mind. Like what if lunch time, the 3 of them went without me!? O_O Oh well it's ok I shall eat lunch alone then.

Most importantly, I hope the things they gave me are not too brain consuming or too difficult. Prudential don't pay me enough to work on this! -__- LOL!
And that stupid agent said mins ago that she will sms me the address of the company. But until now still no news from her -___-

Gilbert, Mingyi, Cheryl, Huang Ling, Chloe, Richelle, Joyce, Felicia, Evon, Terrence, Mac, if you ever come across this blogger of mine, please don't get angry, didn't mean to bad mouthed you all. And don't mean to lie to you all. The best I can do is to say a big sorry to you here in my blog. And thank you ever so much that you all take good care of me. ;_;

Today this piece of blog, I will dedicate to them. May they be happy always.

Fav song of the moment: Aerosmith's "I Don't Want to Miss A Thing" (fits my mood now. Although the song is about love, to me it's more about the colleagues I love.) ya la i know it's a bit passe and cliche song but still... I like the first part so much. The music only.. it's very ominous. :)

Side note: agwenalist, I hope Prudential has internet so I can still chat with you through MSN. You know I really enjoyed talking to you and Zen. :) Don't be sad ok? *hugs*

Oh yeay one more thing about blogger. How come the time adjustment is so stupid whenever I edit my blog the time will become one hour faster then I have to adjust it again!! Damn it! Stupid blogger! >:(

The Decision

2004-09-27T09:00:00.000+08:00

Sigh... Sunday is ending soon and Monday is approaching.. meaning I have to work my ass off again. The thought of work makes my head aches.

I just finished my first issue of the game catalog and it returned to me with lots of changes. I really think I am not capable of being a graphic designer as I hate to always change stuff. And I still have the second issue to do which is going to be printed out by this month as well. How am I going to finish it by end of this month. Not forgetting I need to prepare the next issue for month November. My supervisor in the beginning claimed that if I need help, I can always looked for him. When I find him, he pushes me away with silly excuses. -__-

The only good thing about it is the month is coming to an end. Which means pay day is arriving soon! Moneeeyyyy!!!

Final Fantasy 11 Chains of Promathia Expansion arrived in Singapore today! My friend Demonwithin and her gf Angelwithin has booked a copy for me. Lots of my Final Fantasy online buddies all rushed down to Sim Lim to grab their copy as well haha. But I don't really want it cos it is going to cost me 50 plus bucks. And I don't earn much. I lost the motivation to play this game. Just took up too much of my time! >_< Helen-chan! Lol

Ok since no one really vote for what I have posted during the last post, I have already decide on what to do about my current job!

I decided to quit it.

Well of course after getting my pay then I tender my resignation letter hahaha! Next time no more chatting on the MSN with agwenalist or zen! Haha!
Wow I find that I have lesser things to update on this blog. I might just delete this blog one fine day.

Judgement Day 2 (-__-)==O)°-°)

2004-09-24T06:00:00.000+08:00

...continue from tomorrow

I am now in the office typing this piece of blog! I don't give a damn if people walked pass and saw what I have type. And you know why? My supervisor and Mac are playing online game now! The time now is 9:14AM! Can't believe it right? That they can play games early in the morning! Since they are enjoying playing games, I shall type my blog then!

Marketing Dept
Chloe
Ok this is another bitch whom I blacklisted! She likes to dominate people! And she is those types of woman who will bully those who she thinks is weak.
If she can take advantage of you, she will. Stuff like cutting the artwork or pasting whatever stuff, she will always ask people for help. Like she is some princess, ordering people around. She asked me for help once and I only helped her for the first and last time. That's it. The second time she asked me for help, I say

"Uhhhh... later if I am free."

then I smile reluctantly.

From then onwards, no more "Can you help me" from her. (^0^)V Yeayyyy!
And she is so 2-faced, when she is talking to common colleagues, she uses her normal accent and voice to speak. But when she is on the phone with a client or speaking to the boss, her tone changes, she become like more refined and speak with a american-wannabe accent... (-___-)
What are we to her? Chop liver?

There is another incident that happened which makes me dislike her even more. It happened like this week on Tuesday(it was the day when the chair incident happened too, damn it, why am I so unlucky!?). It was time to knock off, and suddenly I saw her coming towards my direction, she say secretly to me,

"Hey Zixin can I install Sims 2 on your computer?"

