The Decision

Sigh... Sunday is ending soon and Monday is approaching.. meaning I have to work my ass off again. The thought of work makes my head aches.

I just finished my first issue of the game catalog and it returned to me with lots of changes. I really think I am not capable of being a graphic designer as I hate to always change stuff. And I still have the second issue to do which is going to be printed out by this month as well. How am I going to finish it by end of this month. Not forgetting I need to prepare the next issue for month November. My supervisor in the beginning claimed that if I need help, I can always looked for him. When I find him, he pushes me away with silly excuses. -__-

The only good thing about it is the month is coming to an end. Which means pay day is arriving soon! Moneeeyyyy!!!

Final Fantasy 11 Chains of Promathia Expansion arrived in Singapore today! My friend Demonwithin and her gf Angelwithin has booked a copy for me. Lots of my Final Fantasy online buddies all rushed down to Sim Lim to grab their copy as well haha. But I don't really want it cos it is going to cost me 50 plus bucks. And I don't earn much. I lost the motivation to play this game. Just took up too much of my time! >_< Helen-chan! Lol

Ok since no one really vote for what I have posted during the last post, I have already decide on what to do about my current job!

I decided to quit it.

Well of course after getting my pay then I tender my resignation letter hahaha! Next time no more chatting on the MSN with agwenalist or zen! Haha!
Wow I find that I have lesser things to update on this blog. I might just delete this blog one fine day.

Judgement Day 2 (-__-)==O)°-°)

...continue from tomorrow

I am now in the office typing this piece of blog! I don't give a damn if people walked pass and saw what I have type. And you know why? My supervisor and Mac are playing online game now! The time now is 9:14AM! Can't believe it right? That they can play games early in the morning! Since they are enjoying playing games, I shall type my blog then!

Marketing Dept
Chloe
Ok this is another bitch whom I blacklisted! She likes to dominate people! And she is those types of woman who will bully those who she thinks is weak.
If she can take advantage of you, she will. Stuff like cutting the artwork or pasting whatever stuff, she will always ask people for help. Like she is some princess, ordering people around. She asked me for help once and I only helped her for the first and last time. That's it. The second time she asked me for help, I say

"Uhhhh... later if I am free."

then I smile reluctantly.

From then onwards, no more "Can you help me" from her. (^0^)V Yeayyyy!
And she is so 2-faced, when she is talking to common colleagues, she uses her normal accent and voice to speak. But when she is on the phone with a client or speaking to the boss, her tone changes, she become like more refined and speak with a american-wannabe accent... (-___-)
What are we to her? Chop liver?

There is another incident that happened which makes me dislike her even more. It happened like this week on Tuesday(it was the day when the chair incident happened too, damn it, why am I so unlucky!?). It was time to knock off, and suddenly I saw her coming towards my direction, she say secretly to me,

"Hey Zixin can I install Sims 2 on your computer?"

I say

"Ok can."

Then she turned to the other 2 girls that is part of her PR clinque and told them all,

"Then after installing you can go home earlier la so that I can play on your computer!"

Then she laugh with her clinque. Her HA HA HA is like the witch's or stepmother's laughs! Then her clinque is the back-up laughters -__- I pretend to laugh along with them but when I turned to face my computer, I rolled my eyes @_@ I think she is so lame... Just cos I am not part of her clinque, does she has the right to poke fun of me huh? Huh? HUH!?
And why the ass she wants to install Sims 2 in my computer, can't she install the game in HER OWN computer!? Doesn't she know my computer needs alot of disk space? Hello.. I am a graphic designer ok! 300 dpi equals to how many bloody gigs or megabytes of diskspace? USE youuur brain rather than cracking stupid non-funny lame-mo jokes!


Joyce Li
Ok I think she doesn't really have much bad points for me to complain about. She is from Hong Kong. She is quite close with Mac. I think it's not surprising, cos both of them are quite nice.
One bad thing about her is she can be quite fierce. And she speaks quite loudly. Well she is from Hong Kong afterall. She belongs to Chloe's clinque. Although she is one of them, she wouldn't do anything that is extremely bad or mean to other people.


