Escape

Sigh...
I feel so down... and don't know what to do.

Have you ever had the feeling like you want to reach a goal, you believe in it so much, you wanted to realise your goal so much, in the end when you slow down and think, you realise you are just cheating yourself by thinking that u actually have something you want to work hard towards too. Or maybe what if your plan failed and you cannot get to realise what you want? Bet you don't right?

I am feeling like that now and hence I am bitter and angry at many things including myself.
I want to shut myself off from outside then shut my eyes and dream. Yes I think I am running away from my problems. I think I need help.

What is the problem with me I wonder... Why do I always procrastinate? Why am I so lazy? And when my mood gets affected, I am thrown into my own misery and tantrums that I won't have the mood to do anything BUT sleep.
Yes yes sleeping is my way of escapade.

Sigh, don't wish to discuss any further problems (too dark) here in the blogger...
update when I have the mood.

I am nothing but a quitter.