I say

"Ok can."

Then she turned to the other 2 girls that is part of her PR clinque and told them all,

"Then after installing you can go home earlier la so that I can play on your computer!"

Then she laugh with her clinque. Her HA HA HA is like the witch's or stepmother's laughs! Then her clinque is the back-up laughters -__- I pretend to laugh along with them but when I turned to face my computer, I rolled my eyes @_@ I think she is so lame... Just cos I am not part of her clinque, does she has the right to poke fun of me huh? Huh? HUH!?
And why the ass she wants to install Sims 2 in my computer, can't she install the game in HER OWN computer!? Doesn't she know my computer needs alot of disk space? Hello.. I am a graphic designer ok! 300 dpi equals to how many bloody gigs or megabytes of diskspace? USE youuur brain rather than cracking stupid non-funny lame-mo jokes!

Joyce Li
Ok I think she doesn't really have much bad points for me to complain about. She is from Hong Kong. She is quite close with Mac. I think it's not surprising, cos both of them are quite nice.
One bad thing about her is she can be quite fierce. And she speaks quite loudly. Well she is from Hong Kong afterall. She belongs to Chloe's clinque. Although she is one of them, she wouldn't do anything that is extremely bad or mean to other people.

Evon
I don't exactly dislike her, but the roots of resentment is certainly growing fondly in my heart for her! Hahaha. She is a.k.a The Diet Girl in my office. She likes to go on diet cos she thinks she is fat. I don't find her fat but I do think she has alot of flabs on her. She got this 3 days diet from the NTUC Income website on what to eat so she follows it and says that it can only be done once per month. After she complete her 1st 3 days diet, she come around telling us that when her boyfriend saw her, commented her that she indeed like look thinner. To me, she still looks the same. :P

There was this other time where she cut her hair, she specially came to my seat and say

"Hey Zixin! You see i cut my hair already! But I don't like the fringe, quite wierd hor?"

Hmm.. hello, how come you want to be so high strung about cutting just the fringe for your hair. It's not like you have a drastic hair change. Just only the fringe. And when she bought her new handphone she also came along and told everyone that she finally bought her handphone blah blah.. Oh yeah, she was the marketing girl I refer to, taking 3 hours to change her stupid handphone.

I think she is quite pretty and everyone told her that already. If more than 1 person commented you that you are pretty, you are right? But she kept saying,

"No la! I am very ugly!"

She just want to keep saying that to get more compliments from us ¬__¬ Oh well... what can I say...
Anyway she showed us her IC photo.. Omg.. she really don't look like what she looks like now. She looked like an auntie last time during her secondary school years... I didn't make this comment myself, she also said it herself.

Felicia
She just joined like 2 weeks ago. Up till now she is quite ok. But I really hate the way she talks
-___- She talks just like Fiona Xie in the Pixie show... Felicia is very hyper and like overly cheerful. Guess I am not so used to people being ultra happy. Hey, what irony, Fiona starts with a "F", Felicia's name too...

That is the end of the list for Marketing Dept.

Now I want to complain about the receptionist!

Cheryl
Yes her name coincidentally is Cheryl, I got a friend, her name is also Cheryl. But both of them are so much different. One-heaven-One-earth kind of different! Of course my Cheryl is better than her ten million times! ^^
This Cheryl is so whiny! Whenever I go home together with her or go out for lunch with her, she will always whine non stop. ;_; My poor poor ears, they suffer from her whinings and complains.
<(0-0)>
She keep saying she wants to quit this company and the salary is so low etc. But until now she still didn't do it. Every lunch time she will say "Sigh.. I am soooooo tired" -___- Worse thing about her whining is that she keep repeat the same complain again and again and again.
As if she is the only one who is tired. I also very tired but did I say I am tired everytime during lunch hours?

Last but not least I want to complain about my Boss! How can I not after I complain so much about others right? Hahaha...

Allan
Yep he is my boss. Stingy and calculative (that explains why he hired Richelle @_@). Set all the stupid company rules:

• Cannot be late for more than 15 mins, if late for the 3rd time, have to apply 1 hour leave.
• Work 3 saturdays per month, staff only allow to take one saturday off each calendar month. (might as well don't give -__-)
• Must wear formal.

He is very sarcarstic. Well I haven't get it from him yet. But heard he is quite mean with the marketing and sales staff. Who does he thinks he is? Simon Lower from American Idol? ~_~ Give me a break!