Evon
I don't exactly dislike her, but the roots of resentment is certainly growing fondly in my heart for her! Hahaha. She is a.k.a The Diet Girl in my office. She likes to go on diet cos she thinks she is fat. I don't find her fat but I do think she has alot of flabs on her. She got this 3 days diet from the NTUC Income website on what to eat so she follows it and says that it can only be done once per month. After she complete her 1st 3 days diet, she come around telling us that when her boyfriend saw her, commented her that she indeed like look thinner. To me, she still looks the same. :P

There was this other time where she cut her hair, she specially came to my seat and say

"Hey Zixin! You see i cut my hair already! But I don't like the fringe, quite wierd hor?"

Hmm.. hello, how come you want to be so high strung about cutting just the fringe for your hair. It's not like you have a drastic hair change. Just only the fringe. And when she bought her new handphone she also came along and told everyone that she finally bought her handphone blah blah.. Oh yeah, she was the marketing girl I refer to, taking 3 hours to change her stupid handphone.

I think she is quite pretty and everyone told her that already. If more than 1 person commented you that you are pretty, you are right? But she kept saying,

"No la! I am very ugly!"

She just want to keep saying that to get more compliments from us ¬__¬ Oh well... what can I say...
Anyway she showed us her IC photo.. Omg.. she really don't look like what she looks like now. She looked like an auntie last time during her secondary school years... I didn't make this comment myself, she also said it herself.


Felicia
She just joined like 2 weeks ago. Up till now she is quite ok. But I really hate the way she talks
-___- She talks just like Fiona Xie in the Pixie show... Felicia is very hyper and like overly cheerful. Guess I am not so used to people being ultra happy. Hey, what irony, Fiona starts with a "F", Felicia's name too...

That is the end of the list for Marketing Dept.

Now I want to complain about the receptionist!

Cheryl
Yes her name coincidentally is Cheryl, I got a friend, her name is also Cheryl. But both of them are so much different. One-heaven-One-earth kind of different! Of course my Cheryl is better than her ten million times! ^^
This Cheryl is so whiny! Whenever I go home together with her or go out for lunch with her, she will always whine non stop. ;_; My poor poor ears, they suffer from her whinings and complains.
<(0-0)>
She keep saying she wants to quit this company and the salary is so low etc. But until now she still didn't do it. Every lunch time she will say "Sigh.. I am soooooo tired" -___- Worse thing about her whining is that she keep repeat the same complain again and again and again.
As if she is the only one who is tired. I also very tired but did I say I am tired everytime during lunch hours?

Last but not least I want to complain about my Boss! How can I not after I complain so much about others right? Hahaha...


Allan
Yep he is my boss. Stingy and calculative (that explains why he hired Richelle @_@). Set all the stupid company rules:

• Cannot be late for more than 15 mins, if late for the 3rd time, have to apply 1 hour leave.
• Work 3 saturdays per month, staff only allow to take one saturday off each calendar month. (might as well don't give -__-)
• Must wear formal.

He is very sarcarstic. Well I haven't get it from him yet. But heard he is quite mean with the marketing and sales staff. Who does he thinks he is? Simon Lower from American Idol? ~_~ Give me a break!

My company name is New Era.. but the management is so Old Era.. The company name doesn't even fit the company's way of doing stuff.. So sad. ;_;

Ohhhh one last thing! I realise my supervisor is so fake. He pretend to be caring and helpful but he sucked ass man. I think Mac should be the supervisor and not him. I am currently doing a game catalog, it has so many damn pages. It was thrown to me courtesy of my supervisor. He thinks I should handle the catalog alone, by myself. He throw the game magazine to Mac alone too.. that leaves like NOTHING for him to do. DUH!
So what happened was Mac got to know I am handling the game catalog alone, he was rather shocked that I am handling the catalog by myself without any help from him and the stupid fatty bom bom. Mac then suggested that I should dispatch the pages that was done before by him or fatty bom bom. So I gave Mac the pages he had done before.
Then I message my supervisor about his pages.
The message goes like:

"Terrence, can you do the Super Value Soft page since you have done it before, I discuss with Mac already, he suggested I should give the pages that you or him have done before."

