Being the Outcast

Yes, I think I'm officially the outcast in my department!

I don't know whether am I over reacting or what... but... JS the leader of our department, usually if he has some photoshop techniques or anything interesting to share, he will ask me to join in the meeting. Sometimes he would come over to my table to ask how is my progress of my work. Now that the intern is here, it seems that he always ask him and MC to go over to his place to share interesting stuff. And also he will frequently go over to their table to talk to them. I wonder did I do anything wrong towards him?
But it seems like he never even talk to me at all now... Sometimes I think JS can be quite biased. =(

First, it was JD who got outcasted. Now it is me... Sigh.. I guess I just got to grind and bear with it.. Just do my job at my silent corner...

Sometimes I think MC just wants me and IR to stay fat forever. She keeps telling us that we aren't fat at all but she keep saying she is fat herself... She is actually very slim herself. So what is the meaning of that? Sigh I dont' know... This world is mad... Haha.. Sometimes I just think that working is not suitable for me. First I am not PR so therefore I will not be able to climb up the corporate ladder or whatsoever. I quite despise those who are very PR and can talk their way into the boss liking them.

Unfortunately, JS our leader is such kind... Yes now then I realise. I think that those who have no use or talent or potential (like me and JD) to him, he won't care less about those people. Those who have talent and potential like MC and intern, he will keep talking to them. And now that the busy executive producer is back, he keeps talking to her... It's not that JS has no talent and don't know how to work. But he believes that being PR is important in climbing up the ladder. Well is it true that you need to be PR to be able to climb up? I don't know. If the answer is yes, then I have no chance of earning alot of money then. As I am not PR at all... I don't know how to be PR and don't want to be one. How can I be that someone I hate?

And I distance myself from JS also now... since he don't talk to me.. I don't want to talk to him too... and I don't want to be with this kind of person.

Now I can only pray that Ram was right... that my career will pick up soon. Yes I know I must work hard and not believe in whatever Ram said. But what if I work hard and got back stabbed just because I am simply not PR enough?

My wisdom tooth is killing me man... Maybe I will extract the teeth out just to get 3 days MC so I won't need to go back to the company to face sickening people... But have got to save first haha =p

A conversation that I had with the intern that proves even more that he is an arrogant moron cum spoilt brat!:

(we were talking about computers and his freaking SGD4,000-5,000 cost provided by his parents trip to New York for Siggraph.)

Me: Are you excited about the trip to Siggraph?
Intern: Of course!
MC: Yes someone needed 4,000 to 5,000 in order to go to Siggraph lo!
Me: Wow... You are rich!
MC: Yes! He is and his dream computer machine cost around 6,000!
Intern: Of course must invest alot of money in my computer! Because I used it for work and assignments! You mustn't always think of the figures but think of the investment and experience just like my trip to Siggraph! Instead of saying "Woaaaaah you are so rich you are so rich" like I am a spoilt brat, you must think!!! Think!
Me: Do we give you the impression that you are a spoilt brat when we say you are rich?
Intern: (confidently) YES!
Me: Actually we don't mean that way you know, but frankly speaking you are really rich! I mean yes it's great to invest your money in a good computer.. But the Siggraph trip, not everyone can afford to go as and when they like you know.
Intern: Of course there are poor people and rich people. If you go to Thailand, you will also be rich!!
MC: And he wanted to change his Moto Razzr! He just buy his handphone not long only.
Me: why do u want to change it?
Intern: Well, I can't really hear the receiving line, I don't know why. It sucks!

End of conversation

See this stupid intern is so arrogant! He thinks everyone is so rich like him ah? Can afford 6k computer? Can afford to go to New York just for the stupid Siggraph? Of course he can say don't think of the figures but the experience as the money is not earn by him ma but by his parents! Isn't he spoilt enough? And the handphone also, he somemore got the cheek to say he isn't spoilt... Just because he can't hear anything from the other receiving end, he wanted to change handphone! That's just a lame excuse. I don't believe he can't hear EVERYTIME! I find that using the lame reason of "if you go to Thailand you will be rich and of course there are rich people and poor people" doesn't justify him spending money so freely ba? If that is the case why don't he help the poor? What the fuck!? I despise such people!!

And I really do mean that he isn't a spoilt brat when I say he is so rich. But now I doubt it.. I can confirm he is one... Maybe because of that, he thinks he is far more superior than us therefore he don't hang around with the common people.

Let Your Dreams Be Free!

Let Your Dreams Be Free!
Yes that's the title of this blog! It's the title of the project that Gwen was doing. The one where we need to paint the backdrop of Mr Moo!

Gwen needed our help to shoot the film, she engaged Cheryl, me and Zen to help. Too bad Deb wasn't free on 2nd of July, Sunday to help out. Because it was real fun ma! Hahaha XD I told Jay that I was going to help out so I couldn't spend time with him so he volunteered to come help the rest of the team! I was quite surprised that he wanted to help! But I was happy that he took such initiative! =D Also we were very very shorthanded so another person would be a great help!