My company name is New Era.. but the management is so Old Era.. The company name doesn't even fit the company's way of doing stuff.. So sad. ;_;

Ohhhh one last thing! I realise my supervisor is so fake. He pretend to be caring and helpful but he sucked ass man. I think Mac should be the supervisor and not him. I am currently doing a game catalog, it has so many damn pages. It was thrown to me courtesy of my supervisor. He thinks I should handle the catalog alone, by myself. He throw the game magazine to Mac alone too.. that leaves like NOTHING for him to do. DUH!
So what happened was Mac got to know I am handling the game catalog alone, he was rather shocked that I am handling the catalog by myself without any help from him and the stupid fatty bom bom. Mac then suggested that I should dispatch the pages that was done before by him or fatty bom bom. So I gave Mac the pages he had done before.
Then I message my supervisor about his pages.
The message goes like:

"Terrence, can you do the Super Value Soft page since you have done it before, I discuss with Mac already, he suggested I should give the pages that you or him have done before."

My supervisor reply:

"Yeah, if i got the artwork I will give it to you"

What kind of ass answer is that? What does he mean? Obviously it means that he will give me the artwork and I have to do the page myself! He is such a scheming, slying, no-good actor. Damn it, while I am slogging away with his work, he is happily playing his stupid-ass games!
Yeay and NOW I am doing his stinky Super Value Soft page!

Ok now, I need you readers to vote for my decision.

Qn: Should I quit this damn-ass company and work as a temp admin for a period of 5 months? Remember the fact that I will quit this job eventually. I am planning to work in a 3D company. So shouldn't I quit this job earlier rather than suffer in slience from all this ill-treatings?
Yes or no?

OK! Now I have deliver what I have promise you all my dear readers!! So enjoy reading! Haha!!!
Remember to vote! Thank you m(.___.)m

Ok yesterday I was talking to agwenalist on MSN as usual , what is new anyway haha and we were discussing about the bear making shop we will open.
Personally I think it will be non profitable. Cuz this bear making business is already started by someone. I think the fad has fade out already. I didn't tell her that in MSN though :P
But anyways why bear making is being pulled into the picture? That is because agwenalist joined this talent school, erm i don't know how you called it. Yup they offer alot of courses like dancing, singing and of course BEAR MAKING! \(^0^)/
I was very keen to join the school but due to the fact I am very poor, I decided not to.

HOT HAPPENINGS!
Hot happenings that just come out from the oven!
Something just happened! While I was concentrating on typing this blog, Felicia called me over and asked me for my help.
Before she asked me for my help, I saw the MSN box that is on the computer screen.
It was the conversation between her and Terrence. It seems that Felicia want to ask Terrence to put in the missing logo into the game cover. But Terrence is busy doing other stuff.
So she asked me to help her put in the logo.

I was thinking, this job is quite simple, how come my supervisor can't just do it quick and get it over with so she won't bug him again?
Then on the other hand, can't Felicia WAIT for a moment before fatty bom bom gets back to her?

I accept her favor and she said she will pass me the file but I think my supervisor doesn't want me to do his job cos until now still no news of the stupid file. Oh well even better for me. Hahaha
(^O^)

Ahhhh after a few minutes, I come back to this blog to add this paragraph.
Felicia secretly msg me, she told me that Terrence wasn't too happy that she asked me to put in the missing icon.. Hmm what is the big deal anyway? Anyway fatty bom bom asked me not to do the simple task. Ok I shall obey!

Oh yeay be sure to visit other blogs by all my close friends:
agwenalist
astaldoreiel
helenwintermelon

I shall dedicate this whole complain blog to my close friends, agwenalist, helenwintermelon, astaldoreiel and of course Zen! For they share my woes and weals! XD

Judgement Day (-__-)==O)°-°)

2004-09-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

HOLLA! Long time didn't touch this damn blog already!!! LOL Was scorn by agwenalist for being lazy, her proof of her 7 , now 8 blogs vs mine, only 3, now 4 blogs hahaha! Anyways... I am not so depressed and sad... for NOW. Haha.. And I thought since I am in ok mood, I shall blog. Don't want to keep you readers waiting hahaha ^^;; As if I have many readers like that.. Before I continue this blog, pardon me as it will be a long one.

Ok last time I promise yall that I will list out who is who in my company and the bloody faults they have. I shall list out the colleagues who sit near me and their clinques. I am going to get very catty on the stuff I complain.. so.. erm.. I don't know, hate me if you want.