My supervisor reply:

"Yeah, if i got the artwork I will give it to you"

What kind of ass answer is that? What does he mean? Obviously it means that he will give me the artwork and I have to do the page myself! He is such a scheming, slying, no-good actor. Damn it, while I am slogging away with his work, he is happily playing his stupid-ass games!
Yeay and NOW I am doing his stinky Super Value Soft page!

Ok now, I need you readers to vote for my decision.

Qn: Should I quit this damn-ass company and work as a temp admin for a period of 5 months? Remember the fact that I will quit this job eventually. I am planning to work in a 3D company. So shouldn't I quit this job earlier rather than suffer in slience from all this ill-treatings?
Yes or no?

OK! Now I have deliver what I have promise you all my dear readers!! So enjoy reading! Haha!!!
Remember to vote! Thank you m(.___.)m

Ok yesterday I was talking to agwenalist on MSN as usual , what is new anyway haha and we were discussing about the bear making shop we will open.
Personally I think it will be non profitable. Cuz this bear making business is already started by someone. I think the fad has fade out already. I didn't tell her that in MSN though :P
But anyways why bear making is being pulled into the picture? That is because agwenalist joined this talent school, erm i don't know how you called it. Yup they offer alot of courses like dancing, singing and of course BEAR MAKING! \(^0^)/
I was very keen to join the school but due to the fact I am very poor, I decided not to.


HOT HAPPENINGS!
Hot happenings that just come out from the oven!
Something just happened! While I was concentrating on typing this blog, Felicia called me over and asked me for my help.
Before she asked me for my help, I saw the MSN box that is on the computer screen.
It was the conversation between her and Terrence. It seems that Felicia want to ask Terrence to put in the missing logo into the game cover. But Terrence is busy doing other stuff.
So she asked me to help her put in the logo.

I was thinking, this job is quite simple, how come my supervisor can't just do it quick and get it over with so she won't bug him again?
Then on the other hand, can't Felicia WAIT for a moment before fatty bom bom gets back to her?

I accept her favor and she said she will pass me the file but I think my supervisor doesn't want me to do his job cos until now still no news of the stupid file. Oh well even better for me. Hahaha
(^O^)

Ahhhh after a few minutes, I come back to this blog to add this paragraph.
Felicia secretly msg me, she told me that Terrence wasn't too happy that she asked me to put in the missing icon.. Hmm what is the big deal anyway? Anyway fatty bom bom asked me not to do the simple task. Ok I shall obey!

Oh yeay be sure to visit other blogs by all my close friends:
agwenalist
astaldoreiel
helenwintermelon

I shall dedicate this whole complain blog to my close friends, agwenalist, helenwintermelon, astaldoreiel and of course Zen! For they share my woes and weals! XD

Judgement Day (-__-)==O)°-°)

HOLLA! Long time didn't touch this damn blog already!!! LOL Was scorn by agwenalist for being lazy, her proof of her 7 , now 8 blogs vs mine, only 3, now 4 blogs hahaha! Anyways... I am not so depressed and sad... for NOW. Haha.. And I thought since I am in ok mood, I shall blog. Don't want to keep you readers waiting hahaha ^^;; As if I have many readers like that.. Before I continue this blog, pardon me as it will be a long one.

Ok last time I promise yall that I will list out who is who in my company and the bloody faults they have. I shall list out the colleagues who sit near me and their clinques. I am going to get very catty on the stuff I complain.. so.. erm.. I don't know, hate me if you want.

IT Dept
Terrence:
He is my supervisor(well he is actually only a web designer but he speaks for all of us. I only get to know that recently). A.k.a fatty bom bom. He is 25 years old. He has bad breathe, and when he is at your desk, briefing you on the work, you don't want him to be panting and breathing heavily down your neck cos that's where the bad breathe comes in. Trust me, I had the first-hand encounter. Now that explains why he always likes to eat chewing gum. Chew chew chew.
He is not all bad. Sometimes he is helpful, but a little too over extra helpful, and what do you get when you are overly helpful? You are a nosey parker. I am going to copy and paste the well written essay about the incident I had with my supervisor. Mostly I call Terrence my supervisor, I don't like to use his name in front of my friends. I don't know why. OH, guess what? Here I go again, writing out of point, mentioning of names again.
Tis is the story...