We were supposed to shoot the film at Punggol Beach. In the end, the weather was really really hot so our director Gwen picked a nicer and more cooling place just for us! ^^ It was quite near the beach and there are some interesting trees over there... Actually I thought the place was quite nice... Especially where we shoot Cheryl was sleeping. =) Oh yeay.. there was a tree nearby with red string tied onto it... Hmm.. Don't know what it meant but it wasn't good la... Hehehe ^^""

Gwen, Zen and Cheryl reached the place first while me and Jay went to Compass Point to buy some food. We all went there by cab! I know, I'm so sua ku! Live here for quite a long time yet don't know how to get to Punggol Beach by bus 82 XD
When we reached the place, we saw the 3 girls sitting at the bus stop, before I reached, I called the girls to find out where was their location and they told me they were eating fried rice... at the bus stop? O_o So how come they were just sitting there but not eating, turn out they had finished eating the fried rice while sitting at the bus stop without any table at all! O.O The beach was quite pathetic with no tables or whatsoever... quite sad la hahaha...

Anyway we bought the food and gave them their share, it was so funny! Like some picnic at the bus stop, it was quite stupid too la! Hahaha! As if we own the bus stop like that. Cos the whole stretch of seat was being occupied by our food and our bags lo! XD Then we saw an ang mo bringing his huge dog for a walk at the beach! Zen said the dog was some champion breed!

After finishing our lunch, we went on shooting the film. Before we started, some civil defense car drove and stopped at our area, we were afraid that they won't allow us to shoot at that area but luckily they were just skiving and smoking. Everything went quite well I think.. Except till the scene where the backdrop was needed. No one was there to hold the back drop. Because by right, Zen job was suppose to be the assitant director who shouts "Everyone on the set ready?" or "Action!" or she would hold the sign that states what scenes etc etc. While Jay's job was to take down comments on each scenes and takes. In the end they both had to hold the backdrop and Gwen have to hold the sign.

Then poor Gwen had to find the right angle of the backdrop to shoot as she wanted to avoid shooting the very corners of the backdrop where all the stick and hands of the people holding it could be seen. Both me and Cheryl had the easiest job. We just dance, jump, run, kicked the sand! Hahaha :D

When the last shot was being filmed, and Gwen announced it's a wrap! We were all so happy!!! Hurray!! Good effort everyone!! We packed up everything including the disgusting bag of apple pie and fries filled with ants. We thanks Mr Moo for doing such a great job but we forgotten to thank the trees! =((

Then on we went to Compass Point's Swensen to have a drink! We were very very thirsty! The girls all had Thousand Island Float (rootbeer with ice-cream) except for Jay. Jay had a Mega Burger whereby the beef patties was so juicy!!! It tasted heavenly!! The 4 of us shared the Curry Chicken Baked Rice... TASTED WONDERFUL!!!

Gwen! Next time I want to help you with Da Cao Yuan film ok! Hahaha! =p

26th June 2006

On the 26th of June 2006, I'm simply just taking a break at home! Because I purposely took leave on that day just to let myself off from work! =P During evening time, Jay promised me a treat at this Japanese restaurant, quite like their desserts and food there... So yummy... XD

On the 27th of June, I went back to work and there on my table... I saw a huge box! That gift was from Pei pei, Jean and Monica! =) Then near to lunch time, MC handed me this brown paperbag. It was a birthday gift from all the colleagues at SS! =)

Present from Pei pei, Jean and Monica is a...



YES! A digital weighing machine!!! Hahahah! XD It's better than those that needed to use scales as it would be more accurate! I always complain to Pei pei that I didn't have one so they had decided to give me one as a birthday present! It's a very stylish weighing machine I must say! ;) I love it!

Second present from SS colleagues is a...


An Adidas Jacket! The series designed by Missy Elliott.


Respect Me!!! :p

The collar of the sleeve has this tag on it which makes it quite special =)

And also a....


Personalised Birthday Card!
Card Front: They drew a caricature of me, so cute!!!
Card Back: "We Love Claire" XD And my fav Animal Crossing! Hahaha!


Colleagues wishes and signatures inside ^^

Actually MC did sound me out on what I want... But i never ever thought that she would buy me an Adidas jacket at all. She kept saying stuff like "Someone so rich can buy such an expensive jacket leh!" So who would have thought she would buy me this? Actually I did not want to buy an Adidas jacket at all... -__- All I did was just say that I like this particular jacket designed by Missy Elliot! It's the blue one that we saw at the Adidas Concept Store at The Cathay, Gwen and Zen! Then that time, I still didn't know they were planning to buy me a present.

MC actually went down to the store and she saw the jacket I liked. She commented that the jacket I like, the material like towel and it looks ugly... -___- Hello individual preference lo! And then she can somemore say that this jacket they gave me as birthday present, she really looked for a long time, she saw many jackets and all were so ugly but when she saw this, she immediately like it! I was like erm... this jacket you liked it leh not I LIKE IT leh... She got tried on the jacket and thought it looked really good "on her". @_@ She told me that.