IT Dept
Terrence:
He is my supervisor(well he is actually only a web designer but he speaks for all of us. I only get to know that recently). A.k.a fatty bom bom. He is 25 years old. He has bad breathe, and when he is at your desk, briefing you on the work, you don't want him to be panting and breathing heavily down your neck cos that's where the bad breathe comes in. Trust me, I had the first-hand encounter. Now that explains why he always likes to eat chewing gum. Chew chew chew.
He is not all bad. Sometimes he is helpful, but a little too over extra helpful, and what do you get when you are overly helpful? You are a nosey parker. I am going to copy and paste the well written essay about the incident I had with my supervisor. Mostly I call Terrence my supervisor, I don't like to use his name in front of my friends. I don't know why. OH, guess what? Here I go again, writing out of point, mentioning of names again.
Tis is the story...

There was one time this marketing girl, she joined the company like 2 weeks earlier than me, she needed to change her handphone. Cos she just bought it but the screen always hang. So she asked me whether want to go eat lunch with her and my supervisor... at first i was hesistant. Cos last sat they asked me to join them for lunch and also changed the handphone but i didn't join them cos i don't feel close to them .. so i rejected them. Then when i say no right, my supervisor come to my seat and keep saying

" GO LA come with us la!"

then again i say no to him, then he like

"hmm why huh?"

I was so turn-off by his stupid behaviour man.. keep asking me why.. I don't want to go means don't want to go... stop pestering me!!!

Then this time they asked again so I say ok. My supervisor got car and offered to help her. And guess what.. we spend like 3 hrs to eat and get her hp changed.. it was the part when she changed handphone that cost us the time. We ate quite fast. So in the end, my supervisor started to run like a mad person... -__- then the marketing girl started to run... So i also ran too.. I was thinking if u wanted to change ur handphone and spent 3 hours, then why u wanted to run like mad now? It's like so stupid.. then made me rush... I was sick that time by the way.

And my supervisor he is fat...fat person sweats a lot.. and he pant very heavily after he ran.. then i was feeling very irritated... I just can't help feeling that they "drag" me down with them... cos it was only me, my supervisor and that girl... and they were the ones who kept asking me to go with them.. like very fishy. Why keep asking me to go with them. Then in the car, those 2 were thinking of what excuse to come up with when the ppl asked us why we go for lunch for so long?
Then my supervisor say

" Tell them we take Zixin to clinic to take med again la.. just now she cough until like that"

then he laughed... I was like really irritated by his behaviour. Then the girl say

"Haiyo we are teaching zixin bad bad things"

Then my supervisor say

"Aiya no ma, next time Zixin will need our help HOR zixin HOR?"

All i did was keep quiet and smile. -___- WTF man!? they want to make use of me is it? And my supervisor is those who "eat snake" first then stay overnight in the company to finish his work. If u stay overnight, then the impression u give is more likely u really worked hard right?

-The End-

Now there was this part where I was coughing really badly right? It was when he came to my seat to brief me something to do and I keep coughing cuz my throat is so dry and itchy and it made you cough and cough. My supervisor thought I was pretending to cough cos he thought that I felt that he is giving me too much work for me to do. So he ask me

"Don't cough until you spew blood hor."

thereafter he say

"Need to call General Hospital or not?"

It was so sarcarstic and mean of him to say that to me. And he didn't realise that I was really coughing until I cough until there are tears in my eyes. Then he told me that if I need to take MC or what, can just tell him.

Oh yeah, one more thing about him is he speaks really rude to his girlfriend. It happened just today, he was talking on the phone with his girlfriend and his tone started to sound rude and angry. Actually what happened was that his girlfriend always beat around the bush when she wants to tell him what she has done. So that irritates him. He asked me as a girl point of view, WHY? Hello!?!?!?!?!! Why must he ask me? Do I look like I am some information centre? And his WHY seems like directing to every girls act this way to irritate guys.. -__-
And how come during working hours he asked me this type of question?