There was one time this marketing girl, she joined the company like 2 weeks earlier than me, she needed to change her handphone. Cos she just bought it but the screen always hang. So she asked me whether want to go eat lunch with her and my supervisor... at first i was hesistant. Cos last sat they asked me to join them for lunch and also changed the handphone but i didn't join them cos i don't feel close to them .. so i rejected them. Then when i say no right, my supervisor come to my seat and keep saying

" GO LA come with us la!"

then again i say no to him, then he like

"hmm why huh?"

I was so turn-off by his stupid behaviour man.. keep asking me why.. I don't want to go means don't want to go... stop pestering me!!!

Then this time they asked again so I say ok. My supervisor got car and offered to help her. And guess what.. we spend like 3 hrs to eat and get her hp changed.. it was the part when she changed handphone that cost us the time. We ate quite fast. So in the end, my supervisor started to run like a mad person... -__- then the marketing girl started to run... So i also ran too.. I was thinking if u wanted to change ur handphone and spent 3 hours, then why u wanted to run like mad now? It's like so stupid.. then made me rush... I was sick that time by the way.

And my supervisor he is fat...fat person sweats a lot.. and he pant very heavily after he ran.. then i was feeling very irritated... I just can't help feeling that they "drag" me down with them... cos it was only me, my supervisor and that girl... and they were the ones who kept asking me to go with them.. like very fishy. Why keep asking me to go with them. Then in the car, those 2 were thinking of what excuse to come up with when the ppl asked us why we go for lunch for so long?
Then my supervisor say

" Tell them we take Zixin to clinic to take med again la.. just now she cough until like that"

then he laughed... I was like really irritated by his behaviour. Then the girl say

"Haiyo we are teaching zixin bad bad things"

Then my supervisor say

"Aiya no ma, next time Zixin will need our help HOR zixin HOR?"

All i did was keep quiet and smile. -___- WTF man!? they want to make use of me is it? And my supervisor is those who "eat snake" first then stay overnight in the company to finish his work. If u stay overnight, then the impression u give is more likely u really worked hard right?

-The End-

Now there was this part where I was coughing really badly right? It was when he came to my seat to brief me something to do and I keep coughing cuz my throat is so dry and itchy and it made you cough and cough. My supervisor thought I was pretending to cough cos he thought that I felt that he is giving me too much work for me to do. So he ask me

"Don't cough until you spew blood hor."

thereafter he say

"Need to call General Hospital or not?"

It was so sarcarstic and mean of him to say that to me. And he didn't realise that I was really coughing until I cough until there are tears in my eyes. Then he told me that if I need to take MC or what, can just tell him.

Oh yeah, one more thing about him is he speaks really rude to his girlfriend. It happened just today, he was talking on the phone with his girlfriend and his tone started to sound rude and angry. Actually what happened was that his girlfriend always beat around the bush when she wants to tell him what she has done. So that irritates him. He asked me as a girl point of view, WHY? Hello!?!?!?!?!! Why must he ask me? Do I look like I am some information centre? And his WHY seems like directing to every girls act this way to irritate guys.. -__-
And how come during working hours he asked me this type of question?

I found out that my supervisor is trying his very best to hide his ugly side. How I know? Ahhhh! This happened in a hawker centre. I went for lunch with the marketing girl who changed her handphone and also my supervisor. My supervisor ordered sugar cane juice, the person brought his drink to his table, my supervisor hand her the money, she rummaged through her pocket for 20 cents coin small change. But she couldn't find any so she wanted to walked back to her stall to find the 20 cents coin for my supervisor. My supervisor didn't know. He looked at her in a ridiculous way and say

"Aye Xiao Jie (Miss), my 20 cent coin leh!?"

in a very rude, irritatingly manner (just like the way he talked to his girlfriend, or like the world owe him something like that). I mean commmme on, it's just 20 cents ok. Why the heck he get so "excited" about it!?