How come you pick someone present according to your own taste and liking when the present was actually for that person? It's not that I want to complain but that is simply too much isn't it? Since it's a present from the colleagues so I am really really happy and touched! As I never even dream that they will give me a present at all! But still... I felt this present was more for like her not for me leh... Don't you all agree with me?
Oh ya! I'm quite touched and surprised that TS the receptionist did chip in some money to buy my present! =) I never thought she would chip in! So sweet of her! =)
I can wear the jacket but when I need to zip it up, it looks very tight! Time to lose some weight man! Talking about losing weight.. I will continue on my next blog...

Last but not least Helen also give me a present!


A birthday montage of moi!!! Thanks dear Helen! ^^

Pei pei was actually quite envious that the colleagues gave me a birthday present and nothing to her =( I felt quite bad about it man... But I thought about it, it was actually MC's initiative that I could get this present. If she wasn't there, I would think no one would bother to ask who wanted to share to buy a present for me. Sometimes she can be a real bitch, sometimes she can be a real nice person... Why must she be like that? How I wish she can just be a nice person forever!!! =((

So my birthday ended this way! I wouldn't say it was the best birthday I ever had! But it was definitely not a bad one! Not without all my close friends giving me such wonderful presents and wishes! I am blessed! Thanks all! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

ps: too bad I didn't take photo of the cake that Gwen and Deb gave me =(

Creation of Mr Moo

On the 25th of June...

I went over to Gwen's house to paint her backdrop for her upcoming project for this sport label(better not disclose anything here...). Was very excited about it! Hee hee! And also upon seeing that Gwen needed help therefore I went over to help! Besides, it was going to be so fun! Deborah went over to help too!

Before we started painting, we ate our dinner! After dinner then have energy to paint right? Well the dinner was provided by Gwen's mama! The food is really nice! And Gwen's mama could cook very very fast! She cooked alot of small fishes(dunno what breed are those), she fried some battered prawns and also she did one dish of vegetables(I don't know what breed of vegetables again. But I think it's "kan kong"). Then eat with rice, it's really nice! I loved the battered prawns the most!! "Kan Kong" was nice too! But because I had a late lunch which is chesseburger meal, I couldn't stomach alot of her cooking. Quite a waste man! =( Deborah definitely loved the fish! Hee hee =D Oh Gwen's papa also very funny! He address me as No.23 cos I'm wearing the No. 23 jersey! =P

Ok I must go on and on to the extend of a paragraph when it comes to food ya? Sorry :P

After dinner it was the real action time! Deborah painted most of the backdrop - the sky and the grass... those were the difficult parts plus we had limited paints, so we had to be very careful not to make any mistakes. If we did then it would be a done deal! Gwen and me painted Mr Moo(that's what Gwen prefers to call him) , the flowers on the grass and the big flower on the left of the backdrop!

After 3 hours of sweating and hard work, here is the final product:



Isn't it sweet? ^^ I was very happy with the final outlook and I keep saying "Wow very nice very nice"... But I not thick skinned then say one ok! Hee hee! It's really very nice ma! =p
And it's the hard work effort of 3 girls who are passionate about painting! (*pukes all over*) ;p But seriously we love our masterpiece! :)
When we were doing the last 30 mins of our painting, I kept hearing a very noble yet military music coming out from the TV in Gwen's house. Then I kept running towards the TV to see what was going on! Gwen's papa was actually watching Daylight on dunno what cable channel! Hahaha! XD The music was really really drama! Then I told Gwen and Deb that we were like completing some mission like that with the music playing behind the background!

After painting, we were sitting aside, admiring at our masterpiece. Then I saw Gwen was like walking around and asking his father for candles. His father actually wanted to give her those candles used to put on the altars to pray to the God. O_O
So I thought maybe she wanted to put some candles beside the backdrop then took some photos. You know, to create some lighting. I was quite puzzled, like did she need to go to that extend? Then I saw at the corner of my eye, that Gwen was in the kitchen taking out a seemingly white cake box, putting it on the kitchen table. It dawn on me that it was a birthday cake! As the next day was my birthday, Gwen & Deb actually bought this cake for me! ^^
It was a mango mousse plus a-little-bit-of-sponge cake!!! The cake was quite artistic looking! I was very happy, touched and surprised! The cake was simply YUMMY! I love any cake with mousse in it!! Thanks Gwen and Deb for being so thoughtful! I love you too!!!

After that, everything ended with Deb sending me to Dobhy Ghaut MRT! I felt quite bad because the next day was Deb's first day at her new workplace. But the motorbike ride was really nice! ^^ Love the wind blowing on my face!! Whoo hoo~

ps: Ok... I know that my blog is long overdue! So sorry ah my friends! Hahaha XD Cos I really have nothing to blog ma! And the battle is still on! Yes many deaths!!! XD Btw, I didn't watch part 2 of the battle!!! Damn it! Therefore I missed the most thrilling part of the show! :X