I found out that my supervisor is trying his very best to hide his ugly side. How I know? Ahhhh! This happened in a hawker centre. I went for lunch with the marketing girl who changed her handphone and also my supervisor. My supervisor ordered sugar cane juice, the person brought his drink to his table, my supervisor hand her the money, she rummaged through her pocket for 20 cents coin small change. But she couldn't find any so she wanted to walked back to her stall to find the 20 cents coin for my supervisor. My supervisor didn't know. He looked at her in a ridiculous way and say

"Aye Xiao Jie (Miss), my 20 cent coin leh!?"

in a very rude, irritatingly manner (just like the way he talked to his girlfriend, or like the world owe him something like that). I mean commmme on, it's just 20 cents ok. Why the heck he get so "excited" about it!?

I quickly stood up for the auntie and told him that she don't have the small change. Then the auntie start to self explain. Then my supervisor like give that kind of embarrassed look, like "uh-oh i nearly give my game away" kind of look. And he break into laughters.. imagine a fat guy doing all of the above... Anyways my point is he is actually a very calculative person.
I am starting to wonder despite all his caring and helpful front, what is hidden behind that mask? You see humans are such good actors and fakes... You will never know.

So you might think that's about the complains I got for him. I can tell you that there will be more complains about him in the future in my blog. But that will be enough for him in one day, let's move on...

Mac the Designer:

Ok! Mac is the most exprienced designers among the 3 of us. He is even more exprienced than Terrence our supervisor. He is 27 year old but act like a 22 year old. He loves to play games. His nickname is Da Shi Xiong, cos he always refer me to his Xiao Shi Mei. I really don't know where did that came from. I really don't have any complains about him. Cos he is really a nice person as well as a very creative graphic designer! What he design really awed me. I can give him my respect. And he finished what he has on hand to play games, but only occassionally, most of the time, he will play first then do work. Everything is fine with him only that....

He always plays the same DARN mp3 over and over again! Recently he found a liking to F.I.R's "Fly Away" song and the other one is "Our Love" or whatever... Last month it was Jay Chou's song... it nearly drove me up the wall. Now I absolutely hate F.I.R thanks to Mac for over-exposuring them to me...

Maybe I should bring some nursery rythmes and played it over and over again. Haha!

Ok that's about it for Mac.

Now coming to PR(Public Relation) Marketing Girls. Once a friend of mine, her name is Zen, told me that they are Public Relation girls not Public Rally girls, I couldn't agree more with her.

Marketing Dept
Richelle
This Richelle is one calculative bitch! I really don't understand why she is even working under Marketing Dept. She should be under Accounts dept for her calculative nature will serve her well! Let me tell you why.

This week, Tuesday, when I came in to the office, I found out that my chair is gone from my table, I wonder what the hell happened at my table too. There are coffee stains on my table and it is in quite a mess. My computer was on, someone obviously forgot to off it after she finished using it. I really don't mind it until this point. So I asked my supervisor why. He told me that the marketing girls took ALL our chairs except theirs into the boardroom cos there was some launch party or whatever going on. Ok so i sat on the shelf to work.

After the launch party was over, time to get the chairs back, so I went in the board room and got me-self a full backing chair. Previously, the chair I used was 3 quarter cover, not full backing. So while I was pushing back to my own place, I was halted by Richelle bitch, she said

"Are you sure this chair is yours? There are differences you know. One is full backing, the other one is 3 quarter backing."

I stared at her blankly... my heart was thinking, "WTF, why the hell are you being so calculative about the chairs? They are all used to be placed upon your bum"
Duh! Of course I know there is a difference but so!? I am not going to return the chair to her anyways. Sorry correction, it's not HER chair, it's the company's chair!

After I pushed the chair back to my place, I went to the pantry room. Richelle happened to be in the room too, seeing that I enter the room and her clinques are all there. She used the chance to tell everyone in the room,

" AYE I lost my chair leh, you know hor, you know there are differences one, one chair is withe full backing, the other 3 quarter backing. Don't know who took my chair. The chair now I got the full backing part is spoil ok!"

I quickly took what I want out of the pantry and walked out. -___- Obviously I know that part was for me to hear.

And you all know what? I really did took her chair! Haha! But I don't feel bad, cos from this incident, I know her true colors! And why can't I take her chair? It was in the first place that they didn't even ask my permission to take my chair off into the boardroom to use!
And must she repeat again that the chair has difference blah blah etc to others? She is so bitchy and annoying. Reminds me of some naggy mother... can't stand her (maybe I shall sit then, gwen you should know what I am talking here LOL)

In the beginning, I find her to be a nice person but ever since this incident, she is not what I think she is. Another one added in my little black book list!