I quickly stood up for the auntie and told him that she don't have the small change. Then the auntie start to self explain. Then my supervisor like give that kind of embarrassed look, like "uh-oh i nearly give my game away" kind of look. And he break into laughters.. imagine a fat guy doing all of the above... Anyways my point is he is actually a very calculative person.
I am starting to wonder despite all his caring and helpful front, what is hidden behind that mask? You see humans are such good actors and fakes... You will never know.

So you might think that's about the complains I got for him. I can tell you that there will be more complains about him in the future in my blog. But that will be enough for him in one day, let's move on...

Mac the Designer:

Ok! Mac is the most exprienced designers among the 3 of us. He is even more exprienced than Terrence our supervisor. He is 27 year old but act like a 22 year old. He loves to play games. His nickname is Da Shi Xiong, cos he always refer me to his Xiao Shi Mei. I really don't know where did that came from. I really don't have any complains about him. Cos he is really a nice person as well as a very creative graphic designer! What he design really awed me. I can give him my respect. And he finished what he has on hand to play games, but only occassionally, most of the time, he will play first then do work. Everything is fine with him only that....

He always plays the same DARN mp3 over and over again! Recently he found a liking to F.I.R's "Fly Away" song and the other one is "Our Love" or whatever... Last month it was Jay Chou's song... it nearly drove me up the wall. Now I absolutely hate F.I.R thanks to Mac for over-exposuring them to me...

Maybe I should bring some nursery rythmes and played it over and over again. Haha!

Ok that's about it for Mac.

Now coming to PR(Public Relation) Marketing Girls. Once a friend of mine, her name is Zen, told me that they are Public Relation girls not Public Rally girls, I couldn't agree more with her.

Marketing Dept
Richelle
This Richelle is one calculative bitch! I really don't understand why she is even working under Marketing Dept. She should be under Accounts dept for her calculative nature will serve her well! Let me tell you why.

This week, Tuesday, when I came in to the office, I found out that my chair is gone from my table, I wonder what the hell happened at my table too. There are coffee stains on my table and it is in quite a mess. My computer was on, someone obviously forgot to off it after she finished using it. I really don't mind it until this point. So I asked my supervisor why. He told me that the marketing girls took ALL our chairs except theirs into the boardroom cos there was some launch party or whatever going on. Ok so i sat on the shelf to work.

After the launch party was over, time to get the chairs back, so I went in the board room and got me-self a full backing chair. Previously, the chair I used was 3 quarter cover, not full backing. So while I was pushing back to my own place, I was halted by Richelle bitch, she said

"Are you sure this chair is yours? There are differences you know. One is full backing, the other one is 3 quarter backing."

I stared at her blankly... my heart was thinking, "WTF, why the hell are you being so calculative about the chairs? They are all used to be placed upon your bum"
Duh! Of course I know there is a difference but so!? I am not going to return the chair to her anyways. Sorry correction, it's not HER chair, it's the company's chair!

After I pushed the chair back to my place, I went to the pantry room. Richelle happened to be in the room too, seeing that I enter the room and her clinques are all there. She used the chance to tell everyone in the room,

" AYE I lost my chair leh, you know hor, you know there are differences one, one chair is withe full backing, the other 3 quarter backing. Don't know who took my chair. The chair now I got the full backing part is spoil ok!"

I quickly took what I want out of the pantry and walked out. -___- Obviously I know that part was for me to hear.

And you all know what? I really did took her chair! Haha! But I don't feel bad, cos from this incident, I know her true colors! And why can't I take her chair? It was in the first place that they didn't even ask my permission to take my chair off into the boardroom to use!
And must she repeat again that the chair has difference blah blah etc to others? She is so bitchy and annoying. Reminds me of some naggy mother... can't stand her (maybe I shall sit then, gwen you should know what I am talking here LOL)

In the beginning, I find her to be a nice person but ever since this incident, she is not what I think she is. Another one added in my little black book list!

.... to be continued tomorrow

Escape

Sigh...
I feel so down... and don't know what to do.

Have you ever had the feeling like you want to reach a goal, you believe in it so much, you wanted to realise your goal so much, in the end when you slow down and think, you realise you are just cheating yourself by thinking that u actually have something you want to work hard towards too. Or maybe what if your plan failed and you cannot get to realise what you want? Bet you don't right?

I am feeling like that now and hence I am bitter and angry at many things including myself.
I want to shut myself off from outside then shut my eyes and dream. Yes I think I am running away from my problems. I think I need help.

What is the problem with me I wonder... Why do I always procrastinate? Why am I so lazy? And when my mood gets affected, I am thrown into my own misery and tantrums that I won't have the mood to do anything BUT sleep.
Yes yes sleeping is my way of escapade.

Sigh, don't wish to discuss any further problems (too dark) here in the blogger...
update when I have the mood.

I am nothing but a quitter.

The Wake of the Dead

Yeay just come back from my friend's granny wake. ^-^V Bathed and washed my face. Must do that in case "You-know-what" follows you home... My friend wasn't really upset about the fact that her granny has passed on.
As I am typing today's entry, my face is cover with green mask... muahaha! It has been a long time since I do a mask for my poor-acned-filled face. Oh well.. getting a little out of point here...

You know something? I really hate it when after a long day of work and travelling, you came back home, and you enter the toilet to see it in a MESS -__- Like when you look into the toilet bowl you see someone's poo not being flushed away properly... I was so pissed and turned off by that... This toilet is being used by 2 person, me and my elder brother, why is it always me that make the effort to keep it clean? How do I keep it clean? After bathing, I always clear out the hair that I have dropped. Always wipe the toilet seat. After brushing, always wipe away the water that drip onto the counter. Try to keep everything as dry as possible. I am a clean-obsessed freak.
But my brother? Does he cares? Noooooo, not ever! Grrrr that makes me ticked off! Why can't he make an effort too?
And I really don't undserstand why, why is my toilet so humid and wet? So full of fungus? Hahaha... Can it just be dry FOR once?
I guess in a home that I live, the toilet is the most important thing. It must be CLEAN and DRY!

Today while I was on a bus to the wake, I started to day dream while the bus passes through so many condominiums. How I wish I am rich, so that I can lived in high class condominium and while I am away for work, there will be part time maid coming in to help me clean my house... IMAGINE that! I guess my house will be like a hotel, always brand new and clean! But well i am not rich... so haha...
Oh yeay that long, boring bus ride... I fell asleep on the bus! Because it just take darn too long! And I nearly drool! Hahaha :P

I have so many complains on my list man... I can just list it out one by one.. but I am not going to complain first. I want to tell a story of this Korean kid that I got to know from playing a MMORPG(massive multi-online role playing game) Final Fantasy XI. I chatted with him regularly on MSN now.
His name is Jun, well he got a full name but prefers people calling him Jun. Oh there I go again discussing about names lmao. Ok Jun means truth in korean I think.
He lived in US, Kansas.
He is only 12 to 13 years old, he is really a smart kid, getting straight As at school. I figure he is pretty good at sports too from what we have chatted. But there is just something sad about him.
Or maybe I am being overly sensitive again. @_@
What he told me is that his father always beat him up over trivial matters. Like for e.g when he forgot to mown the grass, his father took out a belt and trash him up. Well agwenalist said that probably he played too much MMORPG that's why he gotten trashed! Hahaha... she got a point there too!

Today I was chatting with him, and he told me that when he was four, his father nearly made him smoked a cigar... O_O He also mentioned about other incidents which I can't remember and list out but it was all horrible things that a father can do to his own son.
And his mom. His mom always calling him stupid. Sigh.. that's so sad. Why do the parents treat their own son this way? Aren't they suppose to love and care for him? Or Maybe that is their way of showing their love?
So I asked him what is his father and mother doing? According to what he said, his father worked as a laundry man while his mother worked as a house keeper. He has a elder sister who worked as a Wal-mart cashier. I guess his family background isn't that good...
They might be struggling over there in US.

I really wonder should I trust everything he told me? What if what he told me are all lies? If i believe his lies, doesn't that means I am such a naive person? A naive person cheated by a 12 year old kid? >_<

Now coming to my complains... It's all about my company and the colleagues in there. I have been working in New Era for the past 1 month plus. Frankly speaking, I don't like the environment and the colleagues. So what if they allow me to use MSN, yahoo messenger, ICQ or even have internet access. I find that it is really no point working there if I feel so unhappy.