.... to be continued tomorrow

Escape

2004-09-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

Sigh...
I feel so down... and don't know what to do.

Have you ever had the feeling like you want to reach a goal, you believe in it so much, you wanted to realise your goal so much, in the end when you slow down and think, you realise you are just cheating yourself by thinking that u actually have something you want to work hard towards too. Or maybe what if your plan failed and you cannot get to realise what you want? Bet you don't right?

I am feeling like that now and hence I am bitter and angry at many things including myself.
I want to shut myself off from outside then shut my eyes and dream. Yes I think I am running away from my problems. I think I need help.

What is the problem with me I wonder... Why do I always procrastinate? Why am I so lazy? And when my mood gets affected, I am thrown into my own misery and tantrums that I won't have the mood to do anything BUT sleep.
Yes yes sleeping is my way of escapade.

Sigh, don't wish to discuss any further problems (too dark) here in the blogger...
update when I have the mood.

I am nothing but a quitter.

The Wake of the Dead

2004-09-15T17:41:00.000+08:00

Yeay just come back from my friend's granny wake. ^-^V Bathed and washed my face. Must do that in case "You-know-what" follows you home... My friend wasn't really upset about the fact that her granny has passed on.
As I am typing today's entry, my face is cover with green mask... muahaha! It has been a long time since I do a mask for my poor-acned-filled face. Oh well.. getting a little out of point here...

You know something? I really hate it when after a long day of work and travelling, you came back home, and you enter the toilet to see it in a MESS -__- Like when you look into the toilet bowl you see someone's poo not being flushed away properly... I was so pissed and turned off by that... This toilet is being used by 2 person, me and my elder brother, why is it always me that make the effort to keep it clean? How do I keep it clean? After bathing, I always clear out the hair that I have dropped. Always wipe the toilet seat. After brushing, always wipe away the water that drip onto the counter. Try to keep everything as dry as possible. I am a clean-obsessed freak.
But my brother? Does he cares? Noooooo, not ever! Grrrr that makes me ticked off! Why can't he make an effort too?
And I really don't undserstand why, why is my toilet so humid and wet? So full of fungus? Hahaha... Can it just be dry FOR once?
I guess in a home that I live, the toilet is the most important thing. It must be CLEAN and DRY!

Today while I was on a bus to the wake, I started to day dream while the bus passes through so many condominiums. How I wish I am rich, so that I can lived in high class condominium and while I am away for work, there will be part time maid coming in to help me clean my house... IMAGINE that! I guess my house will be like a hotel, always brand new and clean! But well i am not rich... so haha...
Oh yeay that long, boring bus ride... I fell asleep on the bus! Because it just take darn too long! And I nearly drool! Hahaha :P

I have so many complains on my list man... I can just list it out one by one.. but I am not going to complain first. I want to tell a story of this Korean kid that I got to know from playing a MMORPG(massive multi-online role playing game) Final Fantasy XI. I chatted with him regularly on MSN now.
His name is Jun, well he got a full name but prefers people calling him Jun. Oh there I go again discussing about names lmao. Ok Jun means truth in korean I think.
He lived in US, Kansas.
He is only 12 to 13 years old, he is really a smart kid, getting straight As at school. I figure he is pretty good at sports too from what we have chatted. But there is just something sad about him.
Or maybe I am being overly sensitive again. @_@
What he told me is that his father always beat him up over trivial matters. Like for e.g when he forgot to mown the grass, his father took out a belt and trash him up. Well agwenalist said that probably he played too much MMORPG that's why he gotten trashed! Hahaha... she got a point there too!

Today I was chatting with him, and he told me that when he was four, his father nearly made him smoked a cigar... O_O He also mentioned about other incidents which I can't remember and list out but it was all horrible things that a father can do to his own son.
And his mom. His mom always calling him stupid. Sigh.. that's so sad. Why do the parents treat their own son this way? Aren't they suppose to love and care for him? Or Maybe that is their way of showing their love?
So I asked him what is his father and mother doing? According to what he said, his father worked as a laundry man while his mother worked as a house keeper. He has a elder sister who worked as a Wal-mart cashier. I guess his family background isn't that good...
They might be struggling over there in US.