I am under Terrence in the company. There is another designer who have been working there for 1 year. His name is Mac. Other than that, staffs who work closely with us designers are those PR PMs(Project Managers). I shall name them accordingly and tell you why I dislike them so much...
...........
................... umm in my next blog ok? Hahaha...

Fav song of the moment: Utada Hikaru's Final Distance (I listen until I dozed off haha O_O)
Fav Blog of the moment: http://agwenalist.blogspot.com/ ( yeay this girl writes very funny stuff, well she thinks my blog is funny while I think her blog is funny :D)
Must do's: Need Sleep now... so I guess is SLEEP!
Must not do's: Think too much, sleep too much, be late, complain too much.

Wassup t('.'t)

Ok test page over... this is the real stuff...
This blog is inspired by my very gossipy friend, I share alot of gossips with this friend. She is Gwen, also known as agwenalist. Actually she has alot of names that I want to mention here but... Hmm... Anyways, my blog is really trashy. Why? You asked? Becuz I always write out of point.. I mean this blog is suppose to be my everyday life, complains, my likes and dislikes blah blah... but then I talked about Gwen's different names. So why am I still writing this blog?
Should I even continue this? Hey Gwen I know you are reading this. Should I continue this blog?
What if I wrote a whole load of rubbish about other people's names (not to mention their private secrets here hiak hiak hiak) rather than my own rants and raves or my 5 cents story?

Oh by the way, I never really ever written down all my personal feelings, good or bad, publicly to everyone... I guess if you don't know me well, better don't read it. Cuz I just think it might shock you that I am not actually a very good person that I pretend to be. Hee hee Gwen must be shocked ya?
I am a very whiny person... whiny in a bad-deep-dark-harbouring-suicide-way.

First blog, fresh introduction. Let me introduce myself to you all.
My name is Yva (of course this isn't my real name. Duh! For more information on my real name, pls refer to agwenalist blog first post LOL), this blog's name is "A Thief's Tale" because I felt that I am living my life like a thief. Thief is sneaky, scheming, don't love to work, likes to find short cuts in life. Yeay that's me awrite! So I will talk about my life like a thief's tale.

I am actually very hardworking from kindergarten till Secondary 2, don't really know what happened that make such a drastic change in me.
Now I lost all motivation to love what I am doing now. I'm now very lost about what I want out of my life. Just like a thief, I live my life each day without a plan.

I am quite sensitive and over paranoid, I think and worry too much. You can't ask me to just stop thinking and worrying, I can't control my brain. It will keep generating... So who can help me? :(

Oh yeayyyyy, I also have a very big problem! That is internal conflict. Take for e.g:
I have a very sweet tooth, love to eat desserts and any stuff that are sweet ^^
But I hate being FAT. So my brain will waste energy fighting, whether to eat or not to eat the sweet stuff... Usually the "devil" side of the brain will win and I will surrender to the sweets and cakes etc. So now I have so much extra flabs and "spare tyres" around... And what will I do? I will feel so guilty that I have eaten those stuff and scold myself in my heart. It's like self punishment...
Well same goes for exercising! Internal conflict plus no determination.

Tell me something, does determination and hardwork really pay off? Do I really need ALOT of determination and hardwork to actually do something successfully?
Can I just live my life without determination and hardwork but still be successful? I am just too damn tired of working with determination and hardwork. Can I just coast through please?

Man I am so tired =_= I don't know why I get so tired so easily nowadays. Think must be the age catching up. Which leads me to another question -> When will I die?
Ok see la, you all see.. I keep thinking of so many questions...

Oh well since agwenalist dedicate her 1st blog post to me, I shall dedicate my 1st blog post to honour her! Agwenalist, have you found out a way to add your URL to my blogger?

Fav song of the moment: Utada Hikaru's Final Distance
Fav sweet of the moment: Mentos Plus's Green Lime
Must do's: Must be slimmer than that "diet girl' in my office ( will talk more about diet girl next time)
Must not do's: Eat so much fattening or sweet food after 8pm -_-