I really wonder should I trust everything he told me? What if what he told me are all lies? If i believe his lies, doesn't that means I am such a naive person? A naive person cheated by a 12 year old kid? >_<

Now coming to my complains... It's all about my company and the colleagues in there. I have been working in New Era for the past 1 month plus. Frankly speaking, I don't like the environment and the colleagues. So what if they allow me to use MSN, yahoo messenger, ICQ or even have internet access. I find that it is really no point working there if I feel so unhappy.

I am under Terrence in the company. There is another designer who have been working there for 1 year. His name is Mac. Other than that, staffs who work closely with us designers are those PR PMs(Project Managers). I shall name them accordingly and tell you why I dislike them so much...
...........
................... umm in my next blog ok? Hahaha...

Fav song of the moment: Utada Hikaru's Final Distance (I listen until I dozed off haha O_O)
Fav Blog of the moment: http://agwenalist.blogspot.com/ ( yeay this girl writes very funny stuff, well she thinks my blog is funny while I think her blog is funny :D)
Must do's: Need Sleep now... so I guess is SLEEP!
Must not do's: Think too much, sleep too much, be late, complain too much.

Wassup t('.'t)

2004-09-15T03:06:00.000+08:00

Ok test page over... this is the real stuff...
This blog is inspired by my very gossipy friend, I share alot of gossips with this friend. She is Gwen, also known as agwenalist. Actually she has alot of names that I want to mention here but... Hmm... Anyways, my blog is really trashy. Why? You asked? Becuz I always write out of point.. I mean this blog is suppose to be my everyday life, complains, my likes and dislikes blah blah... but then I talked about Gwen's different names. So why am I still writing this blog?
Should I even continue this? Hey Gwen I know you are reading this. Should I continue this blog?
What if I wrote a whole load of rubbish about other people's names (not to mention their private secrets here hiak hiak hiak) rather than my own rants and raves or my 5 cents story?

Oh by the way, I never really ever written down all my personal feelings, good or bad, publicly to everyone... I guess if you don't know me well, better don't read it. Cuz I just think it might shock you that I am not actually a very good person that I pretend to be. Hee hee Gwen must be shocked ya?
I am a very whiny person... whiny in a bad-deep-dark-harbouring-suicide-way.

First blog, fresh introduction. Let me introduce myself to you all.
My name is Yva (of course this isn't my real name. Duh! For more information on my real name, pls refer to agwenalist blog first post LOL), this blog's name is "A Thief's Tale" because I felt that I am living my life like a thief. Thief is sneaky, scheming, don't love to work, likes to find short cuts in life. Yeay that's me awrite! So I will talk about my life like a thief's tale.

I am actually very hardworking from kindergarten till Secondary 2, don't really know what happened that make such a drastic change in me.
Now I lost all motivation to love what I am doing now. I'm now very lost about what I want out of my life. Just like a thief, I live my life each day without a plan.

I am quite sensitive and over paranoid, I think and worry too much. You can't ask me to just stop thinking and worrying, I can't control my brain. It will keep generating... So who can help me? :(

Oh yeayyyyy, I also have a very big problem! That is internal conflict. Take for e.g:
I have a very sweet tooth, love to eat desserts and any stuff that are sweet ^^
But I hate being FAT. So my brain will waste energy fighting, whether to eat or not to eat the sweet stuff... Usually the "devil" side of the brain will win and I will surrender to the sweets and cakes etc. So now I have so much extra flabs and "spare tyres" around... And what will I do? I will feel so guilty that I have eaten those stuff and scold myself in my heart. It's like self punishment...
Well same goes for exercising! Internal conflict plus no determination.

Tell me something, does determination and hardwork really pay off? Do I really need ALOT of determination and hardwork to actually do something successfully?
Can I just live my life without determination and hardwork but still be successful? I am just too damn tired of working with determination and hardwork. Can I just coast through please?

Man I am so tired =_= I don't know why I get so tired so easily nowadays. Think must be the age catching up. Which leads me to another question -> When will I die?
Ok see la, you all see.. I keep thinking of so many questions...

Oh well since agwenalist dedicate her 1st blog post to me, I shall dedicate my 1st blog post to honour her! Agwenalist, have you found out a way to add your URL to my blogger?

Fav song of the moment: Utada Hikaru's Final Distance
Fav sweet of the moment: Mentos Plus's Green Lime
Must do's: Must be slimmer than that "diet girl' in my office ( will talk more about diet girl next time)
Must not do's: Eat so much fattening or sweet food after 8pm -_-

*Star Sapphire*~ Yva Yolan & Ydmzihar